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My thoughts

Hey everyone

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So yesterday, I decided to have a psychic medium-highest frequency session on a virtual Zoom call. It was centered around God and felt spiritually correct.

In recent years, I have become interested in my chakras, and this coach has given me free little reading on Facebook Live and has been hitting on the things I was stuck in or how my throat chakra was blocked.

Last week, when I was practicing to go live in my Facebook group, every time I tried to speak, I would stop, and there was fear around it so great I had to keep pushing past it and then after I did my live, it was gone.

Anyway, this call made things clear for me, like how I am working towards being a confidence coach, but calling myself a confidence coach hasn’t felt quite right.

I kept feeling like I wanted to help others express themselves with their words, be their authentic selves, and have wiring be a part of it. I don’t know what to call myself as a coach, but I know I still want to help women.

Also, I’ve been struggling with prayer and looking for answers outside myself, and during this call, the burning bush came up, saying I am a miracle and the answers are within me.

And I’ve heard the answers are in me before, yet I’ve always looked to others to help me find my way, and now I need to seek them as God has provided me with the answers.

I also need to step out of my comfort zone and do some creative stuff outside my home, so I will have to work myself up too that, but I hope we all can seek the things we need and stop missing the signs right in front of us for our happiness matters too and it’s no fun being lost.

I thought this would be nice to share. Let me know what you think in the comments, and thanks again for stopping by.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The reason

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I am here is still growing.

I am more present each day than before, and I do not know where I will end.

But the hope that I would survive each battle got me smiling today.

Today is a blessing I must accept because I’m more than the four walls I sleep in.

Like the weather, I’m heating up with hope, and my light is shining brightly as the winter blues fade away and the spring bursts through.

Rain or shine, I know I can get through it, and today feels like a new beginning as things begin to unlock again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Quotes

Friendship

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Where the energy flows just right

The excitement of seeing each other is like that of two little kids.

Nevertheless, we aren’t as young as we used to be.

But girl, we are living lives feeling so youthful when you have someone who gets you, and you rock on the same level.

They get your frustration and ain’t taking the stuff others blow off.

You know who gets you and who’s got your back, and no matter the time apart, this friendship will always be dear to my heart.

No matter how long we get together, life shakes things up.

And sometimes I have to go for the ride, for at least I know you will tell me the truth, and I haven’t felt any disrespect, and I can’t say that for the rest.

So, I hope to keep connecting and being authentic in this friendship because I’m just tired of investing in the ones who leave or I leave them.

I’d be happy with a few good ones who last a lifetime, and the rest I won’t expect much but know I try to give you all but my walls come back down pretty quickly these days and I ain’tfighting to put them back up again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

My thoughts

This is

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How it goes struggle then victory

And then thanks to God.

At least that’s how it went today as I went live in my confidence coaching Facebook group today.

I did a 15-minute live about unleashing your inner confidence; it was my first one. Boy, was I nervous before, but when I hit live, I just talked as people can in and out of the live stream, but for the most part, it was just me.

And it’s funny how even talking to the camera by myself still made me nervous, and once it was over, I was relieved, but I went back to watch it and the volume was a little low, and the connection on Facebook was not great.

But God got me through it, and maybe the next time I go live, it will be better, and I will have more women in my group helping and supporting each other as they gain their confidence in themselves.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

No more

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Fear is what I tell myself as I prepare to go live in my Facebook group to promote my journey as a confidence coach on April 24 at 11 am. Hopefully, a good Wednesday it will be.

But the truth is I’m shaking with fear because the fear of public speaking is strong.

And even though I’m preparing and trying not to freak I’m only human.

But I got through the words I wanted to say and had to keep breathing slowly through my nose to calm myself down.

I know I can’t give up and not show up, for this is what I’m meant to do. Use my voice any way god needs me to.

And yes, it’s hard to get out of my comfort zone, but I’ve done it before I can do it again.

No more fear as I sit behind a screen, ready to spread my winds and words for the first time in a long time. I’m doing something new, not just for me but for the women watching and seeing the replay.

I’m calm now, and I hope this change will be a stepping stone to continue conquering each journey that God has come my way.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Writing down

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My thoughts and letting them go have been easy these days.

It’s as easy as letting go of people in my life.

As I get older, I don’t feel the desperate need to keep people around who aren’t treating me right.

Like I used to because finding and keeping friends was hard enough as a shy person.

But I, too, deserve to feel understood and heard, and so do they, but sometimes in life, there are shells too hard to break, and you have to let them be by themselves for your mental health.

As I write and the sorrow goes away, I know I will always be polite to them, but trust and believe these walls aren’t coming back for them.

Sometimes, I guess the people who will rock with me for thick and thin are still out there, and I won’t give up on finding them since I know my worth and what I deserve now.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m trying

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To not fade back into the background

As I push forward for a change like nothing I’ve ever done before.

And I realize I’ve lost my way, and my words are gone like yesterday.

But here I am, fighting the battle of who I am, creative every day.

And frankly, it’s tiring, but my soul craves the words and the desire to share even more.

But who am I kidding, for the hope of coming back stronger than before is tempting but most likely impossible.

Because even as a writer, I am different, and as one voice seems to grow, the other is holding on for dear life, and no matter how many little chances I get, I can’t come back like I was before.

And maybe only time will tell, and perhaps I’m overthinking it, but voice if you hear me come home because winter is leaving and spring is going to be so bright, and you and I deserve to write into the night until we feel right again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Daily Prompts

I know it

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Won’t be long until I find myself in your peace again, my lord.

But here I am, standing at the crossroads in between, wanting to scream and stay silent because I am tired of repeating myself.

I’m changing, and I’d be damn if I let you drag me back to the old me.

Because if you care for me, you would want the best for me, and the truth is maybe you do, and this is all in my head.

The self-doubt, but then I see the look in your eyes when you look at me now.

What battles are going on inside of you? Oh, I wish I knew, for life would be a little easier if we all felt better.

I’m a little too optimistic at times, and the hope to stay positive is solid and hopeful, but I am only human, too.

So, can you blame me for wanting the best for us all when so much is happening around us?

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

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Happy International Women’s Day!

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Today I launch my website and Facebook group “Release Your Pain, Embrace Your Confidence”, in honor of the women who need confidence and their voice to be heard.

For I want to help them grow in self-love and confidence and find away to express themselves and feel comfortable in their own skin and Embrace that they are so much more than what others have said to them in the past and the present.

I, too, used to be so quiet that I was passed by or not seen because I didn’t want the attention if I spoke up you would see my flaws and my struggles and see where my smile didn’t reach my eyes.

You would see I was just a woman trying to get by. I was a woman trying to blend within the crowd because I wasn’t what society said I should look like. But with a life coach and doing the hard work, I found my self-love and confidence. I enhanced my voice and allowed myself to be seen, and I allowed change to happen in me and changed my body and soul. But don’t get me wrong, I have fears, and stepping up is scary and honest, but I’m doing it anyway, for I only have one life to live, and I know I can’t ignore this feeling and meaning to be more for others and myself.

Spiritually I continue to grow and mentally too and physically I still have work to do but I do it for me and those who are struggling too.

I want to help, and I will, and it will take time for trust and growth, too, but the women who need me will find me, and together, we will celebrate not just today but every moment God gives us!

I know this post is a long one but if you made it this far, here are the links to my website if you are a woman who would like to join my private and safe haven Facebook group to “Release your pain, Embrace your Confidence” with other women then send me a request on Facebook and let’s work together to make a change!

http://deirdrestokescoaching.com

https://www.facebook.com/groups/7550788278266808

Poetry

Here

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I am sitting here with my eyes closed, trying to center myself.

As self-doubt tries to sink into my year.

And I know now that I can’t let this fear eat me up.

Especially now as I walk down a path that feels right and light and beautiful.

I can only see the smile on my face and the tears going down my face as I cry for the happiness I will get after facing and conquering that fear.

I may just be getting started, but I’m here, and I’m not going anywhere.

My drive to be present at this moment is more intense than the feeling of fear trying to quiet me and make me turn away.

But I can’t and won’t, so as I keep my eyes closed, the battle will be won.

And the calmness and confidence I need to get through this will come, and I will overcome it all.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Change its

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Real and it’s coming at me full force

And I know I have to embrace it because I want it.

But resistance and fear are real, too, and they all want my attention.

I’m trying to stay afloat as I sail for my goals, and I’m trying to listen to the voice that says it’s time for you to stand up and stand out because you can’t afford to hide anymore.

For I’m needed, and even though some say to play it safe, that luxury was okay for the old me; the new me can’t stand it.

So here I am, trying to be on top, yet I feel like I’m standing behind a curtain, and they’re calling me on stage, but I can’t seem to come out.

But at the same time, I feel myself growing stronger with the need to go on that stage and say what I have to say from the heart.

But today isn’t that day, but maybe tomorrow or the next day. I know I will get up there soon enough.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

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Theses last

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Couple of days, I thought about and wrote about what made me gain my confidence and what made me want a new change in my life.

It had me thinking about journaling and how I use it to reflect and let go of thoughts, I may or may not share with anyone.

And when I journaled, it was short and sweet, and now it’s long, and sometimes I get it all out.

But what helped me the most is mood journaling, which has helped me work through emotions a lot better.

I tend to keep my emotions to myself because even though I trust certain people, I still have my guard up.

I’m a moody person sometimes, so knowing why and how I could have reacted next time or how I can keep track of my moods and emotions helps me keep track of what triggered me when and why.

I like journaling, even if I sometimes forget to do it all the time. It helps me keep motivated and aware because sometimes, when I’m tired or working, I may not be paying attention to how I felt the week before. After all, sleep doesn’t come easy for me.

Being under the weather this week has drained me so much that I don’t even know how little sleep I got other than I’m tired and feeling better.

But I know that I will be journaling how I felt this week and the past few days so that I know how I felt because it has been a while since I’ve been sick for a couple of days.

Also, my confidence to post and still be present on my blog has bothered me, but I realized I needed to take care of myself before writing here as I need to do my best to bring my all.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I used

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To live in the light

But you kept seeing how great I was

And so you used me until I became a shell of myself.

Now, the darkness is where I stand, even though there is still some light in me.

I can’t call on it for help anymore, for I saw the good in you, and what a fool I was.

Now, I barely have compassion or care for anything or anyone.

And now, when I see you, I don’t see a human but the devil himself, and I can’t help but feel nothing for you.

I blink at you and walk by you, and it’s like you don’t exist anymore.

I know you’re there, but my sense of cutting you off because toxic and liars have no place in my paradise.

And as I stand in the darkness and see the reflection of the light maybe one day I will go back but for now, I feel safe here in the dark where you seem to not notice or care for me.

And for the first time, I’m happy being left alone.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2024 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

The year of 2023

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You showed up initially with so much hope to get things done. And I’m not going to lie; you were making some great moves and meeting deadlines, and the results were good, even with last-minute fixes.

You presented a great book.

But then you burned out, trying to do something new and uncomfortable and overwhelming that you were stuck and down for far too long.

And so you thought there was no hope or light at the end of the tunnel. And right when you were about to give up a familiar face showed you grace and offered you help and support, and like a new, energized Bunny, you were off to get things done, and wow, did you get them done.

And then you showed your wins, and another hand came out and helped you up to the next stage of your journey. You shot off like a rocket, and even in the rough turbines, you did your task and made your deadlines again.

Ultimately, the year was not all your vision, but success was there as you crossed the finish line in 2023.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

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To heal

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I had to pull back all the layers that kept me safe all these years: My past insecurities, my uncertainties about my future, and the memories of my past I was still holding onto for far too long.

I thought I had no desire to let them go because if I did, how could I forget and forgive those who hurt me with their words that still haunt me to this day?

So, I could start living in the present, which has ups and downs.

But I’ve learned those struggles have me growing as strong as a tree, and my many layers fall off like fallen leaves.

I am lighter and brighter, and I know I am a fighter until the end.

But I know I have much more to give as my wounds start to peal over and heal to the warmth of autumn’s beauty that surrounds me again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes