Month: February 2016

Poetry

Blindsided!

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I’m trying to live for me and let in the people that matter to me.

But maybe I’ve been so blind to think you were my true friend.

I sit here thinking about what you said to me and I wonder  if you were ever meant to be here in my life.

I won’t stand for your foolishness and you can’t make me into someone I’m not.

Because you didn’t get your way, I won’t let your poison get into me and turn me into one of your evil minions.

I came so far I won’t just step aside and let you turn me into the things I hear about and know it would give a child nightmares.

I will put up my hands and push you away with the light pulsing through my heart.

With one blast your gone and the blackness of your poison pulls away.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I won’t be pushed around!

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Who are you to try to push me around.

Just because you feel you have all the answers.

I said no, and you need to accept that and not try to fight back.

I don’t want to go there for I’m trying to be better.

And I won’t let you drag me back to that hell.

So please walk away for I won’t play your games.

You don’t stand a chance when I have God in my corner.

I don’t know why no is something you don’t want to accept.

But I know what I said and so for that I’m out.

That bridge of our friendship you had which you tried to drag me on, is burnt and now your on your own.

 

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Poetry

Who truly knew her!

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What to let out because it’s suffocating me if I don’t get a release soon.

Things seem so different on this side of things.

so much sadness that is so well hidden comes flooding out today.

what is there to say as she looks out the window wishing things were different.

She hides it all so well that the positivity radiating off her would makes you think she genuinely happy.

But behind closed doors she cries to herself and no one will ever know unless she lets you in.

And she won’t because that leads to disappointment and false hope that things will get better for her.

No one realizes how much of her is left and over time she will be gone and there won’t be anyone holding on to the memories of her.

She will just be gone like yesterday, the joys, the laugher, the smile, the affection and the meaning of how much she gave will not ever be known.

 

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Am I welcomed!

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Maybe I’ve overstepped my presences in your life.

Maybe I’ve gotten too close to you and the beating of my heart drove you away.

I didn’t have to say a word because that heart beat gave me away.

You didn’t want the love I was hiding from you, you were not   ready or willing to accept it.

I’m okay because I know you didn’t want to settle.

For the one who may be meant for you could be right around the corner.

Or maybe your heart is on a lockdown and your not sure if you unlock it will even be worth giving it to me.

But I say unlock that heart and let the feeling of spring flow from me to you.

My heart will lighten up the load of pain hidden in yours.

Flowers will bloom where there were holes full of pain and emptiness.

I will full you with the breeze of a nice cool day.

You will walk on a path of lightness and flowers will bloom and birds will sing and you will feel alive again.

So when you hear me coming, please just give me a  chance.

 

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Be my song!

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When I’m down and can’t seem to move on.

Be the words and feelings that picks me up from this emotional roller coaster.

Bring me back up to my happiness that will outlast everything else.

I need your song to outlast every other song I ever heard.

For that song to play over and over again in my head when I can’t find you or get close enough for the pain to stop.

I need your song to blockout all the other noise and thoughts in my head.

Your melody plays on and on and I smile and I dance to your beat and everything is so amazing.

Nothing has ever felt so good and no matter how much time goes by your song will always be my favorite and it will always be my go to song.

I know by you being my song means you can’t stay but I’ll always treasure the memories of you.

 

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Poetry

Happy Valentine’s Day

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Today is an celebration of everyday love and support.

Shared with written words from the heart.

Hugs that fill you up with the love those words cannot explain or describe.

Tears of joy for maybe you had thought that love no longer existed in your life.

Maybe your alone and so you feel there is no love at all.

But if you look deep inside that love is there and it’s been with you all your life.

So don’t let the things you don’t have in your life bring down what today is all about.

And that is love and love is always in your day even when you feel so down.

There is always someone who loves you when you can’t seem to love yourself.

So embrace that self-love or the one you love and hold on tight for ride of your life isn’t over today.

Because love lives on when all the sweets are gone.

 

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Undefined love

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I love to make you laugh, it just puts a smile on my face.

when you laugh it stirs up something inside of me.

I don’t know how it happened but the way I feel is not the same.

My feelings have grown and I think I have fallen for you.

 

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Poetry

Memories!

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As lights flash outside my house

The memories of our friendship flash through my mind.

I worry if your alright as we haven’t talked in awhile, I guess I shouldn’t be surprised since I started the fight.

I throw those words at you like acid  and it burned a hole in your heart.

You probably can’t look at my messages or answer the phone without the pain of my words haunting you like a bad dream.

I’m suppose to be there for you not tear you down and leave you on the side of the curve like unwanted trash.

I was cruel because you said you didn’t need me around as much as before, that you had grown tired of me being so down lately.

I didn’t understand how you couldn’t be there for me?

I was always there for you, maybe this happened for a reason and now I’m not holding you back.

I still miss you but it’s less and less each day as I move on from a friendship that wasn’t meant to last.

 

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I didn’t see it coming

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The force of it sent me flying.

I couldn’t feel the pain because I couldn’t believe my eyes.

The ringing of my ears and beating of my heart didn’t help quite my thoughts.

Was this it, the moment that would break everything I’ve built.

I couldn’t stop being concerned about how you were even though I was the one in pain.

I struggled to get up, for this couldn’t be real.

My heart is not laying there on the ground, ripped out by the chain that connected it to yours.

For the last time our hearts beat as one as  my body slumps to the floor and our time together is cut short.

You look down and a tear falls as you turn your back on me.

It takes some time but my heart starts to repair and as it crawls back to me.

I take my first breath without you and I stumble as I get up again  and I cry for you.

And days go by and soon I’m strong enough to go on without you.

My heart beats a new song and as it pulses through me to reach out to the next person.

Who may break my heart or may hold onto it for a life time.

 

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Poetry

Just another snow day!

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My heart is beating so fast and I feel so alive as I stand in the snow and spin in circles.

With no care in the world, for this little bit of peace as the world fades and I become one with the cold.

My problems no longer matter as the snow turns me into a brand new me.

Why won’t you come out and experience this moment with me, I know it’s cold but the warmth flowing through me is enough for us both.

You smile but stay inside for you enjoy seeing me being carefree and then you snap the picture and I’m forever saved in your mind that day.

You still look at that picture now as I’ve become someone you used to know.

Like the snow I too was clear but now I’m so hard to see behind all the layers of dirt.

Covering up who I used to be before everyone walked over me or pushed me to the side for I was in their way.

 

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Poetry

My Guardian Angel!

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Today I walk on the unknown path

And there I met you and I asked you to stay.

Soon we were walking the unknown path together and you had my back and I had yours.

Together we got through the tough times.

But, then the tough times began  to drag me away and you tried with all your might to get me back.

Those unknown moments were strong and fast and with a blink of an eye I was gone.

Lost from you forever and as time went by you never lost hope.

You knew I’d be back and this time you wouldn’t let me go.

No matter what happens when you save me.

You know together we can conquer it all and so you fight my darkness and you save me.

Because of you I not only found myself but I saw you for who you truly were.

My guardian angel, my light and you have always been by my side.

I just was too blind to see, I was never alone and I needed to trust you.

So I could be saved again and this time not let go when I begin to feel the pull of my darkness.

 

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I don’t know!

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I don’t know what comes over me but these feelings just start to grow inside of me.

Until I can’t bare to keep them inside anymore.
And so I vomit them out into an ugly mess.
It’s not a pretty sight, but once it’s out there is no going back.
I sit here wonder why I do this to myself or why I do this to others.
My words so naïve and innocent just trying to be expressed like there the victim in the end.
No clear evidence that my words would lead to anything but a mess that would be cleaned up.
But not before you hate me and become so disgusting, I’m blocked for life.
Your mind soon forgets me for the sake of your happiness.

 

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The key to everything!

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A key is not just a piece of metal; it’s feeling of leaving when you want to.

Having a choice to walk down a new path, in life and survive the danger.

If your not scared to walk out your door and face the real world without having someone hold your hand the whole way through.

Life is like a snowstorm it will be over before you know it.

 

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Just another day!

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You can’t tell me things don’t feel different now.

There’s an hollow feeling inside of me now.

I wish I could shake it off like a bad dream.

But it sticks to me like glue and as I try to cut it loose.

My body starts to sink like quicksand and the harder I try the faster I sink.

Until I can’t feel anything, I’m numb to the world.

I can’t signal for help for I’m  paralyzed on this spot.

Laying down on my bed, blankets wrapped around me.

Trying to hide from it all.

 

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The truth of me!

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I’m the girl with the permanent sad frown on her face.

I walk and the sadness is just there on the outside and inside.

But the truth is I’m not always sad for I have a smile that is so bright you can’t help but smile back.

A sense of humor that makes you laugh and I laugh too and it’s amazing to live in that moment.

When I’m happy it hurts for that smile just won’t quit shining through out my day.

A happy high that lifts me up until I’m on top of the world, looking down.

When I’m happy the word over hyper doesn’t quite explain my over the moon happiness.

To be that happy girl and to live in that moment is not hard but sometimes.

It’s rare to get a glance of that happy girl with that sad frown is forever present.

Hiding the girl I once was and yet still am.

Oh sad girl with that sad frown won’t you smile for me today, tomorrow.

Oh who am I kidding, why don’t you just smile for me forever and ever.

Because I love your smile and when your happy so am I.

yours truly,

sad girl with a permanent frown on my face.

 

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