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Poetry

They

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said taking some time off would help me find myself and find out what I truly need to do.

But, right now I do feel at peace but the ache of knowing that I am going back in a couple of days makes me want to stay forever for there was nothing but great momenta.

I know the moment I have to get my head back in the game of stress everything will change.

Some want me to speak up but for the first time, I’m just so over it that I just keep my concerns to myself.

I know this day looking out at all the possibilities I can still do.

I won’t give up just because someone keeps pushing me down for they seem to think they know everything.

But, the truth is the problem is still there and there is no hope of it changing. But I can continue to grow and end up outlasting the problem in the end.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I

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want to say my patience is not at its limit.

But, I know that each day that I stay the more I’m losing more of me.

I’m done complaining and I’m ready to change and walk away from the frustration.

I’m ready to enjoy the good weather no matter how hard the wind blows.

I will keep walking and maybe when it blows too hard I’ll just let it carry me to better destination.

And when I arrive I will welcome everyone and everything because I will be grateful for this new chance at the peace I’ve been looking for.

I will live and try to judge less and I will help and smile and I will choose to let out my light for I know to let the darkness.

from inside of me does more harm than good even if it feels good at the time because regret will come back and bite me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Right now

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I am so vulnerable that I just want to cry
as life throws so many demands my way.

I know that I have to make a decision soon

for later is not something I want to think about. 

I just have so much high hopes that I will get out

of this place and find a better place for me.

But, right now the present feels just as lost as me 

with no hope or understanding that everything will work out. 

So many have it together and it is just me that needs to get through all that 

is being thrown my way when all I want to do is hide away but I know running or hiding is not going to solve the problem. 

I must start making more decisions for I know my life is limited and tomorrow is granted for anyone. 

So today I will accept being vulnerable and being undecisive but, I know over time I will have to step out and make something of the situation but right now I just want to rest. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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In

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My head I’ve imagined this moment so many times.

But, I know when it all comes to reality it will be the best feeling in the world.

Because that day will be the day I truly start living the life I’ve always dreamed of but never thought could come true.

I will smile and it will reach my eyes and I will cry nothing but happy tears.

I realize why did I wait for so long for this to happen.

I know that tomorrow was not granted for me but, lucky enough I made it to the next day and week and month.

And now it’s time to live as if tomorrow is the last moment I experience and I want it to be a great one.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I

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want to be a great one and be remembered by my words and my heart.

I don’t want to live a life that is full of regret or disappointment.

I can’t keep going this way and feel like a stranger in my own body.

Because I’m staying behind for you the one who takes me for granted every moment I am around you.

There isn’t a moment when you slow down and really help consistently.

I know I have to do this for me but, the timing isn’t right.

I don’t know how to get to where I need to be without feeling like I’m falling short.

I don’t want to fail because I know when my time is up there won’t be a second to look back for it will be too late.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Always

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Letting the good out weight the bad

with a smile on your face .

You know that life can be bad but you keep your head up  always.

You don’t let anyone push you around  and you always there for others even those that don’t appreciate all you do for them.

You don’t do it for attention but from the goodness of your heart.

You will always be everyone’s biggest cheerleader and that I am so grateful for because without your pushing I would still be procrastinating what I want.

Instead I’m actually making a plan and laying it all out and soon I will be fulfilling this goal.

So I am so grateful for all your support and giving me that extra push when I was just about to give up.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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What

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a view outside today even though the rain drops on my window

I see what great I could be experiencing that day if only I would go outside.

Instead I have caged myself inside because I am afraid put myself back out there again.

But, I too realize that I can’t stay in this spot or place forever for its time for me to move on and to continue growing  as a person.

There is so much for me to see and right now I’m allowing myself to be stuck and it’s not doing any good for me.

As I see my smile fade away as the rain washes it away as I now live my life with nothing but a frown on my face with no care in the world at this point.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I

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won’t keep hiding from you if you would just open up.

Just let me come in as it heats up outside and the spring weather blows through.

let’s be like a nice day outside sharing the breeze and the sun shine as we begin to connect again.

And feel at peace as a beautiful melody plays as we realize being stubborn won’t help this situation.

