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Poetry

Words

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want to come out and create something more because life is sometimes stressful.

And you want to escape into something just for a little while.

To forget all your troubles and focus on someone else or just to see some good in the world.

You  want to read or see something that doesn’t break your heart or make you so mad.

You want to stop and truly think about something other than what is going on in your life for once.

To get lost with a smile on your face and laughter that wants to come out instead of tears.

You want to feel strong again and not so weak from all the things in life that is mentally and physically holding you down.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Lost

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and right now there is no hope in finding what was once me. 

Being pulled in so many directions I just can’t keep up anymore.

They  want so much from me but, if I ask something it’s like I’m the one being ungrateful.

How much longer do I have to walk around feeling like a zombie 

moments of my day just slipping by me that I can’t keep track of the time that seems to be going by so much faster than I thought. 

I don’t know who or what is coming at me first and as I try to keep up 

I fall flat on my back and as I lie down, I don’t want to even think or want to get back up. 

Lost to what I love and lost to those that love me is there any hope at this point. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I have

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 so much to say to you

But, I just don’t think you deserve the words I want to say.

I think about how we started being friends and to now and

I wonder if our friendship was even something important to you

And now I feel like there is no string holding us to a friendship at all.

I feel like I’ve always been in this corner when it comes to you and only

When you felt like letting me in then you shared stuff with me.

But, now it feels like your ignoring me and you don’t even care about reaching out to me.

Why do I still care?

Why do I still worry?

Why are my thoughts still thinking of a friendship that seems like something in the past at this point?

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I just want

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To breath

And smile

And feel alive again.

I don’t want to hold back anymore.

I know that this is my time and I just can’t sit around struggling anymore.

I must take this step and do what I love first and let everything else work it’s self out.

I don’t know when my time will run out and so right now I know is the right time to make my move.

For tomorrow could be too late and I’m tired of regretting things I didn’t do years later.

I’m ready to say goodbye to all of you

For holding on to the past isn’t helping me now in the present.

The memories are there when all I wanted was five minutes of your time.

But, now I see you all as I hide away from the truth and just accept this is my life now without all of you.

I used to be sad that you all didn’t seem to care where I was or how I was.

But, now I just don’t care anymore and realize being on my own wasn’t so bad after all.

No worries or concerns for I know me, and I know how and what I like as I live a life where I come first and

If your lucky I’ll let you be apart of this life and don’t worry I won’t ignore your text or calls.

For I’ll be there for you like you were never there for me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Hold on

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for things will start to look up soon 

I know right now things seem so hard that holding on any longer just seems impossible. 

But, I’m here to tell you the pain you are feeling will be worth it at the end of this trial you are going through. 

You have trained for this and it’s time to hold longer than you have before because your strength to get through this is what we are looking for and what you need the most right now. 

You know not what tomorrow will hold for you and so today you must work so hard that you will be satisfied even if the tomorrow never comes or tomorrow you feel weaker than today.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Thinking

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of you on this cold morning as I stand here 

my mind is full of sorrow of the times we had together and now there over. 

I know when I leave this spot and go back to the house we both used to call home 

you will be gone and the home I loved coming back to everyday will be empty and lonely.

I know that I have to leave this spot but I just can’t face what will come once I leave and so I stand out here just a little longer and hope maybe things will be different. 

If I come up with the right plan just maybe things will workout for us and this moment will just be temporary. 

I know that I am the key to your happiness and you are the key to mine when it comes to our love. 

I know this is the real thing and you are it for me so Our home my be just me for now but, soon you will be back and things will be better than before and I hope we stick this time and handle things differently from now on. 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I sit

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here simply wondering when things will fall back in place as everything around me seems so dark.

I wonder if a storm is coming and if it will wash away my sorrows and as it does will the joy and cheer be restored in me.

Will I gain back the strength I  had or will I be stronger than before or will I know the truth to all the suffering I have faced and  did I pass the test with flying colors.

Or did I let the problems become an impossible situation and gave up before I truly could shine and prove myself.

I sit down and pray to you God that I will overcome my weakness.

