Month: May 2020

Poetry

Oh how

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Do I keep my frustration down as I feel like your picking and choosing to well respond.

And how do I not respond back with anger and inpatient.

I look back and I know that this isn’t worth fighting about and I won’t go out of my way to attack you.

But, do I settle on the matter just to keep the peace.

Or do I stand my ground and prove I’m worth more than what I seem.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

On this

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Path called life and maybe this path has been walked on or drove on before.

And I’m not the first one to cross this path but I know this journey is just for me right now.

As I look down and around at the unfamiliar place I am in right now.

I know the situation isn’t the same as the person who walked before me but I’m ready to go to the impossible.

If it keeps me from breaking away and taking things too far then I’ll gladly welcome this change.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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want this to be about you.

As a feeling of uncertainty falls over me today.

I want to reach out but I feel tired of this cat and mouse game.

For everything is draining me and I’m trying to hold on but exhaustion is coming in fast.

For how long will this journey continue as I grow tired too.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’ve fought

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It all and now when I want to stay.

You push me away

And the urge to run away is so strong.

But somehow I am still here but the long days are taking a toll on me.

I don’t know if I can push through this, this time because it’s not as easy as it was before.

Maybe I’ve fought to hard last time that my body just doesn’t know how to regain the strength I need.

And so I sit here staring out this window and wondering what now.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

As I

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Float through life lately I feel some pieces of me falling away

Like leaves from a tree when fall has finally arrived.

But that season has yet to come as spring slowly fades away and summer comes in.

From cold to warm to hot everything in my mind seems to go from thawed out to frozen to melting away.

Nothing seems as clear as before all of this and in a way I feel I found my voice again.

No longer sitting around waiting for inspiration but it showing up and taking control.

Maybe this change is what I’ve been waiting for and should embrace it and accept the pieces of me that have been left behind.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I want to

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Say I choose you always

But that would be a lie.

For I allow myself to get lost in things to avoid other things.

But it always catches up with me and so truly enjoying things are well not so much lately.

As my body betrays me and I lay awake trying everything to just fade back into a dream or into nothing.

But the minute I close my eyes they are opening again only to discover time has yet to move.

I want things to be a little different right now but it is what it is.

For I have no control over anything right now and I’m not sure how to feel about that.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I know

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My focus has shifted when

I felt I had gain something more.

But yet again earthly things distract me from what you need me to do lord.

And I am here to gain control back because everything else seem so temporary.

And I’m looking for things that will last way past the decades to come and to land in the right place.

For I know what I am to do is more than what is happening now.

So even though I focus on somethings around me I’m else looking for more meaning in what I can do in the time given to me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Was the one

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Who wanted sleep

But now only getting hours here and there.

Falling asleep through out the day as mornings are spent tossing and turning.

So restless and feeling so hopeless with no hope insight as this is the third morning in a row.

Laying awake turning to close my eyes so hard in hope that will convince myself to fall back to sleep.

But here I am still up since waking up a little after 3am.

Tried reading and praying and yet here I am still up as a part of me begs for sleep.

Yet no relief insight as the morning comes and my responsibilities start to pile up and all I want to do is go back to sleep.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes