I sit

here letting it all sink in and of course my mood keeps changing as my thoughts think about what I have to do today.

So much has to be done and right now I just don’t feel like I have the energy to do it but I can’t back out and not do it.

I have to be so much that sometimes my brain just doesn’t want to be so reliable and for once I just want to be like those people who flake and no one is relaying on them because they know they can’t count on them.

But, I don’t want to be someone no one wants to not give a chance to because they have not kept their word.

I want to stand out and be someone you can count on but at the same time have my limits.

I want to be able to say no and not feel guilty because I just need a break for once.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes