Missing

from the action and for the first time I can say you were missed

your absent is noticeable and I thought that maybe I wouldn’t care but I do.

The time is coming fast and the past and the present are about to collide and I don’t know how I feel about that.

I don’t want the fun to end but, now I realize it will and then things will be more real than I want it to be.

I don’t want to live in this truth right now and well right now I want to fade away and for it to all have been a dream.

For reality really doesn’t have that many great moments when you see too many idiots and feel like you are less important and in reality we all the same going through good moments and bad moments.

My heart used to be so warm and inviting and now it’s just cold and guarded and my eyes used to hold some joy but, now all you see is nothing for that is what I’ve come to you.

A robot that is there to serve you and tell you what you like to hear and if I don’t I better prepare myself for the war you are about to bring me.

But, what I’ve learned and always knew is when your ugly the worst things happen to you and when you are nice the same shit can happen too you too.

But, the nasty things that come out your mouth are not forgotten just because it is tomorrow and what you said lived in yesterday.

For I forgive but I don’t forget and will hold you accountable for your actions and in the end did you want this little misunderstanding being the reason you don’t get where you want to be in life.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes