Month: July 2022

Hope in this place, as things get going down.

I know I should keep my head down and keep moving forward.

But sometimes it feels like enough is enough.

And yet I come back for more, knowing nothing will change!

One day, you will wake up and change your way.

But this isn’t a fairy tale. The ending to this story may not be all I hoped for, but I know I never settled for less than what I deserve.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

So quiet, and now it feels like what will happen now.

As what I do becomes nothing

I am left to wonder and worry about what I will do next.

But at the same time, I’m relieved because I want out.

But the security of knowing the net is there somewhat keeps me here.

But I should know by now that nothing in life is guaranteed.

So is there a reason to worry as whatever happens might be a blessing and not a curse for me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

I was putting this off for too long because I didn’t see how it would work.

How I could even convince myself to give it a try and then turn around and convince you too.

The pain is worth the gain, but for how long will I try and succeed at this.

Will the time get away from me, and will I return to my old habits?

Because I’ve never succeeded at this for very long, and when I did once, I felt great; I stopped anyways.

When will this cycle end, and am I capable enough to get it done or forever be stuck?

I guess I will have to wait and see how it turns out, as it’s only been three weeks.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Dreaming is all you do lately

When reality is frustrating

Ridiculous and on repeat that you allow yourself to dream again the way you used to.

When no dream was too small, and no hope was a waste.

When everything seemed possible, and no one was shutting you down because they were dreamers too and only wanted the best for you.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

searching for something last night in the dark

Suddenly, the light came on, and you were surprised to see I had already found the switch.

How can one search so low and not realize light switches are high up?

Maybe I’ll turn the light off and find my way to bed.

And I hope you find your way too because, at this point, I’m too tired to get back up again.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Tell your lies or

You can tell your truth.

It’s how you want to see yourself through your own eyes.

Because you live with the lies and truths, you tell every moment you breathe and experience life.

I can’t tell you to just give me your doubts and flaws because you don’t want them, but you don’t want me to know them, either.

So, we are at a standstill as you want to be true to yourself but not truly let it all out for you fear that would be too much.

For being vulnerable is hard, and it’s easier to get stabbed in the back when your friend or enemy has facts about you.

But you trust me, and I trust you and if we keep the truth and accept the doubts and flaws, then resentment will never form.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes