Tag: pain

Poetry

Am I

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enough to hold your attention right now. 

Am I enough of a friend for you to reach out to me today or tomorrow. 

Am I the reason things just don’t seem to workout in the end. 

Am I capable of bringing happiness to someone else when I don’t seem to care if I am happy myself. 

Am I ever going to see or hear the truth from you. 

Am I ever going to forget the people who are from my past but, pop up in my dreams. 

Am I doing what I love and yet, I am doing what I dislike just to get by in this lifetime. 

Will I become one of those people who are bitter about everything and just be rude because well I can be. 

Am I settling when I should be pushing on and knocking down so many more walls, instead of hiding behind them. 

Am I worrying about the right things or am I stuck in the same mindset that everyone else is and so now I’m lost. 

That bright person who I knew as me seems a million miles away as this dull person walks around with her head down hoping no one sees her for who she is becoming.

For even she doesn’t like who she is now, so angry and sad with no answer to how she can get out of this mess. 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Prompt: Raw

I’m left here feeling these raw emotions of what just happened and I begin to wonder why was I spared when so many lives were lost.

What had they thought before the bullet took their lives and in that moment before fate decided it was their time to go.

Did they wish they had more time or did they just feel sad for the ones that they left behind.

I feel sad for the ones that loss their life that day and I feel sorry for the ones that survived because the pain of watching people you knew fall around you.

The feeling of fear running through you now and that feeling of happiness and safe now ripped from you innocent hands.

Nothing will be the same as you walk down those halls or go about your day, maybe you won’t have nightmares.

But, some will dream about that day and it will haunt them for the rest of their life.

This moment won’t be just one day it will be something that you remember for a lifetime, you will always question that day.

I was left here to say what those that didn’t make wanted to say and in this moment  I am sad that the world is meeting me because of this tragic moment that changed not only my life but others as well.

When does the tragic moment end and life becomes peaceful again, a question I know no one has an answer to right now or back then.

To watch this world fall apart because of gun violence and no hope seems to becoming soon enough.

I pray it all stops soon but, without some action nothing will become of this and we will be reading about another tragic moment again soon.

But, I pray so hard that, that moment doesn’t happen but this world is cruel and we can’t control the actions of others.

So let’s start watching for the signs that may help us stop them before things get too far, for too many young people are dying because of this problem.

That hurts more than the people who live in that town, their hurt carries on to many as they pray for comfort and strength for those who families lost someone so precious to them.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Inkling

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The clue to solving the puzzle of my life is nowhere to be found

maybe one day I will get a stronger grab on what it is I’m suppose to do.

Because right now the feeling of drowning by the things that I don’t want to do or need to do.

The thought that this is it, this is what I grew up for just isn’t something worth fighting for anymore.

I want to smile not cry for the truth is this is not what I dreamed up, the words dislike and I’m losing it is all that is floating in my mind these day.

The truth is I can’t seem to find my way out and the truth is there is no helping me and the hole that is slowly sucking up my joy is not small anymore.

The words are not just words and the truth is right in front of your face, the eyes the smile can you tell if it’s  real.

Do you remember how I used to look and act and can you tell me that I’m the same as I was before.

Get a clue this puzzle this clue isn’t about me finding my way but you finding me again.

Too many clues unanswered and for what I say, will someone look around or will you continue to focus what’s going on with you and when you feel you are complete then come back to see how I am doing?

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Inkling

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In this

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place I accepted who I was and what I had become. 

I was broken but yet healed, the past was long gone but the scars felt so fresh some days. 

That it’s hard to move on even when the moments now are good. 

It’s like listening to the same song over and over again even sang by different people the meaning behind the words still haunt you to your core. 

You want to truly express who you are and what you stand for and as you continue to write every day. 

Each piece taking a little bit of you with it and you begin to feel this feeling of pride every time you finish a piece.

But, then hard times come and your words become few and you begin to wonder if what you wrote was any good.

All that you’ve loved is hard to gasp with some much darkness swallowing you up.

And, all you want to do is cry out for help but there is no one who will hear your call.

All that you’ve accepted and loved is lost with you now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Words

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are not enough when they are all you’ve been hearing lately and the words are well starting to pile up.

You try to figure out who is telling the truth and which words are all just lies to begin with.

You try not to question everything that is going on around you but it’s hard to not let the doubt inside and once its there it’s harder to walk away from.

The words that you cherished the most now may just be the words that bring down your walls and leave you more helpless than you’ve ever been before.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Faint

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The voices of the people I thought would stay in my life

for a long time became faint as I walk away that day.

I didn’t remember what they said to me but my heart still feels a little empty

from the piece of me they took that night.

They didn’t even see me walk away or even cared if I had showed up

but the words they said just hit me so hard I felt pieces of my heart fall away and the pain was so much I almost fainted.

But, some how I got the strength to turn around and walk out that door and go to a place that ended up saving me from not recover from that pain.

There had always been someone there for me that didn’t like the other people I hung out with but respected that I like them but, always warned me that one day things would come clear to me.

And the first thing you did that night wasn’t tell me you told me so but, that you would do anything to take this pain away and that trying to get revenge wasn’t worth it for karma always comes back around.

My heart is fully healed now and you are still by my side not only protecting me but the family we built together and maybe one day our kids will have a friend who stands up for them like you did for me that day.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Faint

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Stay away!

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Stay away from me, they say you hurt and numb everyone that get close to you and I for one don’t want to feel that pain.

that scars you for life and just remembering something about you triggers that pain or sense of it.

So say away I say for I’ve had enough pain for a while that letting you into my life would definitely be a bad idea.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Stay away!

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Am I

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strong enough for these rocks being thrown at me

Will I be able to stand here and take every hit.

Or will one hit just be too much for me that I fall down

and cry for the help that no one seemed to be able to give me.

I stand there or I will fall there but where is my hero to save me

from this pain that is so unbearable that I just want to crumble.

I know I can fight this but how much can one take for something they didn’t do

why do I have to battle through the things that really is your problem and not mine.

I take the pain for you and I don’t ever doubt that you will be there for me when it comes to the end.

But, you see I’m a warrior and we fight for those that stand alone and no matter how much I may complain there is just something inside of me that says you mess with someone I love and you will pay.

I fight for the good and I won’t let the evil win this battle so don’t worry I’m not going away anytime soon.

Your battle is now mine and even though I’ m paying the cost of your mistakes, I will take every blow with a smile and in the end I will be the winner and the victory will be shared.

For I refuse to sit back and watch evil take another one from the good side for its empty promises.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Poetry

Daily Prompt: Scorched

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I got so close to you that I got scorched the pain  was so defined.

I didn’t see it coming and I couldn’t do anything but bit my lip and get away before I burn.

I couldn’t focus on what was going on around me because it all seemed so unreal.

The burning anger inside of you ready to hurt me again.

The flames shooting out your fingers waiting for me to get just close enough it feels like your burning through me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Daily Prompt: Scorched

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I just wanted your time

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Is that so hard to ask

Can’t you see the sadness in my eyes

as I stand in front of you, do I need to wave for you to help me.

For some reason you walk right by me and I feel the pain hit me all over again.

I’m just a ghost now and still you show no emotions towards me.

I just wish it didn’t have to come to this but I can’t go back

I’m not like a movie you can’t rewind and go back and stop it before it happens

I’m gone and all I  wanted was your time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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