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Poetry

What I

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Really need seems like a question I need answers too.

For I feel like I’m living but what am I living for again?

My purpose seems to be more than I thought and now I am praying for a sign to show me.

That there is more to me than what I’ve shown so far.

It all feels like I am about to go on a journey that will hopefully finally show me the final pathway.

That will lead me to the place I need to be in order to know what’s been happening is worth it.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

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I need

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sometime to get away from it all for well I feel like I get away from one thing only for the next thing to seem well too good to be true.

The opportunity feel good and well I feel at peace and everyone is so nice and the days are well just flying by so fast and learning new things are really just a thrill for me.

And then the moment when things just seem so unreal and the pressure has been served and all you can do is keep watching the time and hope I get it all done and on time too.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

 

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I close

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 My eyes and the first thing to comes to my mind is you.

Your names seems to always want to come out of my mouth.

I want to be close but not that close, I feel like my emotions are on a roller coaster and one is saying just a friend and the other is not even sure what it wants.

It’s like growing up and then being like a high school girl all over.

Making this slight awkward but at the same time not really.

Complicated is what it is and right now feels like a mess that needs to be cleaned up or fixed.

The answer and the solution to the problem keeps changing and not for the better.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Things have

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been quite nice lately and now I just need me time to myself

over looking the place that brings me peace and stress at the same time.

I know that things are looking up as the sun continues to shine down on me and

all the challenges that are coming my way  seem scary now but sooner or later I will have overcome them and succeed in a place I hope I would.

Hours pass by and the day is soon to be over and yes I feel like what did I do and could I have done more before this weekend ends and the work week begins.

Before my mind goes crazy with what can I do in a place that makes me feel sitting on this rock could be my new route to just find a little peace now and then in hopes to find my peace everyday of the week no matter what is going on around me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

No

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 Complaints as the life on the other side is greener than before.

I don’t regret leaving because of the risk for the first time is worth it.

Maybe I have become stronger and so the things that used to scare me off from taking that leap.

Is now far from my mind as I make my next move.

And I know that I will be just fine as I make a move that will change me for the better.

I know that things will become more clearer as I learn so much more.

I feel the excitement running through me as the days start to add up and the count down begins.

It’s time to enjoy this moment of rest and know things will turn out as long as I have faith gods plan for me and faith that whatever happens is better than if I planned it myself.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Oh how

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 My heart ache as a old chapter of my life comes to an end.

And a new one begins my nerves are shoot and I feel like a kid on the first day of school.

Excited to see old faces but hoping to see new ones too.

Trying to hold it together as everything that is happening is only a day away.

And yet nothing is going as plan and you feel your procrastination is catching up to you.

And for the first time you don’t want to fuck things up for you want to improve things not ruin them.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Tonight lets

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 Celebrate the new changes that are coming our way.

With something sweet and drink something that will comment it.

For it’s time to embrace the change and look forward to it for once for this is my time to shine.

No more thinking too much about things I can’t control or wishing someone would see what I see.

Maybe than they would know it’s not just what’s going on around them but some what their doing too.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

So much

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 Going on around us but yet all we do is get lost in our phones.

It’s easier to be focus on what’s happening in our little squares then deal with meeting someone new.

But, maybe it’s easier to have one less person in our life when life seems too complicated.

Staying close isn’t your thing and even if you try to fight your instinct it always wins out.

Quite time alone and everything is peaceful before another round of noise hits your way.

You begin to wonder if just jumping into the noise would be better for you at this point.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Yes it

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is another day in this place

is it going to be great I doubt it.

But here I stand trying to make things right.

I know that I’m doing what I need to do because I have always put others first.

But as the new year quickly approaches I’m really gonna focus on myself and worry about others later when I have accomplish what I want to accomplish in my life for the time I need to get it done is not guaranteed for me.

I know right now I am here and in this moment I am focusing on what makes me, me and worrying about everything else later.

For a time for rest is now for I’ve been busy lately trying to forget and to get lost in almost everything so I don’t have to face the truth that’s been eating me up inside for quite some time now.

Maybe one day I’ll let it all out but for now only a little at a time will I cry and scream for the release I truly need to be at peace with myself.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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I need

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these little moments when it’s just me and I can sit and appreciate all the moments you have blessed me and have allowed me to see another day.

I sit here with a smile on my face in hope that things will continue to get better for me because I am not the one to continue down this path where I allow others too much control of my life.

I am ready to gain more strength and patience to get through this storm I’m about to walk into for not the first time but it’s been awhile.

I know that I can face anything with you God so help me to keep my mouth shut when I have nothing nice to say and to hold me back when people try me.

Allow me to pause before I jump into anything these days for I know you will guide me the right way and that it’s time for me to do what needs to be done before my time is up.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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Have I

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 Let so much time past me by that

Even I don’t know what my dream truly is anymore.

Or have I let others control what I should be doing overcome what I need to be doing for the lord.

And not for my own greed or attention.

Am I saying what should be said or am I dealing with more than I should at this point.

Life seems to becoming more of a story I wish I could jump out and not join again in hope to find a story that I truly fit into.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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Am I

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 To pause because of you

Or am I to move forward because of me.

So much is going to change and I’m looking forward to new beginnings.

I know that as the year ends the lord has guided me away from things I thought I needed and towards things that will teach me something new.

It’s time for me to not settle for the path that feels safe because I know what I am doing and everyone appreciates what I have done so far.

It’s time for my light to shine somewhere else because it’s ready to shine for more than me.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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You try

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with all your might to take my light away from me but I won’t break because you’re unhappy with yourself.

 I know this situation isn’t ideal but does that give you the right to run your mouth at the moment when we are helping you.

Or turn on us because your patients are shoot but if I was the one to take my frustration out on you it would be a problem.

But, I know you’re not worth fighting or concerning my time with.

I’ll stay true to myself and move on from your behavior which is not acceptable but who am I to judge you now or later.

I am who I am and you will always be you but I choose not to be on your level for God would want me to do better and be the bigger person even when you push me too far.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s that

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moment you’ve been waiting for when you have just the right amount of time to relax and make sugar and ginger bread cookies.

With different shapes and sizes in hope to just shine some more light on the season as everything else around you is going by so fast and you don’t know what to do other than hope it will all work out in the end.

You know that you are looking forward to learn so much and hope not to fail as the time goes on and the help that was around is no more.

The idea of being able to solve the problems as best as you can is becoming more complicated  by the minute.

No one knows the right answers to anything that is going on right now but the end result is you are not sure how well this will work out anyways.

So all you do is focus on the cookies and worry about the rest another day or two.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes

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They want

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it to be all about the presents as the days get  closer and closer to Christmas this year but the truth is I don’t care for gifts this year. 

I don’t really have the desire for something big  or something small.

I just want to feel the joy and to enjoy the peace and quiet and just enjoy the time I have before things change again.

I know that I am more into the decorating parts and just living in the moment we’ll it last and not about how many gifts are under the tree.

I’ve seem to have out grown the gifts and simple if I need something I just get it unless the price is better doing black Friday but even then I don’t need to want until Christmas too have it.

A present is nice but I’m not worrying about it this year for I’ll watch a movie or the parade and drink some eggnog and call it a day for soon the new year will be coming around.

And yet again things will be different and noting will be the same again.

But I feel I will be okay with that in 2020 but until then I will do my best to fix my little bit left of 2019.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2019 By Deirdre Stokes