Month: April 2019

Poetry

Every

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Corner I turn I seem to be faced with the same crap before and after all this time nothing has changed.

It’s like looking in the mirror and expecting yourself to smile back even though you are not in the mood to smile.

You try your best to get through it all but you just can’t seem to keep down the anger anymore.

And you know that it’s not fair for you to be doing it all.

And the ones doing little to nothing always feeling like they are carrying the load that you been pulling along for far too long.

Will your day come, you hope it does soon too because you can’t take it anymore and the clock clicks on for you today.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

This

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Photo by kiwi thompson on Unsplash

photo made me stop that day when I was just walking down the road.

It was like I hadn’t seen something so beautiful in so long since I’ve been just keeping my head to the ground and just been trying to get things done with no regret.

I just wanted to show another side to beauty as the sun goes down and the stores close up and the bars open up for some entertainment or just for people to come and let off some stream from a long day that has been running them through it all.

They didn’t expect Monday to be so hard but they hoped things would look up at the end of the day so that this week didn’t just completely burn out on them before it even started.

They really needed some good luck right now as they feared that things were once again turning into a mess.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I

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want to say my patience is not at its limit.

But, I know that each day that I stay the more I’m losing more of me.

I’m done complaining and I’m ready to change and walk away from the frustration.

I’m ready to enjoy the good weather no matter how hard the wind blows.

I will keep walking and maybe when it blows too hard I’ll just let it carry me to better destination.

And when I arrive I will welcome everyone and everything because I will be grateful for this new chance at the peace I’ve been looking for.

I will live and try to judge less and I will help and smile and I will choose to let out my light for I know to let the darkness.

from inside of me does more harm than good even if it feels good at the time because regret will come back and bite me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Right now

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I am so vulnerable that I just want to cry
as life throws so many demands my way.

I know that I have to make a decision soon

for later is not something I want to think about. 

I just have so much high hopes that I will get out

of this place and find a better place for me.

But, right now the present feels just as lost as me 

with no hope or understanding that everything will work out. 

So many have it together and it is just me that needs to get through all that 

is being thrown my way when all I want to do is hide away but I know running or hiding is not going to solve the problem. 

I must start making more decisions for I know my life is limited and tomorrow is granted for anyone. 

So today I will accept being vulnerable and being undecisive but, I know over time I will have to step out and make something of the situation but right now I just want to rest. 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

Poetry

Being so

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vulnerable right now feels like my world has 

just shifted right from under me and the changes happening  hurt so much.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

That moment!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Poetry

In

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My head I’ve imagined this moment so many times.

But, I know when it all comes to reality it will be the best feeling in the world.

Because that day will be the day I truly start living the life I’ve always dreamed of but never thought could come true.

I will smile and it will reach my eyes and I will cry nothing but happy tears.

I realize why did I wait for so long for this to happen.

I know that tomorrow was not granted for me but, lucky enough I made it to the next day and week and month.

And now it’s time to live as if tomorrow is the last moment I experience and I want it to be a great one.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I

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want to be a great one and be remembered by my words and my heart.

I don’t want to live a life that is full of regret or disappointment.

I can’t keep going this way and feel like a stranger in my own body.

Because I’m staying behind for you the one who takes me for granted every moment I am around you.

There isn’t a moment when you slow down and really help consistently.

I know I have to do this for me but, the timing isn’t right.

I don’t know how to get to where I need to be without feeling like I’m falling short.

I don’t want to fail because I know when my time is up there won’t be a second to look back for it will be too late.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

You’ll

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Never know what could have been if you don’t at least try to make a change in your life.

Don’t wait for someone else to open the door for you for they won’t and if they do it’s only to trap you on their side.

Watch your back or the snake will bite you before you know it.

And the light that you love to be surrounded in won’t be what you’re in but it will be the dark burning out what makes you, you.

Let’s not just stand around and let them have their way but, stand up and let’s make our own way.

Our life is ours and I won’t burn out for someone is willing to sacrifice my time just so she feels she is still on top in the end.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To

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tell the truth I have no idea what is going on as I have no idea what door or path I will go on.

My mind is wondering as I try to focus on a way out.

Everyone wants me to run and find a better path in life so I don’t regret anything later down the road.

But, the truth is I’m not sure how to go down the path I’m on and have a real plan all laid out in such a short amount of time.

But, I won’t give up not until I’m out and smiling like them with so much less stress in their life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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