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Poetry

I don’t

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how to feel right now for I have so many emotions running through me.

I am happy but yet I am sad and tired and feeling lost but with a somewhat focus on moving forward.

I want to admit so many things but, I’ve always been the one to keep it to myself and I start to wonder who truly knows me.

I’m sometimes open up about the things that go on in my life but, other times I keep it all to myself.

I wonder if I’m helping myself or hurting my chances at really seeing this world for what it truly is.

I know I’m trapped in a box that well always seems to be going in the same circle that only seems to drain me.

Nothing seems to bring much joy to me when I’m in that box because returning to it is not something I look forward too.

I can feel my smile slipping off my face as I walk through that place, I try to be positive and hopeful but, that pretending just isn’t happening anymore.

I don’t know when I will finally let it all out but sometimes it’s right there on my tongue and I just want to scream it.

And frankly, I don’t care how I look to the people on the outside for I’m done caring and well it feels freeing to know that this is not the end for me.

In time my plan will come to be and the scream will feel so right and strong for damn I will wonder why I waited so long.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Inefficient

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Even though they worked hard today the results just felt inefficient.

Making tomorrow even harder to accomplish their goal.

But, they knew they couldn’t give up now even if they wanted too.

The time to do better was now or never.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Inefficient

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Does it

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ever get better she cries on this long day.

The cold air outside feels a lot like what she feels like on the inside right.

she wants to give up so bad and yet she keeps running in hope that she will run into the right arms.

And someone will save her from the pain that is eating her alive.

Leaving her big heart so small and closed off now.

Her energy is slowly fading as she walks into the light and the person she used to be is no more.

She’s told over and over that giving up isn’t the answer and that she matters.

But, at the same time those people keep pushing her away and whispering behind her back that she is not worth saving.

She doesn’t know who to believe and so she keeps running and hoping the solution to her problems.

Will come to her soon because she can’t keep living this way.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Blush

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My favorite thing to do was make her smile and blush at my sometimes not appropriate jokes.

She always said I said the more sexual things in public and I should be ashamed of myself but, I just can’t help myself because it’s just too easy to get her to blush and slap my arm for embarrassing her.

These moments were always my favorite, that’s why I never did them when I knew she was in a really bad mood.

For that would only turn her against me in those moments and seeing her sad or really pissed off because of what I did was never fun.

She always came around when I apologies and told her I would do better and well I have improved and I know tomorrow.

She will blush and she will cry and in a happy way and that is the only way I want it to be when it comes to her.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Blush

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One

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All it takes is one thought and you are on my mind and then I’m forced to knowledge that things have changed.

And right before I blow to make a wish like I used to do when I was a child, I wonder what I really need right now.

Is it protection or love or both and what if I waste this wish will I get another chance to make another good one before things really change.

I want to wish that I have more time to really enjoy the peace I needed in my life right now.

But, back to reality I have to go and I know that life can be good and then the world throws me a curve ball.

And everything so dear becomes so much clearer than I thought was possible.

Where to go and what to do keeps running through my mind now that it’s all laid out on the table.

The truth and the lies!

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Captivating

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I was captivated by your voice as I listened to your new song

each word making me love to listen to this song over and over again.

So many songs and yours is one of my favorite this week and I just can’t stop listening to it as I try to relax a little before I have to wine down for the night.

This song reminds me of what life can be like when it is good and the bad things don’t outweigh the good things  at the end of the day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Typical

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I forget what a typical day could be like for well nothing is the same from day-to-day

everything is changing and, I can’t agree that I like it at all.

I’m stuck in a rough spot and the options are very low for me to walk away but, I’m not giving up just yet.

The one typical thing that seems  to not change is my ability to write something each day even on the days that I don’t want to look at words or read them.

I somehow find the strength to let it all out and go about my day knowing that well there is nothing short of hope that things will workout.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Typical

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For

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I have forgotten all that have been around me when times were rough

as I live in the moments that are good.

But, soon the darkness comes back and I am faced with the truth  did I let all that was good just walk away because I was being ungrateful to them.

Time has gone by and I just don’t know how much time has gone by that I’ve reached out and talked to you.

Life just keeps moving forward and all I want to do is just not be so tired from trying to do more than I am capable of doing.

No moment of rest just filling and filling and yet there is no end to the mess that we are in and the light that shined in at first now is just a spot in the corner.

You begin to wonder how long did I walk around in the dark ignoring the light that was trying to guide me home.

Because I thought I knew what was best for me and the path that I am on just doesn’t feel right anymore or maybe it never did but there was something good on the path so the stress and pain wasn’t so bad.

For that someone was taking all the hits and nothing was getting through to me but now that something is saying it is time to step off the road that is leading you no where good.

It’s time to listen to me and follow me from the hell you are living in and come into the light where nothing bad can touch you unless that thing was meant to show you the way to a better place.

To feel this overwhelming love and peace and to know that someone is always watching your back even when you feel you  have come and delivered.

