feel the music inside of me as the song begins.

The lights dim down as something awesome is about to happen.

Then in a blink of an eye, the band is on stage and the music has started and it’s like every beat is beating loudly in your chest.

And at first, you feel a little weird for its beating so loud and so hard that your heart will beat right out your chest.

But, the feeling starts to build up you’re hype for the show and you’re just so excited.

You don’t feel tires anymore as the show unfolds around you and you feel so blessed to be alive and witnessing this moment.

With the two people who are the closest to you.

And you can’t wait for another adventure to happen for a little fun makes life so much more bearable.

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Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

how I want to not use them right now as the anger and frustration boils up inside me.

I don’t want to open my mouth other than to scream or to say good bye and not look back.

I’m tired of having to say what we both know is happening around us right now. It’s time to stop playing games.

For the words that used to come out my mouth won’t be heard from me anymore for I’m tired of words right now.

So you are going to have to do something more for me right now to make things  better for I just can’t stand the silent message that is on play right now.

I just want to forget the words that were said and the words that have yet to be said because I know the truth to the looks and the hidden messages.

Being able to read you has always been one of my best skills and so right now the words of the truth are written all over you and right now I’ve had enough of really between the lines and seeing all play out in from of me.

So I know the words will have to be spoken but right now I just want to listen and keep as quiet as possible.

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Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

need to get ahead so bad right now after seeing all that going on around me today. 

I just can’t keep going down this path of struggle as if this is what I will end up doing for so long. 

I don’t want to keep struggling in this way that feels like I won’t ever change because I so badly want to change and keep that change in effort as I jump into something that impacts more than just me right now. 

Only when I’ve packed up everything will the peace finally settle down for me and the stress will just be something in the past. 

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Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

I’ll just be lonely for a minute

than I will reach out for you.

And feel the warmth from you again and let you surround me with your light once again

for I’m tired of feeling like no one else gets me like you do.

And feeling so alone when you are not around and even though I try to reach out to others.

The feeling you give me last longer than a hour or two from now.

Your connection is worth a lifetime and I hope when I reach out everything will be okay and you won’t be mad that I’ve been away for so long this time around.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

I search for the answer to the question everyone keeps asking me about.

It feels like my life is flashing right in front of my eyes and what I’ve done or yet to do just seem so short.

The good times feel like so few and the bad times just keep piling up and I know that the hope to live a little more just doesn’t seem to be happening.

The peace I beg for seems so temporary as the frustration turns out to be all that I experience from one moment to the next.

I know that I am helpful but at the same time I am so tired and just in hope of a long night sleep with nothing to get up in the morning for.

To just lay around with no care in the world but, the joy of me being able to just relax and not deal with all the stress around me right now.

To just go out and enjoy the weather even the moments when it feels like it is just too hot out, just to be able to enjoy the little moments that are feel of laughter and joy.

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by the life in front of me.

That I can’t see what is really going on around me.

I am missing out on the blessing that I could receive for I am so focus on the now and how miserable it can  be.

And not focus on the things that have been given to me and how they can help me get through this moment.

That may only last a second or minute or longer but, it is not my time to be sad or angry but to embrace it for what it is.

A new look on the way I had been going and now its hope to go there but to also branch off and out to newer and different places.

For if I don’t go and enjoy the moments now then I will forever miss out on the moment that could have really shaped my life sooner rather than later in a different way or not at all.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes