Poetry

To know

That what I want is not in front of me right now.

Doesn’t make things any easier to figure out and what decision is going to make things better.

I pray that I don’t mess this up and that I truly know what is right and wrong for me as the days continue to pass by.

I know that I’m trying to do my best to get it done but right now things aren’t adding up but I’m not giving up just yet.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m in

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Photo by Nghia Do Thanh on Unsplash

 

a mood and no matter how hard I seem to try to shake it off the darker it gets around me.

And I’m not sure my light will be enough to guide my way out of this mess I got myself into this time. 

I know that if I try things will be better but here I am trying to see the light in this situation and it just so hard this time to get through the journey that feels like its on a loop and when I feel the change about to happen it skips and there I am again facing the same stuff. 

There is no good outcome if I don’t get out of this moment soon and fast because I don’t want to be forgotten because I couldn’t get pass this gate of unwanted thoughts and feelings that trap you.

And once your in the ability to get out really is like living in a world with lights on and then it all shuts down and you have to use the strength and memory to get through it or you will be stuck inside your own mind forever. 

I just hope I get out in time for I’ve heard the click and I know this isn’t it for me this time around and hopefully this will be the last of this torture. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

What am

I to do for right now I have no clue.

How or what to do with this life that has been given to me.

The feeling of truly not knowing what is to come of me when the days are long and my energy is low.

But I know I have to keep moving forward no matter what.

But I’m getting tired and the path isn’t as clear as it used to be.

I’m not getting any younger at this point and feeling hopeless and lost Is just becoming darker each and every day.

Written By: Deirdre StokesCopyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I need

Three Line Tales, Week 212

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photo by Jeremy Bishop via Unsplash

sometime to get away from it all for well I feel like I get away from one thing only for the next thing to seem well too good to be true.

The opportunity feel good and well I feel at peace and everyone is so nice and the days are well just flying by so fast and learning new things are really just a thrill for me.

And then the moment when things just seem so unreal and the pressure has been served and all you can do is keep watching the time and hope I get it all done and on time too.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

 

I need!

Poetry

Just another day

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Photo by Marcos Paulo Prado on Unsplash

 Of wising it was hot instead of cold outside right now.

Yes I have enjoy the hot drinks and the hot food and just enjoying the sweat pants but it’s time for less layers.

The urge to be inside all the time and now worry about what everyone is saying about staying in.

You know you can be out with a smile on your face and enjoy the air around you.

For you don’t have to be so wrapped up some my not know where all the layers of you end at the end of the day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I feel

That I want to reach out and stay connected to everyone even though I know it’s not possible.

I somehow still put that stress on myself until I just don’t care.

I feel like my life is calm and yet it doesn’t feel fulfilled.

I’m lost even though I am finally in a good place.

But of course no story is going to continue on without some bumps in the road.

The urge to find the answers to why I feel this way right now is so strong.

But I just don’t have the time to deal with it or every time I have to deal with it I avoid it at all cost.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Am I

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Photo by Gilles Rolland-Monnet on Unsplash

just a memory to that old street we used to hang out on when we were young.

Now its just a street and I’m just a thin piece of your memory.

No true face just a shadow of a outline of what you think I may still look like.

But things have changed and I may still look the same but I am not that same girl you used to laugh with all that time ago.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Things are

 The way it’s supposed to be as I stand here looking at this place.

No real help even when you have someone right next to you but chooses not to help.

I never want to be that selfish and not care.

Moments like this make me be so grateful for how I was raised and who I am today.

I guess there are things we can’t control or change but we don’t have to keep dealing with them either.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes