My mind

It is full of thoughts and words, but for who?

And how do I get them out even though the feeling fills me?

I want to spill my guts, but the words aren’t even forming a sentence; just that I need to get it out.

Or the happiness and uncertainty could swallow me whole, and I don’t know what to do it does?

I should wait for God to help me lay it out for that person.

And right now, I feel your arms around me as peace comes over me, and I get ready to relax for the night, for it has been a long day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes



Can be light and so freeing

Like the breeze of air flowing into your life, like a lovely day in the fall, sometimes life can seem so dark, like the night.

You told me to keep quiet for who knows what’s lurking in the shadows.

But my voice is like a bird. Sometimes, it can’t be silent to protect those who play the victim card all the time out of fear of being turned in because they’re always looking for a way to blame others for the problems they don’t want to face.

To be silent again feels like being that little girl who had a voice but was too afraid to speak up for fear of others turning on her.

But I’m not that little girl anymore, and I won’t go back to the past where her voice didn’t matter.

For I know her voice matters and so does mine.

So, where do we go if we can’t say what needs to be told in this place anymore?

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes


Today I feel

Hopeful about all the possibilities I could complete today.

I will only focus on one thing then when that is complete.

I will move on to the next thing because when I list it all.

My head begins to spin, and all that can be done is untouched like an unwanted snack.

I don’t want to waste time, but I’ve learned if I don’t listen to my body.

Then my well-being is at risk, which I don’t want to put on the back burner to please someone else.

So whatever I get done today will have been all that needed to get done.

And if I wake up tomorrow, the rest can be divided up again until the list is no more.

Nothing is worth stressing over anymore, as when the weight is off my shoulder, the feeling of being free is what I long for.

So today, I am free to be and do what I want.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes


Oh how

You play the game

So clever you must think it you are

But I see you so clear right now and your helping but at the same time setting me up.

And when will I learn not to let you get away with it?

I know I should say something, but you won’t listen now.

I’m tired of fighting the battle you manipulated since the beginning of time.

So I will let you play, and maybe I exit the game altogether.

Then you win but so do I and I think I will be happier.

And you will be lost as you loved playing these games as if I was so naive I couldn’t see what you were doing.

But I didn’t care what you thought as I knew who to trust, and I know it’s not you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes


Something has

Shifted in me the moment

I accepted my past and my future

And started to live in the present, truly

With little fear standing in my way, I felt unstoppable.

I can see myself in a new light as the world moves around me.

I no longer feel trapped by this unknown force.

I can see how I can go far and take action to get it done.

I’m no longer standing in my way, and every day is hopeful for me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes


Your not here

But I am

And what does that mean

Does it mean anything

Or does that mean I have so much left to do

And will I waste the opportunity you gave me and run out of time?

Should you have given me so many chances, my friend

Or should you have given up on me like everyone else?

Who am I now that you are gone

Will I ever know, even as I make a name for myself

I know it won’t be the same if you were the only one rooting for me!

You knew when I was good and when I was okay was just a lie to get by in this world.

You not here, but I know now you never wanted me to end up like you.

And every day, I will fight my demons to make you proud, my friend.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes


To get

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Away and float around this lake taking in the clear water and fresh air.

finally, feel free enough to breathe it all in and appreciate everything around me without fear of getting too close.

To live without fear and allow the calmness of the lake to wash over me and wrap me up safely to see another day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyrighted ©️ 2021 By Deirdre Stokes


As I

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reach to the sky, a rainbow appears,

lighting up my day, and I praise the lord for another great day ahead of me.

For nothing can ruin this moment that lights me up inside and has me skipping through life like no puddle is too big for me to handle or walk through.

That even if it pours, I will still have this memory to look back on and know that I can make it through the storm once I can make it through it again and again until the lord tells me it is my time to let go.

But for now I will be caution and try not to be so reckless while living with so much risk and love and good energy for I’m on a journey where I’m not ready to let go and I just want to keep going up and to never feel like I’m falling again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyrighted ©️ 2021 By Deirdre Stokes


Not knowing

How things will go next makes life hard sometimes, but it is not a reason to give up.

For it is not the time to settle for right now. This fight is not over, but it has just started again.

Because you are doing more and more and this time around, you won’t give up even when you slip up.

For Slip up is not a reason to just accept that you have failed again because there will always be slip-ups in my life and your life.

So let’s embrace them and keep going even though we never done this before. I know that I’m tired of saying what I want to change and nothing changing in the end.

I’m ready to say it and deliver it and then look back and say settling wasn’t an option this time, just action and following up on everything.

For I don’t want to be the reason I’m holding myself back anymore.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyrighted ©️ 2021 By Deirdre Stokes