But, your life purpose is not yet over and it’s time to take a walk down a new path now and I hope you are ready.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Not

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trying to be rude but, I just need to tell you the truth right now for I just can’t hold my tongue anymore. 

This is not working out for me and as I smile in your face well I truly die more inside than anything I’ve ever faced in my life. 

You are the bad to my good and I no longer want to be apart of your wrong. 

I feel so strong but, to be truthful I am a mess as I walk through these doors and I come undone because you are my worst nightmare. 

There is not one nice thing I can say about you right now and so I will let you have it all because well that’s just how I am now. 

I don’t have a care in the world that well I’m hurting your feelings but, the pain you have put me through just overrides the kindness in my heart and I just can’t stand to be weak anymore. 

I will be strong and I will stand strong and I won’t back down even if the outcome is not good. 

For I’ve not felt this so alive in over a year now and well I’m done and I just don’t know how to say my goodbye even though I happy that it will end soon. 

The tears that I’ve been holding back well they are flowing down my face faster than I can handle but I know this end is something that had to happen. 

I hope you accept my goodbye and as we both move on, I hope nothing but the best for you. 

But, I won’t be your fool anymore. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Compromise

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I want to come to an agreement with you so that this situation is a good one for you and I.

In the end only we will see if this all works out but, it will take both of us to get through this.

The words that were said are now apart of an agreement and we will see how long it will last in the end.

Will it be a week or maybe two weeks or a month or year, only time will tell if this agreement become more than a small thing and become something that bonded two people for a lifetime.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Compromise

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Shadows

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creeping up on me sometimes feels scary and unknown. 

But, sometimes the shadows that are behind you are not as scary when they are your own. 

The shadow of us pulls away as we stand outside your door talking about what a great night we had. 

Not wanting to go inside yet, for that would mean the night was over and we both never wanted it to end. 

So much had happen and now we just couldn’t accept that it could end this way. 

But, eventually we said goodbye and I hoped to see you again soon and even though you asked and I said yes nothing in this life is guaranteed. 

For once something good is happening to me and I’m looking forward to the unknown that is coming my way. 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Conjure

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I wish I could conjure up the strength to just walk away and not worry about the future.

But, that’s just not how this world works and so all I can do is wish for things to be better because right now I have no control over some of these things that are happening right now.

I wish I could conjure up something to make this moment not suck so much but, no matter how hard I try things just don’t seem possible to workout.

My head pounds as it gets closer to the time to go do what I rather now do, I close my eyes and I pray that things get better and for a moment it feels good and my hope rises up again.

Until later on, the storm hits and I’m knocked on my ass and the situation stresses me out and I sit there saying a silent prayer that things won’t always be this way for I’m strong but sooner or later I will fall down weakened by the pain.

Will today be the day or will it be tomorrow, I guess I will not know until that day and moment comes and I finally just end up truly walking away because truly losing myself is not worth this pain.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Conjure

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Daily Prompt: Permit

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Like a permit I allowed you into my life and now I’m not sure if that was the right move.

I feel like lately that I’m just tolerating you and the energy that I’m using to not push you away is just tiring.

Why am I keeping you around?

This question keeps popping up in my head and bouncing around until one day I guess I will decide.

But, for now I’m so tired and got so much going on that I guess I will just have to just tolerate you.

I know it’s probably not the right move but, you are not making it easy on me and I feel like the many mood swings you keep having are giving me a headache and anxiety right now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Stifle

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I had to stifled a laugh as the customer said some ridiculous things in front of me as I rung them up that day.

I had to keep it professional as they argued with their child in front of their grandmother.

I didn’t think it was going to end as they just going on and on, but soon I was done ringing them up and as they paid and grabbed their bags.

I just couldn’t believe what I just witnessed, somethings are better done in private and kept out of sight of others.

For those awkward moments when I had nothing to say but had to stand there and listen to something that didn’t need me to hear.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Stifle

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Holding on

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to just the hope that you will guide me out of this hell

that you will help me find my way again.

For the darkness of today will not be the darkness of tomorrow

the words flowing from you mouth will not be forgotten today and tomorrow I will still ponder over them.

Holding on for your strength, your love, your protection my lord for no one can provide that for me than you.

You get me through the things that make me want to pull my hair out

You’re the one that makes me stop and think before I say something I may regret

The reason my patience isn’t as thin as it used to be, the reason my truth is out there for all eyes to see.

The reason I am always on alert mode, watching the actions of others and making sure I’m not following in their footsteps.

You’re the reason I breathe another day and wake up being grateful for the people in my life.

The reason I am as quiet as I am for my voice should only be used to cause good and not bring more bad into the world.

I know I am not perfect and that no one is and each day we all go through something and at times we want to be in their shoes for on the outside it all looks so good.

But, yet on the inside things may not be in the place you are when you are just being you, the person you know inside and out.

Shine because he wants you too not because someone else thinks or believes you are more than you are.

You know who has the answers and who doesn’t and maybe one day you will see you as he sees you.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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