Month: February 2023

It is all in, and I am free now

That feeling of sadness is gone, and this time in it’s place is acceptance, and I’m not alone on this journey of growth.

I had to look outside my bubble of protection and see what others are going through and see their strength carry them on.

And realize I too can get through this too and acknowledge that this time things will be different.

But if the feeling comes back, I will be strong and take the time to listen, for I deserve to be in that moment.

Even if it’s painful, something great always emerges as I become more than I thought I could ever be.

My darkest moments will never outshine my brightest ones, for I will always smile again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

My own mind as the days go by

Little moments of joy here and there

But the distractions don’t seem to work anymore.

Alone and yet in no zone to do anything at all but think about what I could do or be.

Waking up and knowing it will be colder today than the day before makes you want to row over and snuggle up in your covers until winter is no more.

But you know you have responsibilities, and no one else will do them. So up you go, going through the motions as needed.

While you are falling apart inside and all you will do all day is find another way to hide away from it all.

Until the winter blues go away, these days of sadness and needing to be alone will stay.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

My eyes and pray as the sadness washes over me.

I pray for strength and protection as I head out for the day

I think of all the things I have been blessed with and why I am worthy of them today.

Even though sadness and uncertainty are floating in the air, I still see the good in me.

Maybe today I needed to cry and feel down and lost and not sure of myself.

And as I began to pray and then pick up the pieces of who I thought I was and became who I am meant to be.

I know today started rough, but I had you, God, to lean on, and through it all, you always helped me get to the other side where peace and love awaited me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes

What did you think when you decided to handle everything on your own?

Especially when the weather keeps changing and you can’t even decide on one thing either.

As I pace outside, thinking of ways to get us out of this situation.

The frustration I’ve been holding in is boiling to the surface, and I don’t know what to do.

Because I walk through that door again, I will go off, and I can’t not when the guest knows something is wrong.

So I stand in the cold, hoping to numb the frustration until I can control my mouth.

As I let the icy weather go over me, I felt this knowing feeling that maybe you didn’t mean wrong, but that time was never on your side.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2023 By Deirdre Stokes