I know you are there and you are helping me but, I ask you now to help them as well the ones who may not ask you for help or believe in you.

So as I go I hope you know today will not be the last time we talk for I will sit and wonder some more many times hopefully not so soon again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

The

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quiet moments of my day

feels so right.

Nothing bothering me as the peaceful feeling surrounds me

with nothing but joy.

This moment I have been waiting for has been a long time coming

I know that things have been rough but, now it’s starting to look up.

The clouds are now calm as the storm has passed over me for the time being.

I walk around and not worry about something raining down on me and soaking up everything that is good in my life now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Words

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come and go from your lips.

And lately I just don’t want to listen anymore

I just want to run away and not take on this responsibility.

I know I will be eaten alive soon by your ways for I’m the prey and you’re the shark coming to take what is not yours to have.

No regret will be on your mind as you turn and tear down all that I have built so far.

I don’t know how many more of your attacks I can take for the pretending to be okay is feels like a losing battle now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I remember

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those days when I couldn’t just laugh off all the bullshit you would spit at me.

I would think about all the ugly you said to me and how I didn’t at the time  wonder what was wrong with you.

I just looked at the target on my back and thought what was wrong with me, now I know nothing was wrong with me but back then I was an easy target.

Even though I fought back for I knew this anger towards me had nothing to do with me, for your darkness was not my fault and the light that could have shined down on you was not being blocked by me.

Now if you have a problem or something to say to me, say because I may hold my peace or laugh right in your face for I know who I am and what I have and nothing you say or do will ever take my smile or laugh away.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Look

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I’m not in the best of moods today and this look is all the warning you need. 

I’m clasping on to my jacket as I try to hold in the anger of this day to myself. 

You see I used to care a lot about things and people in my life but, all they showed me was I was important enough for them to make time for me. 

I stop trying to relay on others and just started to relay on myself for at the end of the day that all I really have. 

This world is a big place and I’m surrounded by so many people every day yet I’m sure no one really pays much attention to me anyways. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

This

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path that I am on is both dark and light and some days the light out weights the darkness.

And other days the darkness is winning the battle and light is slowing going out.

But, today the light is bright and shining through it all and guiding my way down the new path I am on now.

The end of the tunnel is starting to look great and with much hope it will all work out and lead to something great.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I see you

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trying to figure out your way out of this situation right now.

I know that you are not happy and you have just given up and in your mind you’re not making things bad.

Yet, you are given your all because you don’t want to seem like the bad guy.

But the truth is I see right through you and I know that this is not your best right now and the mess you are causing doesn’t exist in your mind.

But, all around someone is running behind you cleaning it all up as quickly as possible because they don’t want to struggle later on when it all comes down to them to finish the deal.

I wonder what is going through your mind when you feel you are truly fighting this battle with every weapon you have but, yet I see all around you everything on the ground and your hands are empty.

The battle is won only because the people who are standing beside you did the hard work and finished everything you left behind.

I want to say so much but, I feel like you should know better and at the end of the day I’m not your mother or your boss.

So I’m going to let you fail because it’s just too much to help you succeed at the end of this battle.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Sunrise

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You are my sunrise, you light up my life in the morning and make every day a special occasion.

You are bright and some days you are different then the day before and even though your moods change I still love you so.

Your beautiful and amazing and even though some times I have to close my eyes when I first see you in the morning.

I know watching for the time that you are up and about is worth the little bit of sleep I missing out on.

My days with you are always days full of smiles and joy and laughter is never far behind either.

Days with you are the days I live for now and forever more.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

I release you

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my darkness for you will no longer suffocate me from the happiness that I’m trying to enjoy.

From the words that I’m trying to get out and share for words are truly all I have to express my troubles.

To let out the stress that captures me throughout my day that sometimes feels like I can’t run away from.

But, the time for darkness is over for the light is coming and there is only room for one thing to overpower me and right now it will be the light that guides my way.

That helps me escape the place that can make me feel so small and not worth the knowledge at the end of the road.

The light knows my truth and has seen my pain and knows that I am strong enough to get through it and I am strong enough to experience every moment even the ones I don’t want to be apart of.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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