We must compromise to solve and fix the things we are both fighting and show all our cards this time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Sometimes

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you don’t want to see what is right in front of you.

And how much you want to stop filling up the space with anything just to not have to deal with the real reason your hiding in the first place.

But, even though you are running you don’t take anything for granted because you know everything plays a part in your life.

You know that one day when you less expect it something is going to knock you off your feet and change everything.

And you won’t be able to hide or ignore what is right in front of you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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A

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leader you think you are

but, yet as I look around and see the ones fighting this battle with me.

I know you are not one of them as you stand on the sidelines pretending to be involved.

And when we are receiving praises you are the first one to say thanks as if you helped out in any way.

So look me in the eye and tell me who you think did all the hard work at the end of the day.

For I know my team and you are not a real member and the leader well we don’t need one for we work together to get it done.

We are one and the relieve we feel when seeing each other comes from knowing you are no help and we will always be in it together even when our paths go different ways in the end.

I will thank you for bringing one more good person into my life but I won’t thank you for the struggle I live with when I’m around you.

This battle I’m tired of fighting but, the end to our story and path is not over yet so until then I will not show all my cards yet.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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May

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its me that is growing up and distancing  myself from you. 

Because I know that one day it will be me who just stop texting or calling. 

But, the truth is I know that you won’t notice if I stay or if I go and for that I know it won’t hurt us when the time comes. 

It’s time to live our life and maybe after knowing one another for so long  that there is no need for goodbye. 

Just the respect of knowing that the love we feel for each other will never decrease even if the thoughts and time together will not be the forefront of our minds. 

May we both keep growing as we continue to find ourselves and our place in this world as our lives continue to lead his on a path of unknown each and every day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I don’t

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want to stay

anymore and that’s okay.

Maybe not to you but, for me it is for I feel like all the things that have been thrown at me lately has made me so much stronger and wiser.

I need to let go and believe that there is a better place for me now.

No more anger or being pushed  to my limit day and night in this place.

I don’t know if you will ever understand but, this space is what is needed right now  because I want to breathe and feel the air on my face more than two days a week.

I want to walk with my head up high and know that I am doing what I deserve to do.

I am working hard for me and not for someone else because the end goal is all about me and that has all I ever been working for.

At the end I guess it doesn’t matter if you understand because this is my time and I won’t let your worries concern me anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I

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should let it go for this issue is not worth fighting for anymore.

I’m frustrated and tired of saying the same thing again and again at this point in my life.

I will work hard for me and not for you,for it’s just exhausting to keep up with the bullshit you spit out into the world.

I won’t judge you for I don’t know how you were raised or what you’ve gone through.

But, your action speak louder than your words and right now I see you.

And I’ve tried to give you a chance to show me its more than being lazy.

But, each day you prove me wrong and I end up doing more and more.

Until I feel wore out and used for your glory and I begin to think when did you become the Lord.

For my lord gives and doesn’t just take and the love he gives carries me not drag me along.

You are human just like me and there for you are not above me or under me.

We are equal and what may be my strength could be your weakness and so on.

But at the end of the day I will help you and I know you won’t do the same for me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Remember

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It was just awhile ago when the light shined to bright in your eyes.

And your smile never stop appearing on your lips as you went about doing what you needed to do.

Now it’s like you jumped in a world of sadness and your eyes show nothing but an empty space where your joy used to be.

Your smile to see it again would have to be a miracle for not even a joke cracks that hard surface you have become.

I’m trying with all my heart to try break down this person you have become because, that smile and that joy in your eyes used to light up my world too.

Now the world around us just seems so dim without the light of u shining so brightly.

Maybe one day I will save you from that dark tunnel you have escaped to but, I feel today will not be the day you come back to me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I don’t

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know how much longer I can wait this out this time around.

I feel like I’m suffocating if I stay here any longer than I need to.

I didn’t think things would end up like this when we first got to know each other but,now I don’t know what to think or feel right now.

I do know I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place and no matter how much time I take to think this through.

The pieces of me that were filled with the peace and love of our times together are now replaced with this hollow feeling.

It’s like everything from the last couple years just vanished and what we meant to each other just don’t exist or matter anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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