Night, as it gets late and the sun sets, I get ready to sleep.
I am so tired that I can no longer avoid being worn down by 6 p.m. and having it dark by 7 p.m.
I get ready for bed with no regrets as I keep yawning with no hope of stopping insight.
I know I must sleep soon, or things will get rough.
I will fall asleep and leave other things on all night as I sleep with no care or concern. I won’t worry; I only want to catch as many zzzs as possible.
Sleep has come and gone lately, and I feel I never get enough sleep.
I started this blog at 26 and am now 35 years old. I have gone from being just a lady wanting to find a place to write.
I am committed to making this place my writing home, a place to write and own my talent, confident that I am showing myself.
I have gone from writing almost every day to posting positive quotes every day and slowly getting back to writing.
From blogger to published author to becoming an Empowering writing coach for women.
To try to make time to write and do art and feel so much alive for this year, I have leaned on faith and found new ways to look at the world around me.
I see the beauty and feel the breeze and cold air skipping at me, and I embrace what more years I have left to write and share on this blog.
I’ve grown so much as a writer, and I am truly grateful for all who have been here from the start and helped me become a better writer. I hope I can keep going strong for many years more.
Also, welcome to all the newcomers to my blog. I hope to bring some new poetry soon and keep up the positive quotes as well.
And I reflect on how much October gave me back my hope.
Creativity has been quite a battle for me this year, and it’s been rough, as art and writing are like breathing, joy, and just feeling alive.
With fall arriving, the colors of the leaves change and brighten up nature. Everything is so pretty, and it makes you pause to appreciate just how lucky it is to be alive and to breathe in fresh air.
Witness the cold and hot, with the weather not quite sure what it wants to be.
To take a real vacation to Paris with my sisters, of all places, and appreciate art, culture, and history all in one visit has made me feel blessed and renewed.
It’s been a while since I’ve gone on a trip, let alone out of the country. But I felt the love and saw the beauty and kindness that we seem to see and hear less of these days.
I felt the joy and excitement of a little kid seeing something great for the first time.
It was like something woke up inside of me, and now I can’t wait to see what the rest of this year has in store for me and what next year will bring me.
But for now, I’ll live for today, November 2nd, and I hope for more beauty and joy to light me up again.
Until it hits a rough patch, there will be some struggle, but like everything in life, it will calm down again.
The rough patches help me see what has been hiding right in front of me, and it’s time to regain some of my hope and strength as I fight some of the rough doubts and return to the calm water again.
Standing tall and looking from under my umbrella with a smile, I knew this storm wouldn’t overcome me.
Good, as the music flows through my ears and down into my body, I feel like I’m back to that woman who is aligned with her life and purpose.
I’m not the woman I’ve been the last couple of months, who was lost and found and lost again.
She poured out more tears and frustration and felt so many blessings and haha moments, too.
But she was also shaking in fear, facing fear with a smile.
Standing tall, she saw something new and felt something stir inside her as she confidently stepped into the unknown.
The sun shined down on her, and she was free, loved, and supported. In the meadow of truth, she stood tall that day.
The woman is no longer afraid of whatever is coming. She would stand her ground, for she had waited a long time to see this path open up and light her fire again.
So far, 2024 has been rough. For seven months, I have had writer’s block and uncertainty. But it has also had some good times, like growing more, finding new interests, and reading a lot of books.
I didn’t know what this year held for me, but I felt God calling me to be a coach.
The uncertainty came in, and only now, eight months later, have I done something I’ve been doing and experienced what I am going to do.
I will tell you what I’m doing, but I want to be more defined and have it in place.
If there is one thing I learned this year, it is that I didn’t give up. I reset and changed directions, but I kept going even when I was frustrated and sad.
Because I am meant for more, and hopefully, by the end of this year, it will be clear and coming true.
I hope you all have been pushing through, and I hope and pray you all have a great Thursday!🙏🏽❤️🙌🏽
But I might get sick of the weather changing back and forth like a ping-pong ball in motion.
Oh, how I long for a happy breezy day when my allergies don’t appear.
But I know I am grateful to enjoy the lovely days, for summer is here now to stay, but I am hopeful these cooler days will return and bless us with a breeze that throws us into a whirlwind of joy and happiness to enjoy the little things in life.
At least that’s how it went today as I went live in my confidence coaching Facebook group today.
I did a 15-minute live about unleashing your inner confidence; it was my first one. Boy, was I nervous before, but when I hit live, I just talked as people can in and out of the live stream, but for the most part, it was just me.
And it’s funny how even talking to the camera by myself still made me nervous, and once it was over, I was relieved, but I went back to watch it and the volume was a little low, and the connection on Facebook was not great.
But God got me through it, and maybe the next time I go live, it will be better, and I will have more women in my group helping and supporting each other as they gain their confidence in themselves.