Tag: Monday

Poetry

Trying to

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Get myself together seems really hard lately.

As I just want to sleep and feel well rested when I get up.

Instead it’s more tossing and turning and looking at the clock more than I really want too.

Night after night it’s the same thing and I begin to wonder will it get better.

Will my system wake up and get it together or will this continue on with no hope insight.

Too tired to fight the urge to just give up and so I will continue on with a spark of hope or whatever it is that’s got me moving.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes © copyrighted 2020

Poetry

Sometimes

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There is smoke before you really see that person for who they are.

You keep trying to peek a glance at them but what you see and hear about them seems so different.

They are so honest and sweet to you but everyone keeps saying it’s an act.

You don’t know what to believe for the smoke has not left your sight since you’ve meet them.

You don’t know if it’s safe to keep risking it all for them when you’re not sure you know who they truly are.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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The beginning

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 of another week and how I wonder what will happen.

So many possibilities that it’s hard not to be excited for what is to come of this week I’m heading in.

I know that there is so much more they want me to do but I am trying to focus on my future and not look back to my past.

For today is a new chance to experience something new and wonderful.

No need to worry or over worry for whatever happens is in his hands not mine.

I exist to serve my lord and to love one another.

And do the right thing at all times no matter how much you sometimes want to scream at someone.

Life is well too short to just let things slide anymore, it’s time to stop follow what others think is right only to come back and get you in the end.

The struggle to be more and do more only to feel like they will use you in the end is a hard thing to balance out.

But, I won’t change who I am just so you can make me do more work but I will stand up for myself when I dont want to keep doing you duties.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m drowing

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And I know there is no one to rescue me as I try to remember everything they has been told to me.

Is it left or right?

And was it the first left or the first right.

I don’t know what to do but keep asking for help as I feel like this is a set up and yet I have no back up plan.

If this doesn’t workout and it becomes too much to handle.

Oh how I wish I wasn’t doing this on my own so soon.

But what am I to do at this point but keep holding on.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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It’s been

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since I’ve picked up some paint and played with the colors.

But, it felt so relaxing and calming as the paints fall onto the paper.

As I Smoothed the colors in and looked at how great it was starting to look.

But I needed to take a break and just take a picture of what I had done before I try to play with it a little more.

Today is the first day of the week and hopefully it will continue to be on a good note for I need a stress less and peaceful day and week.

I just want to continue to grow and  create beautiful things and hope to learn something new along the way.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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There is

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Always a moment in our conversations that end it and I feels like your always hmmm.

Judging me and I hate that because even if life seems calm and pleasant right now.

I am barely holding on to my creativity and yet I say nothing.

As each day passes by and the longer it takes for me to say something.

Time goes by and all I feel is this is it and then something great comes and our conversations are well still the same.

I appreciate you and yet I wonder if you think I’m wasting my time.

But I don’t sit still enough to really think about for something else comes up and I’m on the move again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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I’m being

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Hopeful this year

I hope, more will become great moments for me.

And that I will live up to the standards that have been put out before me and those to come.

The feeling that this is not a repeat of anything I’ve ever experienced.

Before and so far and so the shift in my life has begun.

And where it will lead me is so unknown that I just keep walking because it feels right.

I can feel the light growing inside of me and the darkness is growing so small.

As I smile it grows so weak and tries to hide but I won’t lose this battle and it must go.

So I think about everything that makes me happy and whom I love and all I see for miles is the light in me shining so brightly.

And that is how it will be for now as long as I trust you, my lord, I will continue to win.

 
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So much

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 To learn as the sky lights up and sun rises as the morning has begun.

So much to do and yet not a lot of time for yet again here you are trying to wake up.

Time moves a little slow but If you take your eye off of it for a second next thing you know your running late again.

So it’s time to get up and have faith that today will be great no matter how boring or bad it gets for your still blessed.

For you got up this morning and you still have a chance to do something great today.

And even though you feel like there has to be a better answer out there don’t give up yet.

Things will get better just give it some time but when that moment comes you will be knocked off your feet.

Oh how I wish you could see just how blessed and loved you are now.

I know a lot is going on and the feeling of being lost is around again but so much more is coming your way so just hold on.

Don’t give up just because the support you had isn’t there anymore.

For you have always had all the help you needed just not from those who have left.

Just look around your help and your support are there and the best thing is they don’t want to go anywhere else.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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I don’t

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 Always look this way but sometimes I’m just to tired to get it right.

The green on my first is the cover up of all the bruises I’ve received this year.

Would stop and tell me I have something on my face or would you just think I was trying something new.

Oh how my mind is so restless and the headaches have only increased since that night you hurt me.

I wish I had the strength and courage to says something but I don’t.

So here I stand not looking my best because how can I pretend anymore that everything is okay when I have no energy to keep going on this way.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Time

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To find my way on this path even if it is a early one.

I know everyone is just waking up and here I’ve been for sometime and still I don’t feel ready.

But, here I am trying to get a move on it when all I want is to be warm.

And far from walking out the door and going anywhere but her just doesn’t sit well with me

So much to do and yet I’m sill watching the clock as if I don’t know the time or where I have to go this morning.

Maybe I just want the day to end so I can go home but not because I don’t like the place I just rather be in my home all relax and ready for food and sleep.

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Oh Monday

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Here you come again

Not saying I’m not glad to see you.

It’s just I liked sleeping in and not having to set alarm.

Yea I know I still had stuff to do but I didn’t have to worry about being on time.

I know there will be some peace and fun today but can’t I just have one more day off and see you on Tuesday.

Yes I know it doesn’t work that way and so here I come with a slight smile on my face.

But I hope you know I’m watching the clock until it’s my lunch break and then the count down to go home is strong.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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The need

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To say what’s on your chest has been eating you up inside and tonight.

You finally said it and now you feel so happy and hopefully.

But you know life will throw a curve ball and all that seemed great may not always be that way.

But that doesn’t stop you for hoping things will change and work out this time.

For there are many combinations to solving and living the good way as there are only few for just living the safe away and tons of going down the path well traveled.

But now it’s time to finally step out and survive because change is necessary to go to the top.

Each door that is open will show you how to just trust your instinct and it will be true out just fine.

 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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Will I

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Ever be someone’s number 2 because I would hope they would put the lord before me.

For he leads and I will help on the side with carrying and helping get back up when you fall.

I will listen as you pour your soul and heart out to our lord.

I won’t be mad about being second because I know at the end we all win as long as we let him guide and protect us.

I hope today will be the start of something new and every day and night we grow closer.

But in the end let’s not be self centered and think only about ourselves because at the end of the day we aren’t completely in control.

We must be patient when things seem impossible because we know that’s what his all about.

So one day when you’re ready I will be there with you every step of the way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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So before

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 I go today

I want you to know.

It’s been a struggle for me

To find the right words to express.

How much I care for you.

So many unsent text messages because I just didn’t know what you needed to hear.

And now there is still no words that feel good enough because you are too unique for simple words.

That won’t show you how much I care and that this isn’t just another friendship to me.

For I see you like family and you are important and I always want to check up on you and hope you well for I know you will do the same.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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To smile

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again feels so good right now.

Even though I know I’m walking into a Storm

I know that I am strong enough to handle it.

I know there will be times when it will be hard to really smile.

But, I know that the light in me will carry me through no matter what tries to run me down.

For this great smile will carry me through it all especially when I dont think smiling will solve the issue.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes