Month: May 2022

Used to be so black and white with no light or joy insight or at least that’s what I thought and felt.

But when I truly opened my eyes, I realized that there was and is so much more out there for me than the weird and different one.

The quiet one who keeps to herself and lets the world pass her by sometimes, but other times she jumps right in and makes a splash.

Lighting up a mood and making things feel right again as my life becomes more colorful again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

It takes a setup to get in the right mood.

To enjoy your simple relaxing day and find the hope of that day.

As your mouth bites into your sweet, you see all the things that could have gone wrong that day if you had allowed yourself to be negative.

And you begin to realize that you have more power than you thought if you change the way you see things and react to things.

You may, for once, get a day of rest and a day that is just worthy of your time.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

I live half my life in the shadows

And the other half in the light

So many don’t know all of me, but I know, and maybe I wish there weren’t two half but one whole.

And the path to being that raw and open is hard as the excuses pile on, making it easy to need not say anything.

But I know you see and feel the pull, yet I close that door off every time you open yourself more and more.

Like a lock, I’m sometimes too hard to unlock, and even though I want to be open, I also don’t want to be hurt.

And have what I shared with you out there just for anyone to know. And even though people come and go, I know I can trust you.

And maybe over time, as I break free from this struggle of control among myself, I will finally let you in, and nothing will be locked away again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

so young and feel so strong.

What happened, and where does all the time go.

And will things start to brighten up again, or will I be stuck in this lane that is going nowhere?

The feeling of not being able to shake this weakness feels like torture to the highest degree.

But I know the time will come when my body is fighting back and moving with grace and strength again.

And I will know the battle behind me was a test, and even if I may have had some weak moments, I kept moving forward.

And those moments will continue to come as my battle is far from over, and I know to embrace my struggles will get me where I need to be physically and mentally.

One day and one moment are all it takes to break and heal me with clarity and certainty I thought I’d never receive or deserve.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Low energy

Need for sleep

So strong I can’t fight it anymore.

Everything is out of whack, and even though the days get better, it is still no relief in sight.

I will make it through, but the feeling of showing up fully isn’t going to come this time around.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes