Month: February 2017

Poetry

Things

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are changing and I have no control of them

as feelings and emotions over pour over me.

I don’t know if I can fight to the top or will

I drown it all and will anyone even notice the change in me.

I’ve grown to be so good at pretending that it’s probably

too hard for you tell I’m not okay and I’m fighting everyday just to be sane.

What will it take for things to get under control or will this be who I am all the time

Over emotional and not quite sure what is going on around me.

I’m in a maze called life and I just can’t seem to find my way out

and I’m running out of energy and the exit is nowhere to be found.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I was

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untitled

So, undecided when it came to what to do that day

I just started off as such a great day.

With the sun, out and the weather not being so bad out but, somehow everything just went so wrong.

First, I felt so tired from being outside and then I felt so cold than hot and no matter how hard I tried to get comfortable.

I never got to get much sleep that night and my eyes and body just ached so much the next day.

And to think all I could keep thinking when I woke up this morning was that today is going to be such a great day.

The sunshine was not the only hope I have and maybe just maybe the mood will improve .

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I was so undecided

Poetry

Goodbye

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To the words that used to have meaning

to us.

Those words I can’t seem to understand now as they just seem to

be made of lies and a past I want to forget.

The memories of that day play on every time I fall asleep like a movie on pause it

just starts where I left off every time I have a moment of doubt.

But, I’m afraid  the pain is not enough some days to keep me away

I have to keep talking myself out of doing this all over again.

Like my mind has forgotten what I went through and I don’t regret saying goodbye or thinking of you sometimes.

But, I know  I’m in such a better place that I would not ever go back and do it all over again because If I hadn’t fallen down so badly.

I wouldn’t have gotten the strength to get myself back up and realize there is more to me than meets the eye and this time is my time.

And, even though I may seem lonely, I am never alone and in the end I am someone who won’t let anyone walk all over them again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Daily Prompt: Sound

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I live for the sound of music as it plays in my ear

over and over again.

Every new song drawing a new connection to my soul the sound of music

calms me.

Brings me peace

But the sound of your voice brings me chills and I crave you

Your so confident with everything you do and nothing seems to be able to hold you back.

We bond over music and enjoy the sounds that surround us.

We don’t let the noises of the world get to us as we support each other through the times when the world around us becomes to loud.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Sound

Poetry

I didn’t

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see it coming as I finally fell

I was so weak that I felt like I couldn’t get back up.

I didn’t know what was happening but I felt everything

drain from me.

The words I couldn’t speak, the things I couldn’t see.

The time went by and yet I couldn’t see how long it had been and in the end I lost more than I could chew.

My body, mind, soul didn’t seem the same and no matter how much time had gone by nothing seemed the same.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Daily Prompt: Expectation

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So many expectations when it comes to love and life.

You want things to be a certain way and so you put such a high demand on yourself and others.

And you end up unhappy when things don’t go your way in the end.

Expectations don’t have to ruin your life or make it unbearable.

You just have to decide what things you can live with and what you can’t.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Expectation

Poetry

Happy Valentine’s day

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This day is just another day to some people because their love

is shared with each other every day.

Today maybe they put just a little more touch to the love they have for their other half

backing the love that is so divine and unconditional and just down right unexplainable.

The words and actions they may be able to do, sometimes still doesn’t measure how they feel for that person.

Today may go by quickly but tomorrow the memories will have settled and nothing they could do would make you stop loving them.

But, only time will tell if it was all for show or they will continue to wow you with their love for love isn’t something that simple lasts a day with them.

They are committed to the relationship and the growth and everyday to them is day to share and treasure the love they have for you.

So enjoy today whether your single or in a relationship for the love you have for yourself and others is just as important today as it was yesterday.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Daily Prompt: Seriousness

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In all seriousness

what is there left for me to say.

I’ve said so much, that I don’t know if I have

anything left to say.

I’ve never been the one to be so serious so now

how can I try to be anything but silly.

But, as I sit down and write this letter to you

I hope you see how serious I am.

The truth has to be said and done because, I can’t afford to

be silly right now.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Seriousness

Poetry

I had

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my reasons to walk closer to you and not fear the outcome

for it was you, I’ve been searching for.

You looked so relaxed as you seem to have just got off work and just arrived at happy hour.

You were in the middle of taking off your tie and as you started to glance around the bar your glance hit mine and a smile slowly appeared on your face.

As you confidently waved me over to your table, I knew I should be on alert but I felt safe staring into your eyes.

