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Sweet to eat with you before everything gets busy again.
New changes coming and it’s time to get all done so there is time to relax and enjoy the little things in life.
Time to be together and not apart.
Time to look back and laugh and smile about all the things of the past.
But to look forward to what the future holds for me and us.
Today is just the beginning to something great.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
something good will come out of this space I’m in.
But right now the results are not quite in and the time it’s taking to get by for me is not so great.
But I won’t give up even when I’ve seen better days for I know there is so much more to look forward too in the next week and in the new year too.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
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the sun on my face after such a cold morning.
I just want to forget about today and hope for a better tomorrow
for I know things will be tough and the week will be long and at the end I will want to not come back again.
Things are going so well for me and right now I just hope and wish it will all work out in the end for I am tired of losing sleep over something that is not going to define me at the end of my day or week.
Something that has already changed me but not in the way I wanted it too.
At this point only the truth will set me free and today just doesn’t seem like the day where everything will be clear for me .
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
Believe my eyes as I watch the snow fall down and I hope it stops soon.
And it does but it leaves behind traces that it was here.
The air is colder than it was yesterday making me want to stay in bed and not get up.
I don’t want to face the reality that it’s all going down no matter what we do even if we do it all together.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
you’ve given me the strength to carry on lately.
Especially with everything going on all I can think of is how you gave me a second chance at life.
At opportunities, I didn’t think we’re going to happen to me this year.
But there you were knocking down those doors I thought we’re not gonna open and here I was gonna be left alone here to truly break down.
And lose who I was and to not believe I was good enough to leave and better myself from this place.
Oh God how much I love and appreciate all that you do for me now and later on in my life.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
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completes the outfit as I go out in the cold
trying to keep all of me warm as the temperatures start to drop.
I know that I won’t have long to be out but it’s better too not have to deal with feeling the bitter and sharp wind outside.
Oh, hat how you keep my head warm and how you come in handy when I don’t feel like doing my hair.
You give me just the right amount of warmth and just for the amount of time I need it for.
I know you only come out in the winter but I enjoy wearing you during these seasons.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
In this with no guarantee that it will all work out but,Someone always got something to say.
Shutting down like a robot and just getting through the day for I know I’m not meant to be here anymore.
I’m holding on to the only little amount of strength that I have left so that I can get through this day in hopes it all works out for me.
To care about others is fine but at end it’s me who wants to walk away and not deal with the negativity and the simple minded.
For the life that is meant to be mine is just behind that door and it’s time to open it and stop waiting for someone else to join me.
For I was meant to walk down this path alone but at same time knowing his guiding me once I walk through that door.
And everything in my past will truly be gone as I live in only the good times for the sorrow will not haunt me anymore.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
that you see when you look at me.
Is it someone who is always tired.
Always putting up a fight when a fight isn’t what anyone was looking for.
or am I the one who is so quite that you don’t know what is going on inside.
But, you want to be more than what you can be and well I know better for it never ends the way you want.
So am I the one pushing back more than ever in hopes of things just Turing out in the end.
But we all know that is not how stories end all this time for I have been short all my life and not just about my height but in all that I do I always seemed to fall short and in the end help someone else for the turning back and pretending is not working anymore.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
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are the days when I felt so strong and able to go on no matter what.
Now the struggle to do what I need to do at the speed that will help me get it done comes and goes.
I feel like I have the ability to do more but the drive to do it isn’t as strong willed as it used to be and the desire to prove myself is just not there.
For I know I can do it but the fact that you try to man hand me get us no where and yet you still think your way will get us far.
But your way is like a burnt leaf nothing good comes from dry leaves unless you need them for a fire in the woods.
I know it will all come down in the end but will you see it coming because you never seem focus or aware of your surroundings.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
Angry at the world
That I couldn’t see those around me that have been there along.
Through every storm even the ones they didn’t know about.
They would encourage and push because they don’t want to give up because they saw the light in me when I couldn’t
They stood strong around me waiting for me to be ready to join them.
For they knew the joy of me was coming and not just for a little bit but for a lifetime.
Today was unclean to me but now I see I had to step back to see the truth and now it’s time.
To take one step at a time and just move forward because it’s just too late to give them an second chance.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
Birthday to me.
Another year older and yet something is off.
I am grateful to be alive today and to see what today has in-store for me.
I know that life has been kicking me down a lot lately but, I still feel blessed for I know things could be worst.
So today I may cry and I will laugh and smile and hopefully this milestone of being just a bit older.
Will show me the way for I’m so ready to not settle for any less than what I deserve in every part of my day.
So I hope not only to have a great day but for everyone who takes the time to read my blog to have a blessed day as well.
Waiting for as everything just goes down hill.
The frustration is strong and the demand to get it done is ridiculous.
As the anger boils up with nothing left but ashes when I’m done.
Nothing matters anymore as all I see is red and all I want is for the bullshit to end so I can walk way with a smile on my face and the termination of knowing it will not matter in the end
Tomorrow will not be worth it in the end I know I won’t be.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
And overworked
No where to run as everything gets to busy.
And in the storm stands you unmoved and unbothered.
I want to fight you and put you in your place and I know that will not happen.
For I know at the end fighting with you won’t be worth it.
I’m not angry enough to get to your level and I know there is so much more for me now and forever.
But, for you I don’t think you care and you are too comfortable in the situation.
And you think life will always be this great but is it more for show.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
how I sometimes let you run my life.
Not letting much get by because I know to let others in somehow become disappointing.
You know there is more to say and not enough time to do it for doubt always seems to creep in and try to turn your life upside down.
And when that happens it’s like seeing everything around you and no hope of things getting better for you.
For once again you let doubt win because you believe for a second your not worth something more than what your living right now!
Oh how I hope doubt won’t win this battle I’m fighting right now.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes
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