I walk across the center of the stage and I shake your hand and I take my diploma
leaving behind years of studying and designing projects.
To been thrown out into the real world and to be rejected at every corner
and maybe in a way it was a good thing.
For I found my true purpose and I found my way to God, the path I walk on now is very much unknown to me.
I know my passions and talents and where I will end up is still unknown to me but I have not ever felt so alive than I do now.
I work and I smile at everyone and I don’t think back on the things that didn’t work out for and I’m slowly not thinking about the people who were in my past.
Somethings are best left in the past and now it’s time to move on to my present which sometimes feels kind of lonely but I’ve grown more now with the time I have on my own.
I wish sometimes to be apart of the center of your life but I understand that the center of your life isn’t as wide as it used to be and now only a few stand still and wait to greet you.
When life knocks you off your feet and you have no interest of getting back up.
Because you physically can’t because the common cold or allergies have made you into a zombie.
You begin to have no interest in anything other than feeling better.
So you lay around And try to heal your wounds as fast as possible.
Taking baby steps everywhere or just laying down and resting up.
with just the little hope of feeling better soon.
You try to do something fun but all the energy has been drained from your body and only reading and watching movies.
Can help you get by and as days go by you slowly feeling better and this world slowly but surely starts to feel like something interesting may happen soon.
like my words for thinking just isn’t possible when your sick.
My body is completely drained from the energy that would likely get
me through my day.
I just sit or sleep for being sick just takes it all out of you but, I try to hold on to the energy I need but no matter what I do the best thing for me is to be still.
And let this quickly past so I can get back to smiling and doing so much more than slurring words of thoughts.
When all I want to do is welcome sleep and wake up when it’s out of my system and I’m not sick and full of life again.