Tag: pain

Poetry

Not a

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fan of your words and the reaction you wanted from this immature action.

You move around as if you have no emotions to how things will go down as if you’re living a fantasy.

And don’t realize reality has consequences if you play with fire and just keep feeding it as if you won’t get burned.

Like a little child, you keep getting closer to the heat as if it’s fun to feel the pain and witness the scars and horrible, uncomfortable experience you bring to others.

You think you can just make us all forget in the end, but the truth is we see you now and the places you thought you could hide behind won’t work anymore and you will pay the price.

For nothing in life is truly ever free because, one way or the other, you will pay a price and do the time.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

There you

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Stand in the storm

So calm with no fear

That the rain could bring you down at any moment.

So strong and so beautiful you stand through it all and even when the pain is too great.

You still fight through it and sometimes you keep it all to yourself.

And I wonder how much longer you can stand on your own this time my friend.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Sorry

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For taking so long to realize that this affects me too.

No, I don’t know you but if I stay quiet isn’t it as bad as pretending it didn’t happen.

So much going on outside my box and for so long I have kept to myself.

Why?

Out of fear or maybe nothing more to say for everyone else has already said it.

I don’t know but I feel your pain now as I’m in this state of restlessness and I’m not in a hurry.

To keep working and focusing on the task around me as I watch people come and go.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Fading

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away because the stress is too much. 

And I don’t want to get up to just deal with the same things over and over again. 

It hurts too much to just keep running around dealing with the same old things. 

No growth is coming this way as life is not changing but the bridge that holds it all up is breaking. 

And I can’t feel any relief as the pressure just keep pushing down on me and those around me. 

I know the logical thing that would help what is going on but, the people all around is struggling and the truth is your freaking out but the worst is to come and you just don’t know it. 

I don’t know if I can hold on much more right now when everything around me is crashing down and I feel the suffering more than I should or deserve. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Don’t make

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me choose what I need to do right now.

For even though I feel like I have the answer it’s clear that I don’t.

What I want to happen may not happen as the darkness that surrounds my life swallows me whole once again.

The feeling of knowing what I am supposed to do vanish with the light that was protecting from the pain and sadness that overcomes me right now.

The path that I walk on is not clear to see and I feel like I’ve been walking in circles lately and no matter how hard I try there is no relief in this journey I am trying to go on.

The beating of my heart is all that carries me forward but the silence feels so not right as I push away the noise and lay down and hope when I wake up tomorrow things will be better and brighter on this side of my life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

The

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last thing that I want to do is hurt you but how long can we drag this on.

I keep thinking about what I’m going to say to you but yet at the last-minute I

just close the message.

And overtime I will forget and move on and maybe I will be just too busy to worry about

how things are going for you.

I know that through social media how things are and so I keep moving forward and not worrying because you keep writing about what is going on and so I don’t bother to reach out.

I know I should try but the words that I want to say just won’t come out and even though I know they need to be said because I just can’t keep this going.

But, I feel like the guilt of knowing that I will hurt you is enough to stop me for saying what needs to be said.

But, the truth is I’m hurting too and it just keeps eating me up inside and I feel like I’m going mad if I hold it all inside any longer.

I need to let it out and be free from this and even though I so wanted to hold on to you for so much longer  I just don’t see how I could or even if I want to anymore for I know the way I feel about you isn’t the same anymore.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Words

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want to come out and create something more because life is sometimes stressful.

And you want to escape into something just for a little while.

To forget all your troubles and focus on someone else or just to see some good in the world.

You  want to read or see something that doesn’t break your heart or make you so mad.

You want to stop and truly think about something other than what is going on in your life for once.

To get lost with a smile on your face and laughter that wants to come out instead of tears.

You want to feel strong again and not so weak from all the things in life that is mentally and physically holding you down.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

You

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had so much to look forward too and maybe you had it all planned out.

But, the day you prepared to walk across that stage felt like the day you had been waiting for.

You were excited and just extreme ready for this day to hurry up for you were just so ready to get it over with.

Soon it ended and the next day was a new journey for you and one that would go in a direction you never thought it would.

The struggle that became your life was overwhelming and not ending anytime soon.

You tried it all to just keep yourself together during this difficult and dark time, It was long and then the light truly shined down on you and things started to look up for you.

But, you became so busy that the little things in life seem not to be as important to you or you just didn’t have the time to enjoy them.

You wanted so bad to just have a moment of peace because you were tired of it all and no matter the little time you got off the state of your mind and body and soul were already ruined and damaged.

You still try to fix the damage that has been done because you just want to be at peace again and to just feel happy for more than two days at a time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

So much

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was left behind that day and now the hole is getting bigger.

The pain that was left behind

just so you could get a moment to breathe.

You thought the pain would fade and the truth is the wound is so much worse than before.

Time didn’t heal it the way she thought it would and now she was trapped into dealing with it now years later.

The tears that fell down her face that day, brought up so much pain that it was so unbearable.

So she fell to her knees and prayed things would work out soon because she didn’t know how much longer she could keep doing this.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Daily Prompt: Rapid

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The things in my life were changing faster than I could get things together.

Everything that I had dreamed of seem to be fading way each time I blinked an eye

the answers that I had been looking for were nowhere to be found.

I had hope things will be going towards less stressful days and yet somehow I was not looking forward to the things that were leading up to the life that I was living right now.

I had chosen this path thinking it was better than the one that I was on and, yes I wouldn’t go back to the one before but I so badly want to get off of this one.

I have to find a way out of this maze that is my life and cut back on all the darkness that is flooding into my life.

I barely see the good in people anymore for I see so much ugly and no care in the world.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Rapid

Poetry

I thought

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I knew the answers to the riddle that you seem to want me to answer.

But, what I discovered was not the truth I wanted to know

I thought you cared about my well-being  and now  I’ve never felt so lied too.

Your words were the truth I never wanted to know and yet, now that I know I feel free and at peace.

One second I am anger and just can’t shake the feeling that I am feeling right now.

I’m stuck in a hard place that I really don’t see it turning out good for you but, for me there are so many paths to take for you have broken the chains that held me back all these years.

I thought I knew the puzzle I had been building but along the ways a couple of pieces were lost and I found myself trying to find in pieces that would not ever truly fit.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

If only

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they knew the truth about your wicked ways.

The breath so hot it feels like a dragon breathing down my neck.

The strength of your words always feel like I’m drowning with bricks tied to my feet.

The days that I count until you’re not around to hunt me down like a wolf looking for its next meal.

The sweat I feel dripping down my neck as I fear what will happen to me if I mess up again in front of you.

No witnesses to watch you take your anger out on me.

I want to be free from this prison I live in only to wander through life not knowing what to do next with my desire to be free at last.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Lately

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I feel like a blank canvas with no one to create something amazing on it.

I feel like an empty shell of a person who once had so much hope and something to look forward too.

But, here I am standing with no hope that things will turn around.

For no one knows the truth and now as I push everyone away again.

I don’t regret being lonely again and soon I’m lost in this little life that I call home.

Nothing feels as great as it once did and soon the ending to this story won’t be the one everyone expected.

To be or not to be in the middle of everything.

Or to be out of the stress and lies and nothing but misery at the end of the night.

You play the fool and I just want you to know I won’t stand down for this fight is not over.

I was taught to be a lady and to well have morals but once you poke the bear.

Don’t be surprised when the beer comes running and biting for its life.

As a prey I always just let the predator get me and now I’m tired of hiding and I’m ready to fight and piss some people off.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Your

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words play over and over in my head like a favorite song

I don’t want to forget the things you said to me.

Every word that came out your mouth was like music to my ears and the way you smiled and winked at me.

I couldn’t stop myself from just staring at you, you knew all the things I had been going through and all you wanted to do was help ease my pain and stress.

The end to pain was not a slow and long one but fast and intense, you held my hand and told me that this path was made for me and now it was time for me to survive.

You were my rock and the best person to relate too you had it all and you showed me that I can have that too.

Always positive about the outcomes of life and didn’t let the evil that is in the world bring you down.

You were my archer and you always held me down and in the end I was grateful for the time we had together and as time goes by I hear from you less and less.

But, you will always be on my mind and in my heart, my calmer of all storms.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I want

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to feel sorry for you but well I just can’t anymore.

It’s like a switch inside of me has turned off and I see you for who you are and I know we all are just human but, enough is enough.

You may not see it coming but, I do and in the end the only one smiling and feeling like they are finally free will be me.

This is what I want and no amount of money can help me stay and as I walk away will I worry about your fate?

No I won’t because you didn’t worry about mine when I was around and in the end as I fall you didn’t even try to reach out and help me back up.

So your fate is yours to deal with and as you go crazy and try to reach out and find a way out of this place there will be no escape for without me you fate is what it is royally screwed.

No peace will come to you and no one will help you clean up the mess and the word reliable will not be apart of your vocabulary anymore.

But, don’t worry you know no one will understand your struggle like I did.

I won’t be easy to replace but, you accepted that fate when you used me up and threw me down like I had nothing to say.

Now the words are flowing and you have no one to blame but yourself now and you probably won’t even take the blame in the end anyways will you.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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