Month: September 2022

away from this month to over and the month of the pumpkins to begin.

Where you can design and dress up your pumpkin any way you want.

You can drink and eat anything with pumpkin in it if that’s your thing.

Or you can avoid it at all costs and live your life as an apple person.

You look forward to apple cider and all other things nice as the weather becomes colder and you want to stay warm.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

It out and then sabotages it as I lay in bed, letting my alarm go off.

Everything for today crumbles in front of me.

What did I accomplish today?

Three out of eight things

Not sure why I did this to myself

I guess that’s what happens when I hope for too much.

Or I think I can do it all if I write it down.

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Because so much is expected of me. What happens when I fail, and there is no return to how it used to be?

And I don’t want to go back in time and make things right.

For what will that serve?

I was meant to fall and stay down for a while so that I could see I wasn’t on the right path.

I was losing myself more and more each day, and my answer to things barely scratched the surface of who I was.

The road was endless, and the feeling of being tired and overwhelmed.

It was all I felt like nothing could get done, and I was going in circles.

Until the time ran out, there was nothing to show or tell.

And no excuses as to why things were all over the place.

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It’s hard to see what’s right in front of me.

When there is so much more out there, I think I need to see it.

She is jumping to one thing, then another, with no regard for the broken promises left behind.

Maybe one day they will get accomplished, but they are forgotten in a dusty corner for now.

Maybe to be found right before the new year comes, as September ends soon.

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All you need to do is be honest about what you want and how you will get it.

But you are afraid that you will never be able to obtain this goal, and putting all your energy into it will leave you disappointed and drained.

And all the confidence you built will have been for nothing.

But wait, what if you didn’t risk it all, and what if it does work out because you believed in yourself for the first time?

And now you are not just the dreamer, but the one who accomplished it.

How would that feel to be the one who hesitated but got up and did it, anyway?

I know you will be proud to stop letting fear and being overwhelmed hold you back. You only live once, my love.

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I long for it, but even when I’m meant to be done and just enjoy myself

I find a way to stay a little longer and not escape the things holding me back from the peace of mind.

I don’t regret all the challenging work, but I am tired and just want to sleep and relax without thinking about whether I can add one more thing for it to be great.

But not how can you know when I need to be set free from this place that holds me in a time where I don’t know where I will end?

And where I will begin, I go in circles until I can’t go on anymore, and I have exhausted myself into defeat.

So, the battle and fight are over before they even made a dent into making me more than just a whisper, but a legendary so that I don’t have to wonder if I am good enough.

Because I will know it by your words and the time you take to get to know me in the end.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

doesn’t always make you right, but it does sometimes make you overthink how they might think because you are kind.

You don’t see through their lies.

But you do see through the lies, but you don’t have time to call them out.

Or you know telling them the truth isn’t worth it, for they could have told you the truth too.

But they didn’t, for being clever is more important to them, and you can be brilliant too, but we all know they will never figure you out.

And so, you are kind, and you are sometimes right, but you never say you are

For your people-pleasing days are all gone, you would instead become exposed then play too long in the darkness where everything will eventually fall apart.

Then will have nothing but the pieces of your lie to keep you warm at night.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes