Month: February 2020

Poetry

I’m

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 Hoping this time things will be different because I don’t want to go back.

I know somethings aren’t meant to be but that won’t stop me for trying something else.

My days are long and there are moments of laughter and quiet and it’s a balance I like so much.

I know that I will get it done if I just pay attention to what’s going on around me. 

I see everything shifting and I kinda knew things wouldn’t be the same without me.

And I honestly don’t feel like somethings can be helped at this point.

 For someone will always want to say they did it better or it’s them that saved the day.

I just want to work hard and get everything done and not receive praise for doing my job.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

It’s been

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since I’ve picked up some paint and played with the colors.

But, it felt so relaxing and calming as the paints fall onto the paper.

As I Smoothed the colors in and looked at how great it was starting to look.

But I needed to take a break and just take a picture of what I had done before I try to play with it a little more.

Today is the first day of the week and hopefully it will continue to be on a good note for I need a stress less and peaceful day and week.

I just want to continue to grow and  create beautiful things and hope to learn something new along the way.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

There is

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Always a moment in our conversations that end it and I feels like your always hmmm.

Judging me and I hate that because even if life seems calm and pleasant right now.

I am barely holding on to my creativity and yet I say nothing.

As each day passes by and the longer it takes for me to say something.

Time goes by and all I feel is this is it and then something great comes and our conversations are well still the same.

I appreciate you and yet I wonder if you think I’m wasting my time.

But I don’t sit still enough to really think about for something else comes up and I’m on the move again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To know

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That life can and will get tough and rough at times.

I just want to let you know it will getting better.

Maybe it won’t get better as fast as you can blink your eye.

But when i you have been doing and missing is coming from the wrong direction.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’ve been

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 Living but something seems off.

As if this life I live is not feel fulfilled even though so much change has happened it is not enough to wake me up again.

Everything may bring something new in my life but I don’t feel like I’m chewing up and making it into something new.

It’s just floating around inside like a piece of gum waiting to be released but take its time.

No benefit to the fire inside of me that feels kinda dull and dim.

As time goes on having you trying to get on my back doesn’t help me in anyway.

It just annoys me and makes me feel you are judging me in not doing anything more than what I did the last time we talked about it.

But, I’m stuck and the tunnel to get out is getting smaller and smaller each day.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Long drive

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Four up one sleep.

Early in the morning we go

And only we know where we’re going.

Time is going by so fast that even though you know it will soon be time to go.

You still try to enjoy each second and minute and hour you have together.

And now it’s time to say goodbye and on the road again you are and in hope things will all work out soon.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

She closed

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her eyes for just a second and it was like all the noise around her faded away.

And all the things she couldn’t wrap her head around just make sense now as  they played around behind her closed eye lids.

As if she was watching a movie of possibilities  in her life and if she made the right decision she enter into the place that right away feels right.

Life isn’t as she pictured but she wouldn’t go back if she had a chance too for she knows she is worth so much more at this point.

She knows she has to open her eyes up soon but she just can’t see to want to do that for her reality is not as good as  her fantasy.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

In the dark

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I must be until I can find what I am looking for.

For I must know the truth before I step out into the light and see how things are.

I feel I know things will become so much clearer for me but I just dont know what to say or do right now.

I am confuse and frustrated at the same time as I see that there is no real answer or grantees that this will be on my side in the end.

I know it has not been long but things just feel calm but not much inspiration left over as my energy is yet again pulled into a direction that is not really solving anything.

Feeling around in the dark as if I have not been in this space before and so everything is out of place and the clues to get it together are hard to find now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

One day

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I will realize that my most frustrated days were my best for it made me stop to think about why I was so upset.

And what I  was going to do about it for stopping and thinking about it for too long just isn’t a option.

Everything that is happening isn’t going to get better if I just sit around and let it control me.

I must realize that there is so much more out there going on and in this moment maybe not having the support I thought I had is a wake up call Lord.

But as the time goes by only then will I know if I am strong enough to weather whatever comes along in my life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Oh how

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 Happy I am it’s Friday

But what do I say or do today.

I’m tired of the rush but getting it all done early feels good.

The struggle to get it through the stress is a challenge but the end result is worth it.

How much more time will go by before you realize something has to change.

Not much more is about to happen but change is coming in a way you didn’t expect.

As I walk through the open the door that feels somewhat better than before.

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes