Month: May 2019

Poetry

I just

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need to get ahead so bad right now after seeing all that going on around me today. 

I just can’t keep going down this path of struggle as if this is what I will end up doing for so long. 

I don’t want to keep struggling in this way that feels like I won’t ever change because I so badly want to change and keep that change in effort as I jump into something that impacts more than just me right now. 

Only when I’ve packed up everything will the peace finally settle down for me and the stress will just be something in the past. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Maybe

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I’ll just be lonely for a minute

than I will reach out for you.

And feel the warmth from you again and let you surround me with your light once again

for I’m tired of feeling like no one else gets me like you do.

And feeling so alone when you are not around and even though I try to reach out to others.

The feeling you give me last longer than a hour or two from now.

Your connection is worth a lifetime and I hope when I reach out everything will be okay and you won’t be mad that I’ve been away for so long this time around.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

Poetry

It’s time

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to stop writing and starting getting up.

Packing those bags and booking that fight.

For tomorrow is not something you can plan out because in a blink of the eye tomorrow can be pulled away from you.

So I will plan out how to get there but once their it’s time to plan less and explore so much for the hope of coming back is way more harder later than it will be right now.

Days and weeks roll into each other and things are just brushed under the bridge and you just don’t know what to do at the end of the day and you just don’t know if you are doing it right at the end of the day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Taking

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the time out to just enjoy the little things like seeing a field of flowers and seeing the excitement on my face like when I was a child and experienced something new for the first time. 

I know that enjoying this moment while I can is a real joy and right now I’m lucky to just enjoy something so beautiful and be in that moment the whole time. 

My mind was empty and clear and the peace and shine of this day fell over me like a blanket keeping me warm. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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All

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I hoped for seems so far way.

Like a story that is only half written and it is up to me to finish it.

But, there is always something that gets in the way and yet it’s always up to me to fix it.

I’m not the fixer up type and I won’t be your plan B or option 1 or 2 when you have no one else.

The answer is not yes and probably will be a no and will I feel sorry no I won’t.

Too tired to care about the things that are not going your way or mine at this moment.

I realize that I probably won’t last as long as you want me too because I’m just tired and I know I’m strong enough to get through it all but why should I.

I don’t care about the money or the time, I just want a piece of mind at the end of the day.

I guess I know that there are higher and better things for me to do than deal with the things that will be left behind when I’m gone from this place.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Fading

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away because the stress is too much. 

And I don’t want to get up to just deal with the same things over and over again. 

It hurts too much to just keep running around dealing with the same old things. 

No growth is coming this way as life is not changing but the bridge that holds it all up is breaking. 

And I can’t feel any relief as the pressure just keep pushing down on me and those around me. 

I know the logical thing that would help what is going on but, the people all around is struggling and the truth is your freaking out but the worst is to come and you just don’t know it. 

I don’t know if I can hold on much more right now when everything around me is crashing down and I feel the suffering more than I should or deserve. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

I hope

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nothing but the best for you.

For if I was in your situation I’d hope you would want the same for me.

So much hate out there that I’m glad to be surrounded by so much love and kindness.

I’ve lived enough to see good things and bad things.

To know where you stand before you can lie to me about what kind of person truly you are.

I am here to spread love and give chances but not too many if you are taking me for granted.

Life is too short to let some who is blind to what is going on to guide me down the wrong path too.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Hiding

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isn’t going to make the bad times go away.

Even though all I want to do is blend into the leaves and not be seen I know it will be impossible and at the end of the day if it’s just you and me.

I can face it all and not worry about the things that are and will happen when things start to go south.

I know what it takes to make it work but, how can someone give so much and then you turn around and demand more with this innocent look on your face.

And I want to laugh because clearly you think I’m too naive to see right through you.

When I come out from hiding I know you will say things haven’t been the same since I’ve left.

And I will just smile and be the bigger person and walk away.

Leaving you behind to clean up your own mess for the first time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

To

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be the one who moves like the ocean on a calm day just going smoothly along a plan you have made for yourself.

And you hope life could be this calm but the truth is you are about to become more of a storm as things around you are changing and the path is little rough as you go down hill more quickly than you thought would happen.

But, don’t let the steps back set you to become discourage as the journey was not always suppose to be this easy thing or you wouldn’t  have bother with the change in the first place.

You know that there are things that will be let go but, you know your connect with this new change will worth the pain and the frustration that you had to deal with that you feel no matter how much time goes by it will always be burned into you and me especially when we feel so far apart that there is no coming back.

Just look back through it all and trust and believe the things that happened, happened for a good reason whatever it may be.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

IF

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want to stop worrying about

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Poetry

I honor

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you today as I visit your grave 

and all the memories we had together. 

You always telling me I can be anything I want to be as long I put my mind too it. 

You told me that one day someone would try to use their words against me and for me to not listen to what they have to say and to not react because that is what they want. 

You taught me how to be strong  and to listen to my parents for they are a blessing and even though we won’t get along all the time we still have so much love for each other. 

And that love will get us through  so many hard times. 

I will always love you and always miss you even when my mind is so caught up in all that is going on around me. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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