We talked for hours until it was time for the bar to close, we exchanged numbers and said our good night.

I got in my cab and told the driver the directions and as we drove away I watched you disappear until you were out of sight.

That night I knew that I would hear from you and see you again.

That night didn’t just change my life, it changed our lives and the path we ended up on was far better than we could ever imagine.

It was like valentine’s day had come early this year for us and this was just the beginning of something great.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Daily Prompt: Lukewarm

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Your attitude told me all that I needed to know when you halfheartedly

committed to the things we had to do that day.

Every little comment you said was just another way to get out of it.

You didn’t want to come but you did anyway and now I was becoming miserable too

but I fought through it so we could get this project done and then be able to go our separate ways.

As you drained yourself to every booth and didn’t say hi to anyone and then practically ran when it was over.

I just smiled and walked away because maybe one day you will wish you had just slowed down and appreciated the little things that happened that day.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Lukewarm

Poetry

Am I

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strong enough for these rocks being thrown at me

Will I be able to stand here and take every hit.

Or will one hit just be too much for me that I fall down

and cry for the help that no one seemed to be able to give me.

I stand there or I will fall there but where is my hero to save me

from this pain that is so unbearable that I just want to crumble.

I know I can fight this but how much can one take for something they didn’t do

why do I have to battle through the things that really is your problem and not mine.

I take the pain for you and I don’t ever doubt that you will be there for me when it comes to the end.

But, you see I’m a warrior and we fight for those that stand alone and no matter how much I may complain there is just something inside of me that says you mess with someone I love and you will pay.

I fight for the good and I won’t let the evil win this battle so don’t worry I’m not going away anytime soon.

Your battle is now mine and even though I’ m paying the cost of your mistakes, I will take every blow with a smile and in the end I will be the winner and the victory will be shared.

For I refuse to sit back and watch evil take another one from the good side for its empty promises.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Anger

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It’s all you got

and even when they tell you to let it go

you just continue to let it grow.

You don’t care about the outcome

You just scream from the top of your lungs

as your heart starts to beat faster and the words just keep pouring out.

When will you stop?

When your all alone and there is no one to hear the words

or will you continue to yell in an empty house.

Eventually, you will go mad and yell all the time walking around and just one wrong

look will get you going and nothing will stop you.

Until one day it will be too much for your heart and it will slowly

start to beat slowly and then it will be over.

And I wonder what will be your last thoughts as the world around you

finally goes dark.

Will you have wished you had got that forgiveness or will you just not even care?

If only you had listened to me when I let anger go for it doesn’t help me grow it only holds one back.

Will you let anger go and live a life with purpose and so much growth or will you end up like the person above with no hope or light at the end of their road.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Aware

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You were aware of the danger of being close to me

Your hands were once burnt when you touched me

The hug was unwelcome.

For you surprised me and the hurt and pain in your eyes

was unbearable to watch.

I didn’t want to hurt you but something inside of me was not aware of how

I felt for you and so I burnt you but I didn’t mean to.

Overtime you grew to be more careful and but you never got close to me again

and begin to wonder if you will ever trust me again and  be aware I won’t ever hurt you again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Aware

Poetry

Blinded

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by the feelings growing inside.

Sometimes I confused them because I care too much

and I just want to fight your battles even though I know you

can fight just fine by yourself.

It’s hard to walk away when the things that hurt you, hurt me too.

I want the best for you and I don’t stop to worry about myself for I know

God has all my worries and hope in his hand.

So I pray like crazy for things to be better for you not because I pity or feel sad for you

but because I know your strong enough to do it all on your own but, something inside of me just doesn’t want you to have to do it alone anymore.

Like a guardian angel I watch over you and listen to your thoughts as you share them and hoping one day I’ll hear about your life truly taking the turn I knew it always would.

And being so proud and happy that I’m not the only one on the right path to a life that even in the toughness times I still see the hope at the end of a very dark tunnel.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Lush

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They were attracted to her lush of a body, so curvy and got distracted by it

as she walked down the hallway.

Her eyes were as blue of the ocean and many got lost in them

every time they encountered her presence.

There wasn’t a day that didn’t go by that she felt a little overwhelmed by

the attention her body and eyes gave her.

She tried to shy away from the attention most days but there was always a

moment in her day that she couldn’t quite escape fast enough.

With a polite smile on her face, she always tried to keep the irritation off her

face long enough to get home to a place no one paid much attention to her in the

first place.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Lush