is moving by so fast that I just can’t believe tomorrow is August.

Soon these hot days will turn warm and then cold, I know that time will go by fast and right before you know it.

Things have passed and you missed them and you wish you could go back and get that time.

Like a precious thing time moves with or without you, your wants and needs come and go and your desire to make up for lost time.

Sometimes doesn’t help, and you begin to wonder will the time come for me to break free from this ice castle that looked so cool and welcoming on the outside.

Will I feel like I’ve finally just stopped making excuses and just took the life I had a took back some of the control.

I know that I’m not perfect and there is always room for improvement and time is on my side if I choose to not procrastinate this time.

I know that right now the only person looking at me is me and my actions are being watched by my Lord but, it is I who feel the shame or happiness when I know I have done something right or wrong.

In the time that is given to me, yet I won’t know what I have missed out on in the end only he will know.

But, I feel if I’ve lived doing the things I love and feel I’ve accomplishes some of these  things that make me feel like my time here was not wasted then I did the things meant for me to do.



Written By: Deirdre Stokes





Photo by Roberto Delgado Webb on Unsplash


my emotions are on straight and as I sit here looking straight at you with no expression at all. 

I am calm and just ready to be capture in this photo as simply breath-taking or maybe someone will seem me as someone who is sad. 

But, what am I said about or am I just another model taking a photo where I stare off into some camera but make it look like I’m looking at someone. 

Hoping they will see me for who I am, a girl who has so much going for her but that does not mean that my life is always so great. 

But, we have to get through the pain to get to the moments that are great and amazing that shape us into who we’ve always meant to be. 



Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I sit

here simply wondering when things will fall back in place as everything around me seems so dark.

I wonder if a storm is coming and if it will wash away my sorrows and as it does will the joy and cheer be restored in me.

Will I gain back the strength I  had or will I be stronger than before or will I know the truth to all the suffering I have faced and  did I pass the test with flying colors.

Or did I let the problems become an impossible situation and gave up before I truly could shine and prove myself.

I sit down and pray to you God that I will overcome my weakness.

I know you are there and you are helping me but, I ask you now to help them as well the ones who may not ask you for help or believe in you.

So as I go I hope you know today will not be the last time we talk for I will sit and wonder some more many times hopefully not so soon again.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes




quiet moments of my day

feels so right.

Nothing bothering me as the peaceful feeling surrounds me

with nothing but joy.

This moment I have been waiting for has been a long time coming

I know that things have been rough but, now it’s starting to look up.

The clouds are now calm as the storm has passed over me for the time being.

I walk around and not worry about something raining down on me and soaking up everything that is good in my life now.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes



I know

that things will be different now and I’m trying to be strong through all the changes.

But, all I feel is this great weight on my shoulders and I didn’t ask for this and all I can do is walk with my head up and hope I carry it all on my own.

Or I can let it drop and move on and not feel guilt that this thing I didn’t wait is left for someone else to pick up.

I know my limits but, lately it’s like to others my limits don’t matter for they just don’t want to do certain things themselves and so they hope I will do it for them.

I know you dont’ expect this from me and so that’s fine when you are in shock and realizing your back up plan is no more.

I know that I feel free and no weights are weighing me down anymore and I know you may look at me differently but, I never signed up saying I’d be your yes girl.

So no I don’t have time for you now and I’ll let you know when I do.




Written By: Deirdre Stokes




much more do I have to give for what I owe to be over.

I’m so ready to cut ties and move on and not look back

I know that this has been a longtime coming and I just can’t believe

this day has finally happened and I can just finally let go of everything.

There is no going back at this point and I’m so grateful to be sharing this moment with you.

I know that the days will seem so much tougher than we thought at first but we can pull this off and everything will workout for the better.

I know that I can hide the truth from reaching my face but for how long I don’t know at this point.

I just know that once it’s all done and I walk out that door it will be like walking into heaven and finally feeling like I’m at home and knowing this is where I belong.

I know right now the fight is worth being apart of but at what expanse?





Written By: Deirdre Stokes





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Stood out in your red Sweatshirt that day as you stood in front of the waterfall. 

This was a rare moment for you to really let your feels flow freely and not worry about the outcome for you had so much time. 

You never turned to me as you begun to pour out everything that had been bothering you all week. 

You didn’t stop speaking even when somethings were so painful for you to say that you had to stop and breath or wipe your tears. 

But, at the end you got it all out and once again you became that brave, open book that I love to be around. 

You were bold and bright before this darkness fall on you and even though those moments of stress you keep fighting because you didn’t want to quit and give up so easily. 


Written By: Deirdre Stokes