My mind

Is long gone and all the things I used to think or care about are far gone like a dream

Once my eyes open up everything about that dream comes to me but soon as the day goes by the dream soon is erased from my mind.

I don’t want to forget everything that made me, who I am but my mind is fighting time and everything that is being thrown at me and it just isn’t enough for me to handle right now.

I try to stand so strong when all I want to do is falling to the ground and let all the weight of everything just bring me down.

And maybe I will get up when I have had time to gather my strength back.

But, the truth is I don’t let the weight of the stress bring me down even when  I feel like I just can’t go on, some how I go on and even though I’m complete running on empty.

There is nothing I can do but keep moving on and doing my best even when I just feel like I can’t possibly give anymore right now.

My mind, my body all so weak at that moment that I just don’t know what would help to keep me moving forward because I’m burning off my calories than I have eaten and the energy I know I need to go on is nowhere to be found.

I can take a moment and say a prayer and move on and trust that it will work out and I do and the strength and sanity I need comes in full force and it’s like I’ve been zapped and nothing can bring me back down to my breaking point.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes