Tag: Tuesday

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want to walk away from the current situation called my life

but at the same time watch how it all plays on without me.

And see what a difference I made while I was there doing what I could to help.

Would it be okay without me and if so I made the right decision and moved on when I so needed too.

I know that I can’t peek into what will happen when I take those steps away from this place that has been apart of me for way too long.

Something I’ve been holding on to for no real reason other than I am afraid what is to come will be worse than what is happening all around me right now.

But, I know that if I let fear run my life than there would be no more happy moments and the excitement that is building inside of me right now wouldn’t be there if I just sit around and let this be my future.

Today I’m taking one step and tomorrow I will take another but no more wondering what it’s for I’m taking back my control and throwing fear to wind for I know everything will better than what it is right now as long as I know I’m not doing this alone.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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a little breeze blowing through my life today as everything that was alright is now a mess and all over the place.

I try to catch all the pieces of my life that have gotten out of hand but there is not enough time to do it.

I know that I can move a little foster but, I’m over doing it just to try to get it all done but how can I do it all on my own.

I know this is not how it is suppose to be but no one is trying to help for it just seems to be easier to stand around and just that one person do it all.

The days of tolerating these things are coming to an end as my tempter and patience are getting thinner by the day and not even existing as the week goes on.

I think the papers around me are no the only ones who have been blown away and not be able to get back to the way it was before.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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How I need your quietness right now as the world has becomes so loud.

I know sometimes life gets busy and you just have to move with it but, some people don’t appreciate all that you do.

And so you just want to yell and that’s where nature comes into the picture.

All about capturing the pretty pictures and breathing in the fresh air and screaming at the top of your lungs the frustration of the day or weeks.

You has to keep bundle up inside for you had no one to share it with.

And so you go back to nature and let it keep your secret yells and screams for now.

For maybe next month things will be looking better.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

night is coming to a end and right now all I want

is to sleep and not think about the things I can’t control.

I just want quiet and can’t even get that with the cricket outside my house

so joyful about being outside on a nice night after a good rain shower.

But, to me is just another thing that is annoying me and making me what to be locked away from all the noise that just can’t seem to calm down just for a moment.

The pounding of my head is increasing and there is really nothing I can do as I try to do something about what I can fix before it’s too late and my eyes start to shut and sleep is all I will be enjoying.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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it’s coming to an end

but the heat continues on as if it just doesn’t want to go away.

But it’s getting cooler in the mornings but, over too soon.

The days too long with nothing to look forward to at least that’s what it feels like as you not look forward to what to come.

The days where you seem to laugh and be together more in slowly wining down as you get busy again at work or with the family as the schedules are more full.

You know the days of just talking for hours and hours is soon going to be memories of summer 2019 and soon you will be facing fall 2019 and so much will be coming your way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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your canvas and paint on me the strokes of color that will show the mood you are in.

make my skin less normal and turn it into a work of art.

I am all the colors you need me to be.

I will be your muse for today and as you make me more than I thought I could be before.

I want to look back on this day and enjoy that I could be apart of your art work and your life.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

truth is I just want to be angry

because you didn’t think it though as you made my whole plan just go out the window.

And it’s like what do you want me to do and did you think everything would just work out in the end because you thought you had the right help and that no matter what happens it all going to work out.

But, we all have limits and we can’t just keep pushing them because you can’t go as far and as long as we do.

The truth is I am angry and I’m annoyed too and I know when I over share it all ends in a place that really isn’t going  to help me.

So with my mouth shut I just do my best and try to figure it all out  because if I don’t make the right move things will fall apart in a small way.

I am the bridge and wall to everything you do and without me I see a lot of things crumbling around me and you.

I know the beginning of the fight is just as important as the middle and the end because without one is just doesn’t make sense.

To me you are the beginning and I always have to be all three because if I don’t the ending will be a disaster and they will look to you and possibly me but, I can’t be in charge when they don’t pay me to babysit

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Is another day of wondering

what will become of me.

What will become of this place.

So many unanswered questions and yet my mind is still coming up with so many more to add to the pile.

Will I want the answers to all of them.

Or just some of them that make life a little bit more

easier or better for me.

I guess I will have to wait until tomorrow to find out.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

of those days

when the person you’ve been trying to help.

Just turns around and slaps you and the shook

just shakes you to your core.

There words are just them complaining about the situation

and yet his basically saying you are one of the reason things are not going well.

Yet you look around and everyone is happy about the help you have done and the solution where the flames are up high are put out because of me.

But, the different is I’m looking for praise I’m just doing my job and I’m doing it dame well.

I fight this battle for me and not you and if what I am doing isn’t good enough for you then that’s your problem.

I will stay on my side of the bridge from now on and I guess its time to burn this bridge and enjoy watching it burn up and when its done.

Things will be different because I am not about to be insecure about who I am because you are not happy with the decision you made.

Putting the blame on others get you no where and God isn’t blessing you so you can turn on the ones who are helping you through it all because being human means taking care of the ones who matter.

Not about praising others and complaining about everyone else as if we are not like family.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

words light a fire in me

A fire that hasn’t truly burned since winter came and went.

You send me into a cool breeze as the hotness of summer comes and stays.

Every moment in the heat is bearable because you’re there to cool me down and help me through my toughness days and nights.

You get me like no other and you help me realize there was more to me than I thought.

Words from your lips dripped off like melting ice cream on a hot day.

The sound of your voice is so strong and deep like a great beat in a song just so good you can’t get enough of hearing it just once.

On repeat is what you want and what you need today and tomorrow.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

I need to walk away when I’m more miserable than I am happy.

When it seems like the storm is beating down on me more than the sun is shining into my days and the moon and lighting my nights.

I know that I can do so much more but every time I try t step away from it’s like I just stepped in a hole and I pop out right back where I started.

Will, it ever change or will this be the cycle of my life?

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes