Life – Page 6 – Words Are All I Have

So yesterday, I decided to have a psychic medium-highest frequency session on a virtual Zoom call. It was centered around God and felt spiritually correct.

In recent years, I have become interested in my chakras, and this coach has given me free little reading on Facebook Live and has been hitting on the things I was stuck in or how my throat chakra was blocked.

Last week, when I was practicing to go live in my Facebook group, every time I tried to speak, I would stop, and there was fear around it so great I had to keep pushing past it and then after I did my live, it was gone.

Anyway, this call made things clear for me, like how I am working towards being a confidence coach, but calling myself a confidence coach hasn’t felt quite right.

I kept feeling like I wanted to help others express themselves with their words, be their authentic selves, and have wiring be a part of it. I don’t know what to call myself as a coach, but I know I still want to help women.

Also, I’ve been struggling with prayer and looking for answers outside myself, and during this call, the burning bush came up, saying I am a miracle and the answers are within me.

And I’ve heard the answers are in me before, yet I’ve always looked to others to help me find my way, and now I need to seek them as God has provided me with the answers.

I also need to step out of my comfort zone and do some creative stuff outside my home, so I will have to work myself up too that, but I hope we all can seek the things we need and stop missing the signs right in front of us for our happiness matters too and it’s no fun being lost.

I thought this would be nice to share. Let me know what you think in the comments, and thanks again for stopping by.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The reason

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I am here is still growing.

I am more present each day than before, and I do not know where I will end.

But the hope that I would survive each battle got me smiling today.

Today is a blessing I must accept because I’m more than the four walls I sleep in.

Like the weather, I’m heating up with hope, and my light is shining brightly as the winter blues fade away and the spring bursts through.

Rain or shine, I know I can get through it, and today feels like a new beginning as things begin to unlock again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Quotes

Friendship

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Where the energy flows just right

The excitement of seeing each other is like that of two little kids.

Nevertheless, we aren’t as young as we used to be.

But girl, we are living lives feeling so youthful when you have someone who gets you, and you rock on the same level.

They get your frustration and ain’t taking the stuff others blow off.

You know who gets you and who’s got your back, and no matter the time apart, this friendship will always be dear to my heart.

No matter how long we get together, life shakes things up.

And sometimes I have to go for the ride, for at least I know you will tell me the truth, and I haven’t felt any disrespect, and I can’t say that for the rest.

So, I hope to keep connecting and being authentic in this friendship because I’m just tired of investing in the ones who leave or I leave them.

I’d be happy with a few good ones who last a lifetime, and the rest I won’t expect much but know I try to give you all but my walls come back down pretty quickly these days and I ain’tfighting to put them back up again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

My thoughts

This is

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How it goes struggle then victory

And then thanks to God.

At least that’s how it went today as I went live in my confidence coaching Facebook group today.

I did a 15-minute live about unleashing your inner confidence; it was my first one. Boy, was I nervous before, but when I hit live, I just talked as people can in and out of the live stream, but for the most part, it was just me.

And it’s funny how even talking to the camera by myself still made me nervous, and once it was over, I was relieved, but I went back to watch it and the volume was a little low, and the connection on Facebook was not great.

But God got me through it, and maybe the next time I go live, it will be better, and I will have more women in my group helping and supporting each other as they gain their confidence in themselves.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

No more

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Fear is what I tell myself as I prepare to go live in my Facebook group to promote my journey as a confidence coach on April 24 at 11 am. Hopefully, a good Wednesday it will be.

But the truth is I’m shaking with fear because the fear of public speaking is strong.

And even though I’m preparing and trying not to freak I’m only human.

But I got through the words I wanted to say and had to keep breathing slowly through my nose to calm myself down.

I know I can’t give up and not show up, for this is what I’m meant to do. Use my voice any way god needs me to.

And yes, it’s hard to get out of my comfort zone, but I’ve done it before I can do it again.

No more fear as I sit behind a screen, ready to spread my winds and words for the first time in a long time. I’m doing something new, not just for me but for the women watching and seeing the replay.

I’m calm now, and I hope this change will be a stepping stone to continue conquering each journey that God has come my way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I am not

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Sad that I have to walk away

I am sad because the last straw was your words about how you see me.

After all these years, you still don’t get me, and I’m tired of explaining myself.

I’d rather you not understand and me not care than to care, and you still not understand even though I’ve made myself clear.

I won’t fight or entertain anymore, but I know I won’t explain either.

It might be harsh, but I don’t have the time to keep being sad or feel like you’re cutting me this day and that day and taking it as if it doesn’t hurt.

I am here for myself and stand for who I am now and before. And if you don’t get that, you won’t accept my change and growth, but I am not sure I can help anymore.

I am now at peace, and I have closed that door, and no matter how hard you knock, I know my worth, and you may say I’m too sensitive, but sometimes you know when it’s time to walk away.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Writing down

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My thoughts and letting them go have been easy these days.

It’s as easy as letting go of people in my life.

As I get older, I don’t feel the desperate need to keep people around who aren’t treating me right.

Like I used to because finding and keeping friends was hard enough as a shy person.

But I, too, deserve to feel understood and heard, and so do they, but sometimes in life, there are shells too hard to break, and you have to let them be by themselves for your mental health.

As I write and the sorrow goes away, I know I will always be polite to them, but trust and believe these walls aren’t coming back for them.

Sometimes, I guess the people who will rock with me for thick and thin are still out there, and I won’t give up on finding them since I know my worth and what I deserve now.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Nothing last

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Forever and as I pull you into the next season

I feel the wind and rain trying to pull you into the storm.

We’ve been trying to outrun these storms for the last few months.

But this time, I’m tired, and I know you will catch me if I fall.

But how many more seasons will we be blessed with?

I know I shouldn’t worry about the end, but like a good story, I always want to see the beginning and the end before I’m delighted that it’s okay to enjoy it.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m trying

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To not fade back into the background

As I push forward for a change like nothing I’ve ever done before.

And I realize I’ve lost my way, and my words are gone like yesterday.

But here I am, fighting the battle of who I am, creative every day.

And frankly, it’s tiring, but my soul craves the words and the desire to share even more.

But who am I kidding, for the hope of coming back stronger than before is tempting but most likely impossible.

Because even as a writer, I am different, and as one voice seems to grow, the other is holding on for dear life, and no matter how many little chances I get, I can’t come back like I was before.

And maybe only time will tell, and perhaps I’m overthinking it, but voice if you hear me come home because winter is leaving and spring is going to be so bright, and you and I deserve to write into the night until we feel right again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompts

I know it

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Won’t be long until I find myself in your peace again, my lord.

But here I am, standing at the crossroads in between, wanting to scream and stay silent because I am tired of repeating myself.

I’m changing, and I’d be damn if I let you drag me back to the old me.

Because if you care for me, you would want the best for me, and the truth is maybe you do, and this is all in my head.

The self-doubt, but then I see the look in your eyes when you look at me now.

What battles are going on inside of you? Oh, I wish I knew, for life would be a little easier if we all felt better.

I’m a little too optimistic at times, and the hope to stay positive is solid and hopeful, but I am only human, too.

So, can you blame me for wanting the best for us all when so much is happening around us?

Poetry

So much

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To do but where do I start?

Well, maybe getting out of bed would be a good start

Then maybe taking a walk and then eating breakfast

Ahh, now I’m doing it

But what next

For I don’t feel like doing it all now that I’m fed, maybe I’ll go back to bed.

And cuddle up in the sheets and watch a movie instead.

I know I have so much I could be doing, but why am I stressing so hard when my body says rest instead?

Oh, how the hype of getting ahead is intense, but sometimes I wonder why I can’t just be satisfied with what I already have instead of trying to be more.

But the truth is it’s not me who is in control, and sometimes I want to disobey for living in my comfort zone feels right to me.

Even though I know if I don’t do something, I know I will regret it for you see I’m meant for so much more.

But sometimes, the need to continue to juggle it all is well becoming like a second job, and maybe I don’t realize that is what I signed up for, and now the time I have to relax and so much less, but I’m alive and so why am I still complaining.

Instead, I should be doing what I signed up for in the first place, and when it’s all said and done, maybe then I can tell if it was worth it.

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As the feeling

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Of self-doubt and uncertainty wash over me, I fear the unknown.

Like the raging wind outside, I feel all the confidence and faith of being ready in time ripped out of me.

And I want to give up and throw in the towel as the fear of being in the spotlight overpowers me.

Then God wrapped his arms around me, and I felt peace again, and hope soared through me.

And I remember what my life coach said: self-doubt is the devil, and I feel it is trying to discourage me from becoming a better me.

But also, I’m not becoming a coach for me but to help others because that’s all I’ve done and love to do.

So, as I sit here confident that I can do this and know how it feels to lack confident in myself and my voice and it suckes.

But I also know how beautiful it is to have confidence in myself and my voice and how it feels to have something to say and say it.

I want to help women be confident and find their voice because doing something different is scary on your own, but doing it with someone else feels unstoppable and alive.

For the walls that come down and the ear that listens will care, and in that moment of change, maybe you too will hear your calling or at least feel that hiding isn’t something you need to do anymore.

So I hope you all have a blessed night and I know whatever happens on March 8th with me coaching someone or not, it’s not the end, but I hope that I won’t lose faith but hold strong because my journey maybe bumpy and first I know it will smooth it’s self out eventually.🙏🏽❤️🙌🏽

Poetry

Here

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I am sitting here with my eyes closed, trying to center myself.

As self-doubt tries to sink into my year.

And I know now that I can’t let this fear eat me up.

Especially now as I walk down a path that feels right and light and beautiful.

I can only see the smile on my face and the tears going down my face as I cry for the happiness I will get after facing and conquering that fear.

I may just be getting started, but I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere.

My drive to be present at this moment is more intense than the feeling of fear trying to quiet me and make me turn away.

But I can’t and won’t, so as I keep my eyes closed, the battle will be won.

And the calmness and confidence I need to get through this will come, and I will overcome it all.

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