Month: June 2019

Poetry

I know

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that this battle that I’m about to face will not be an easy one.

Every breathe It take will help me get through it.

But, I must keep my mind clear because it’s going to take all of me to get out of this.

I know that the future might be bright but it could all turn for the worst if I don’t  truly believe that it will workout.

I know that just a little doubt can change everything so quickly that I won’t have time to stop it once it all falls apart.

I know what I am capable of doing but, yet I stop myself a million times because I am tired and the fight and  fire in me has burn down that it feels like I’m stuck in one spot.

Until I wake up enough to start  moving in the right directions again and only then will things start to look good again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I WISH

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there was more I could say

right now but the words just won’t come.

And I’m running out of time

and there is so much I need to say.

But, the time to let it all out just never seems right

and as the sadness overcomes me I just don’t know how I will fight my way back to a place that feels good again.

I know that you may have to bring me back but, I don’t know if you will notice what’s going on until it’s too late to save me with your love and light.

I guess I can only hope you will find me in time and save me from the darkness that never seems to truly go away.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Thank you

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for letting me go

for letting me down

for making me sad

for making me grow up.

For making me finally know that maybe being alone wasn’t something to fear.

For knowing I needed to be able to do things on my own and that I didn’t need anyone to fix me but, my God and to finally just be me.

For knowing that even though you would remember me for the rest of your life, I would forget you and would resent you until the last memory faded away from my mind.

And until I read some old messages between us I wouldn’t have thought of you and now I am erasing you again and I wanted to say thank you once more before I close this chapter again and bury you away again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Just

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trying to get through the day even though

I don’t know if tomorrow will be better for me.

I know what I am capable of doing if I just give a damn

about what is to become of me.

And some days it’s easier to care and some days it’s easier to forget about

all that I have overcome.

Because the darkness is winning today and no matter how much I try to shake it off of me it clings so hard I feel like I might faint and just let it take over.

For the battle has wore me down and the light shines on me but I don’t want to get up and deal with the crap others keep dumping on me.

I am not your trash can or your robot and I be damned if I am your go to girl for I am just  not getting back up to do your work for I have fallen and I like looking up at everything and I have no desire to get up today.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Quotes

Quote of the day

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“Destiny is no matter of chance. It is a matter of choice. It is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved.”

– William Jennings Bryan

 

Poetry

Even

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when I feel like there is nothing left for us to say to one another.

I still reach out and say hello even when I don’t feel like dealing with people.

You used to have so much to say and now it feels like we’re always pulling at straws to keep the conversation going.

I know things are different but in a way, I am still missing you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes