Have I?

Gotten to where I want to be, not yet, but I’m taking little steps every day, hoping I’d end up doing something right one day.
Not trying to let fear or the fear of failing to get me down as time flies by; I am not in the place I need to be, and already three whole days have passed.
And the fear of still being in a place of the unknown is where I am, even with the
light of something new sparked for me last night.
I was too tired to go on, and now I feel lost as the words flow onto the screen from the paper. I wrote it last night.
As if the brilliant feeling I felt last night was a lie to get me to lay my head down and just let it all go for now.
Making self-doubt so powerful right now and the feeling of just pushing it back another day seems like a promising idea right now.
But I want to push back again. It will be just an excuse not to look at it and let it collect dusk in a corner, and soon I will forget again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes


Even in

A brief storm in my life, my passion, always shines through it as it continues to grow and bloom on its own.

Sometimes I can stand tall through it, but sometimes I need to bend down and take a moment to appreciate what I have and what I want.

My future is not always going to go the way I want it to, but I know I will be okay wherever I end up.

So as I stand up and take a shot, I see the world for what it is and capture it the way I know beauty is and can be.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes


I empty

out the screams inside of me and I finally release the bundle up stress of the week and I let it all go as I move towards the light.

As a new peace and time overflow me, and I am free of all the things that are holding me back and keeping from pushing farther and faster.

I know things will have to change if I want to spend more time outside this cave, but sometimes unhealthy habits are hard to shake but I know eventually the light will be all I need, and this place of release won’t be where I hide my secrets and my frustration.

But for now, this cave echos my screams and leans in close to hear my whisper secrets for I know if I say them too loud, they will be truly known but at last the rain stops and light shines through and I am free to be at peace once again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes


Being lifted

Up from a fall, that should have left me alone, but there you we’re.

So strong and determined to get me to a good place so I wouldn’t be that low again.

A man with a purpose to make others better and safe no matter where you are in your life, he will be there for you.

So I know when I fall or leap, he will be there to catch me, so failure isn’t something I fear anymore.

To embrace my lord and know I don’t need to worry anymore, for what is to come will come whether I am ready or want it to arrive.

And knowing the fall will not harm me or stop me from what he has planned for me is worth all the strange things coming my way this year.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes