Have I

disappeared from your mind that one day when I ask you something.
It will come to a shock to you
Should I have tried harder to make you a part of my life.
Am I the reason things are the way they are and If so I have no one to blame but myself.
Should I feel sorry for myself now and will that even make things better or worse.
I don’t know what to think as my days go by and the things that once seemed so important fade from my mind.
The things that used to overwhelm me no longer trigger me to feel that way.
I am calm and counted with not much bothering me now.
But, then I feel guilty for just living for you and not worrying about the things I used to put first.
But, somehow I don’t want to go back for the now feels so good and I’m not in my head so much.

The pain isn’t what’s running my life now, it’s the peace and love that is so deep.

That I can now get though so much more than I thought possible now.

I’m on a high that out lives my worse days and the person that just seem equipped to marking me miserable.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes