Month: January 2020

Poetry

Am I

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 To wait for you

To realize this could have gone down so much better if you had just stood there and kept your mouth shut.

I thought I had seen it all but here you came showing what ignorance really is and if you thought you won.

Then I know you really are crazy and the one who will judge you and handle you in the end is the strongest person I know.

Because you are a lot and I don’t have time or the patients to put up with the devil today.

I stood in silence while you acted a fool and the shaking was the anger so ready to come out and take you down for you weren’t a man today.

So no I won’t wait for you to get your head out of your ass I will just walk away and let you sit there in your ignorance and we will see who will be begging in the end.

Because I won’t back down anymore I am the brick wall you will not ever get through and in the end you will just give up.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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 Know if I’m ready for this next step in my life.

But it’s about to happen and the butterflies inside me are so excited and nervous all at the same time.

That I wonder what will happen or become of me.

The time for the day is slowly but approaching and I still have so many questions.

Like where will I go and what time and is this going to be too hard.

Is it going to be better than the experience I am dealing with right now.

And how long before this all I will be doing.

I guess right now I will never know until they get back to me but the count down has started.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

There is

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 Always two ways to go and the possibility that you could pick the right one is 50/50.

But today you can relax for you know which path to take on this run.

And maybe when the time comes to choose the path that will lead you to new things.

You will be ready to make the right decision and have that feeling inside that you did the right thing.

You never seem to know when that path will come up so it’s best to know what you want and don’t want in your life so that the red flags are seen sooner rather than later.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Why do

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I worry so much when so much is out of my control.

I’m wasting time and energy on something that won’t shine any light on what’s really going on in my life.

Calm is everything right now and I know that

 But still I let myself to get so worked up amour the things that won’t matter a minute from now.

So do I keep saying why or do I just let if all go.

And just keep moving on as my goal to get it all done must be stronger than my urge to Argue .

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Will I

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Ever be someone’s number 2 because I would hope they would put the lord before me.

For he leads and I will help on the side with carrying and helping get back up when you fall.

I will listen as you pour your soul and heart out to our lord.

I won’t be mad about being second because I know at the end we all win as long as we let him guide and protect us.

I hope today will be the start of something new and every day and night we grow closer.

But in the end let’s not be self centered and think only about ourselves because at the end of the day we aren’t completely in control.

We must be patient when things seem impossible because we know that’s what his all about.

So one day when you’re ready I will be there with you every step of the way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So before

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 I go today

I want you to know.

It’s been a struggle for me

To find the right words to express.

How much I care for you.

So many unsent text messages because I just didn’t know what you needed to hear.

And now there is still no words that feel good enough because you are too unique for simple words.

That won’t show you how much I care and that this isn’t just another friendship to me.

For I see you like family and you are important and I always want to check up on you and hope you well for I know you will do the same.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m gasping

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 For more air

More meaning for this life I live.

For the why’s and how’s of my life.

For the moment I find the last puzzle piece that completes me.

For when I know I’m really making a difference.

I wish I could be gasping for the finish line flag that lets me know I’m doing the right thing.

And that it doesn’t matter what others are doing for I’m happy and in the right spot I my life.

And that I’m not wasting my time and energy towards this new turn I’m making for there is no U-turns out of this place.

For once I’m out I’m out and that truly would break me.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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Know what to feel right now as I embark on a new journey that is kinda scary.

I feel like things are up In the air and now I feel like you want me to feel that I made a mistake.

And I should have followed you for the grass seems greener on your side now.

While I’m still living half in hell and half in paradise.

But it’s a risk I’m ready to take for life isn’t always about me but right now I just want to finally get a chance at challenging myself and getting out of my comfort zone.

I don’t know how to feel but right now I just want to disconnect and back out of this awkward moment.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Wanting

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to find that spark that has long gone from me as I seek something more.

I know that my time will be tight this year and my mind may be overwhelmed.

But life is still moving forward even though all the excitement seems to be fading.

I know I must not give up when the sun doesn’t seem to be shining down on me.

In this moment of stress and loss hope but I know all I can do is keep pushing forward and doing what I need to do.

For things have been looking up even when I’m just keeping my head down.

But you my friend have the light on you and I couldn’t be more happier and hopefully soon it will be the same for me as well.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

 

Poetry

In this

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 Moment I stare at nothing and feel at peace.

The day is gray as the fog hangs around this morning.

Most things can’t be seen and I wish sometimes that this fog could surround me.

Hide me from the problems that just keep popping up in my life.

I just wish my smile could erase it all and things could and would get better for me but not just me but everyone around me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes