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My thoughts

As November

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Arrives and October goes

And I become a year older

And I reflect on how much October gave me back my hope.

Creativity has been quite a battle for me this year, and it’s been rough, as art and writing are like breathing, joy, and just feeling alive.

With fall arriving, the colors of the leaves change and brighten up nature. Everything is so pretty, and it makes you pause to appreciate just how lucky it is to be alive and to breathe in fresh air.

Witness the cold and hot, with the weather not quite sure what it wants to be.

To take a real vacation to Paris with my sisters, of all places, and appreciate art, culture, and history all in one visit has made me feel blessed and renewed.

It’s been a while since I’ve gone on a trip, let alone out of the country. But I felt the love and saw the beauty and kindness that we seem to see and hear less of these days.

I felt the joy and excitement of a little kid seeing something great for the first time.

It was like something woke up inside of me, and now I can’t wait to see what the rest of this year has in store for me and what next year will bring me.

But for now, I’ll live for today, November 2nd, and I hope for more beauty and joy to light me up again.

On the top of the Arc

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

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I am not

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Sad that I have to walk away

I am sad because the last straw was your words about how you see me.

After all these years, you still don’t get me, and I’m tired of explaining myself.

I’d rather you not understand and me not care than to care, and you still not understand even though I’ve made myself clear.

I won’t fight or entertain anymore, but I know I won’t explain either.

It might be harsh, but I don’t have the time to keep being sad or feel like you’re cutting me this day and that day and taking it as if it doesn’t hurt.

I am here for myself and stand for who I am now and before. And if you don’t get that, you won’t accept my change and growth, but I am not sure I can help anymore.

I am now at peace, and I have closed that door, and no matter how hard you knock, I know my worth, and you may say I’m too sensitive, but sometimes you know when it’s time to walk away.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

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You stood

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Three Line Tales 238

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there in the field so still and patient for the first time in such a long time.

I know lately we have both been moving around a lot and our time together has faded out sometimes.

But in this moment as I snap picture after picture of you in the field that day I can only smile and enjoy this moment together and I just hope your smiling under that helmet too.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyrighted ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I had

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to go before the sunrise

Because I knew that if I stayed

And we talked about it than I would never leave.

And I needed to leave

for I’ve been stuck here for so long.

And I have allowed you to keep me here

for I was afraid to go on my own.

Even though I knew you would not ever

come with me.

So I stayed to be with you.

But now my dreams are calling me forward and it’s time to live for me.

I hope you will forgive me one day.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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Yes it

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is another day in this place

is it going to be great I doubt it.

But here I stand trying to make things right.

I know that I’m doing what I need to do because I have always put others first.

But as the new year quickly approaches I’m really gonna focus on myself and worry about others later when I have accomplish what I want to accomplish in my life for the time I need to get it done is not guaranteed for me.

I know right now I am here and in this moment I am focusing on what makes me, me and worrying about everything else later.

For a time for rest is now for I’ve been busy lately trying to forget and to get lost in almost everything so I don’t have to face the truth that’s been eating me up inside for quite some time now.

Maybe one day I’ll let it all out but for now only a little at a time will I cry and scream for the release I truly need to be at peace with myself.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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I want

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to leave for I know what I need and right now it’s not being here.

In a place that seems to crush my dreams and hopes more than help them grow more.

So I need to get away from all that I know and just face the present  with a smile on my face and to look forward to things that are coming my way.

For I know this isn’t all there is for me even though lately I truly don’t know where I fit but I know it’s not here anymore.

I know my talent would best served some where else for I have a lot to give and helping is what I love to do.

To know that I have just given someone a little slice of a good moment of their day just brings a smile to my face.

I know that sometimes I can be so frustrated and disappointed because of things I can’t seem to control but I know I will push through it and in the end I know I win.

For I will keep my head up and I won’t let the things that are so negative get me down because I want to stay in this bubble of positive feelings that just carry me through the darkness moments and seems to keep the bullshit at bay.

I know the day will come when I will have to truly shut down to avoid the things that want to drag you into their hell for who doesn’t like company when their miserable and angry at the world.

I  will be the light to guide you out for I know how much damage the darkness can do if you entertain it way too long.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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Oh

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God how I saw you shining through someone today.

Their joy was so clear and so pure and full of life.

It just made me smile too and not question why he was that happy for I just knew it was because of you.

He jumped for joy when I mentioned it was always so good to see him for he always came around in such an amazing mood.

You and him made my day as you brighten the moments that made me not want to be there just be in my own zone.

You showed me that no matter how much moments feel like they are not worth smiling about, it is so worth it too just smile and enjoy others when they come around.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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With

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no care in the world

I sit here with all the confidence

I have ever had and enjoy this moment.

I am not worried about who is texting me or supposed to text me by now.

I know that plans have probably changed as I don’t bother to look at the time anymore.

I hope you just forgot of maybe your running late but why no warning ahead of time from you.

I don’t know why you don’t say anything and in the end you will show up or you won’t and maybe you will say sorry or you will just keep walking as if it’s not your problem that your late.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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TIRED

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of rolling the dice

and paying the price

for other people  life choices I didn’t really sign up for.

I am not your backup plan because if I am I will let you down

everytime.

For I owe you nothing and some day you will realize that when I am gone.

But, for now I will allow you to be naïve and maybe one day you will truly open your eyes up and see how much the better the world would be if you got your act together.

If ignorance had a picture of a sample of the word in the dictionary there you would be with a smile on your face trying to fool the world.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2015 By Deirdre Stokes

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Waiting

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for that perfect break in the rain to come feels like a life time of decision.

You kind of want to just jump right in and not worry about the mess that could come next.

You don’t care if there is a chance you will get soaked because the waiting is killing you.

The want of just getting to the safety of your home from a long day at work is almost urging you into the streets.

But, you realize what is it your trying to get to in such a hurry?

When you get home you are just going to relax and curl up on the coach and watch a movie.

So is the risk really worth it at this point in your day.

Probably not, so let’s enjoy this moment and for once not hurry to get somewhere.

Because this moment may not come again and you don’t want to miss it.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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is our time together and it feels like it’s took so long for it to happen but, now that it is here I am quietly embracing the joy that I feel inside at this moment.

I know that we may sit here for a while and embrace the fact that this time won’t happen again for a long time but, we know that our love and bond won’t go away.

Even when we go away from this place I know that there will be more trips and moments for us to come a long.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I am

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full of life and I’m not going anywhere.

I wonder what tomorrow will hold for me as the sun shines down on me.

I know that these days are not something I can plan  and so I must have hope that I will make it to the next.

I must do what is best for me now and have hope that I will be able to continue doing great many more days.

Twenty-nine years and I feel there is so much more for me to do and I feel like in a way I am just beginning.

This moment feels like no going back to how I thought before and the feeling that is inside me is so strong that I don’t want it to disappear as my head hits the pillow tonight.

I want to keep climbing and not for selfish reasons but for more than I can understand right now.

I want to do it all and make it worth more than I am in the end for I am just a person and what I want to do will be more than remembering my name and those after me.

I am just a piece to the answer that some of you have being waiting for all this time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I’m in

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my moment because of you and I don’t know what the plan I feel that is coming is.

But, I’m ready to give it all up and move forward for the life that feels like floating on air.

The life that feels like a nice breeze blowing through you air, the sun shinning down on you as you lean your head back.

The feeling when you’re so hot that when the first rain drop hits your forehead you just sigh with relief that the heat wave is over in this moment as you let the rain pour down on you.

The moment when the cold morning air is welcoming as you wake up as you walk out the door and welcome the winter in hopes spring will come soon.

You realize that the moment that you will overcome the struggle is near and you can feel it as you make big changes in your life.

You know that you are fully embracing all that you are and there is not  a moment you want to forget of deny.

You are in your moment and the feeling is so amazing that words really can’t describe how good you feel as you are filled with so much love and confident that you could ever want or need.

For this is your moment and no one can take that a way from you and your mind will replay it over and over until you do better next time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Thinking

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of you on this cold morning as I stand here 

my mind is full of sorrow of the times we had together and now there over. 

I know when I leave this spot and go back to the house we both used to call home 

you will be gone and the home I loved coming back to everyday will be empty and lonely.

I know that I have to leave this spot but I just can’t face what will come once I leave and so I stand out here just a little longer and hope maybe things will be different. 

If I come up with the right plan just maybe things will workout for us and this moment will just be temporary. 

I know that I am the key to your happiness and you are the key to mine when it comes to our love. 

I know this is the real thing and you are it for me so Our home my be just me for now but, soon you will be back and things will be better than before and I hope we stick this time and handle things differently from now on. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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If only

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you could save some time in your pocket and store it for later.

When you just need a little quite time to a very long day.

You’re tired of solving everyone else problems and not your own because you just don’t have time for yourself.

You try to find the answers to what would this moment be life if I just had more time to appreciate it and really savor it for all the things it could offer me.

You beg for more time just to find your way out of this endless path that doesn’t look like its ended up with the answers you really wanted.

You want to feel the pull that this is the right thing to do and smile because you are having the time of your life right now.

You want to feel like every question that is in your mind has a point and needs to be answered and right now is the time to seek them.

If only you saw yourself the way I see you and if only you truly believed you were doing your best at the end of the day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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