Month: November 2019

Poetry

Happiness

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 feels like something of the past sometimes when all that rises from you lately is frustration.

 unanswered questions running through your life as your story comes to a stop.

You still wonder what to do and why didn’t you move before it was too late.

Because you overthink it all because you don’t want to be in the same situation all over again.

But the truth is you don’t have the answers and as you keep praying for them.

You just have to have a little faith because it will all come together on it own I hope.

 
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Shower me

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with your love as today has been a long day and I really need to feel happiness around me.

To feel the joy of being around each other build up inside of me until there is nothing but excitement inside of me just waiting to come out.

To feel something more than loneliness  for two days where everything is silent at night and the urge to do what needs to get done is more clear now as it has ever been.

It’s time to be covered and surrounded by love for the changes that are happening are not going to throw my life into a bigger mess than it already is.

Days and nights seem to go by so quickly and urge to get up bright and early isn’t something I look forward too on the weekdays and even less on the weekends.

Two days just don’t seem like enough time for me to figure it out before there is a knock on my door and it is time to get out and about as Saturday turns into Sunday which ends us with Sunday and that’s when the stress comes back on but the sleep takes over and the thoughts of everything fade away for a night and some of the morning.

 
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

 

 

Poetry

Wasting time

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Just to not lay my head down after such a long day it’s what I should do.

But the sadness inside of me is overwhelming and sleep is far from my mind.

As the day comes to an end and my body is weak and tired.

Yet I keep going on even once I’m home because I want to enjoy my peace and quiet.

For sometimes the world brings you monsters in the daytime only to let you not have to worry about them at night.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So much

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To accept and now the battle feels so unreal.

I know the faith of getting out feels so slim right now.

But I won’t give up for I know settling will win me nothing in the end.

The answer to what needs to be done is so unclear.

I don’t mean to be mean but the ending I knew how it would end and now the struggle will not work out for them.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I know

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Lately I’ve been like an ghost hard to see and even harder to hear.

But, I’m still here if you need me or want me.

Stress and unanswered questions are happening and it all feels like we’re losing it.

As they set us up all over again and why I stay around is something I ask myself every day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

My words

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 Are as trapped as I feel right now in my life.

Timing couldn’t be any better lately as I find myself trapped because I choose not to fight at the right time.

Now it feels like I’m being buried under a pile of snow and there is no sun out that can melt it away quick enough.

So here I am frozen in time hoping that some miracle melts away my troubles and regrets!

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Trying to

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 Find that spark that made me feel so alive that words would just flow from me and all things big and small won’t that bad.

But doubt settles in for the winter and all seem lost again.

But I won’t lose faith as I see the bigger picture after this season that is not that great.

For I hope the next season will be so much better and the warmth will fill me up inside that the coldness outside will barely bother me these days.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

What is

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that you see when you look at me.

Is it someone who is always tired.

Always putting up a fight when a fight isn’t what anyone was looking for.

or am I the one who is so quite that you don’t know what is going on inside.

But, you want to be more than what you can be and well I know better for it never ends the way you want.

So am I the one pushing back more than ever in hopes of things just Turing out in the end.

But we all know that is not how stories end all this time for I have been short all my life and not just about my height but in all that I do I always seemed to fall short and in the end help someone else for the turning back and pretending is not working anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Feeling all

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 Over the place as the weekend comes to end.

And the busyness of the week begins I know the mess will be too much but I will try to get through it anyways.

I feel my emotions hitting the bottom all over again as the day becomes so busier.

And I don’t want to hear your complains as I just trying to get through it all without losing myself.

I’m so stressed all I want to do is stand still and watch it go down as my left eye twitches from the overload.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes