Month: July 2019

Poetry

It seemed

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so long ago that I was playing on a playground and it keeps me busy as I ran around with my sisters and friends, to just laugh and enjoy the little things in life. 

To just enjoy the sun shining so brightly and the fresh air all around us as we played for hours and then the minute the street lights came on we would run home and rest up for tomorrow would be another opportunity to play again. 

The joy of being young and hopeful that my future was so bright and nothing would end up getting in my way. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Childhood!

 

Poetry

The

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moment was short

but now it’s over and I look forward to what is to become.

I know that this is a new journey for me and the hope of things finally

working out the way I need it too is so high.

I feel like I am floating on clouds as everything is going so smoothly.

No alarms going off just birds singing me praises as they see the smile on my face.

No complaints coming from my lip as the day goes on.

Just quietness of life just blooming all around and no more just surviving through the day but truly living and enjoying the moment up ahead of me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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want to keep blaming everyone but myself when things go wrong.

I know that right now things are a mess but things will look up when I get though this day.

I know that today is making me rethink about everything that happen so far this year and it’s making me realize it’s time to move on from this chapter.

I can’t say that I will miss the place I am at right now but, I know the sky and the air will be so much brighter and fresh when I walk out of that place and take in the new things that will surely come into my life.

I know I don’t want to complain anymore because I’m at the end of my rope and I just want something new to happen and I want it to happen soon please.

Only time will tell if my plan has worked and I am free from the chains that have been holding me back this whole time.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Make me

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your canvas and paint on me the strokes of color that will show the mood you are in.

make my skin less normal and turn it into a work of art.

I am all the colors you need me to be.

I will be your muse for today and as you make me more than I thought I could be before.

I want to look back on this day and enjoy that I could be apart of your art work and your life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The

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truth is I just want to be angry

because you didn’t think it though as you made my whole plan just go out the window.

And it’s like what do you want me to do and did you think everything would just work out in the end because you thought you had the right help and that no matter what happens it all going to work out.

But, we all have limits and we can’t just keep pushing them because you can’t go as far and as long as we do.

The truth is I am angry and I’m annoyed too and I know when I over share it all ends in a place that really isn’t going  to help me.

So with my mouth shut I just do my best and try to figure it all out  because if I don’t make the right move things will fall apart in a small way.

I am the bridge and wall to everything you do and without me I see a lot of things crumbling around me and you.

I know the beginning of the fight is just as important as the middle and the end because without one is just doesn’t make sense.

To me you are the beginning and I always have to be all three because if I don’t the ending will be a disaster and they will look to you and possibly me but, I can’t be in charge when they don’t pay me to babysit

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I say

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this to you because I love you

and at the end of the day I just want the best.

I know that I’m not the one you are looking for

but, here I am standing near you and just wanting to protect you

from the things we all have become before we try something new this time

I want to lay it all out on the table as you come closer to me to get to know everything we thought was possible at this moment with this thing called love.

I know this moment couldn’t have come at a better time for me and you and for that I know that tomorrow will hand something so much more as you realize that maybe what you had in mind of what I would look like and be like wasn’t the truth.

And it’s time to let go of those past thoughts and dreams and face the facts that every time you wander off you always end up back at my door with the need to be close to me and no one else.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

You

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say things will get easier if I just drop the act and work like a robot.

With no emotions and no complains.

Just get it all done and not worry about anything for that isn’t what I’m getting paid for.

The level of focus is on a high as I ‘ve realized the only way to win this race is to outsmart all of them who came before me and didn’t let their faults bring them down to become broken.

You said a lot that day and now that I think back on the matter I wonder how many people you lied to and how many of them are I protecting at this point.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I guess

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What I am saying is sometimes a bad thing has to end for a good thing to begin.

I am trying to convince myself that this bad thing will just go away on its own but it has been almost three years and it has just got worse.

It’s like I was living the life with a little bit of joy flowing my way and it was all great and now I’m living with not even a spoonful of joy.

A frown is how you see my face unless you are paying for me to have a smile on my face now.

The ability to get my face to turn up is not something possible right now when I all hear is your words of dissatisfied about everything even when I’m doing my best in a situation that is really out of my hand.

I do my best when I’m with the best and we work together and are equal with the responsibilities and we both know what we are capable of handling what is in front of us at all times.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

I knew

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this pain would pass if I just embrace the journey ahead of me but, I feel sometimes I get discouraged.

Because the storm comes without a warning and before I know what is going on I am stuck in a situation I can’t seem to figure out how to escape.

The days are long and the nights are short as the weekend I so surely enjoyed come to an end and the reality of frustration comes back in focus with no hope of being pleasant.

I just grin and bear the pain of knowing all of this is not worth the stress and unbalanced feeling that keeps growing inside of me as I lose another part of me each day I am there.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

My

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Moment is now and I know it’s not wanted you expected.

Or accepted but it’s what makes me who I am today.

It’s not what I’m thought would be the endgame for me.

But the joy it brings lights me up like a Christmas tree.

And the light in me doesn’t go away even as the seasons and holiday changes.

It grows and builds up until the walls

around me are harder to break down and the words you try to use against me don’t hold any leverage.

And there are no cracks in my wall for them to sneak into.

They are just being shouted outside and for that I can be in some peace and quite.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Where’s

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the love

Where’s the passion.

Everything feels like an unanswered question these days.

I don’t know what it is I’m looking for but I know when I find it.

It will outshine everything I’ve been going through lately.

The stress the pain and the frustration won’t be a big deal anymore.

Everything that seemed so big and overwhelming will become so small they will cease to exist.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes