I so needed a night out and some good drinks and laughter for it’s been rough lately and time just seems to be going by way to fast for me.
I’m always tired and the time for fun just doesn’t seem to be possible lately, I wanted to try the lobster today and anything new.
For I knew tomorrow I would be so worn out from a night I had been waiting for way too long and now that it’s here I don’t ever want to look back again.
sure I can keep doing this as my head feels like it’s about it’s about to explore.
I didn’t work this hard for you to push me so hard that I’m completely falling apart.
I want to tell you off so many times but here I am just shaking my head because this is beneath ridiculous at this point.
No time to think just more stuff piled on me in hope that it will get better.
The quest seems to fall short and I just don’t know what to do now for this could have been someone’s else path but here I am living out what feels like a nightmare wide awake.
With no hope of it ending on a good note for the good things seem to pass me by at this point in my life.
This song always helped me get through the tough times in my life, I just put in my headphones and listened to this song for hours and nothing could put me at peace like it could do.
It always felt like this song was written for me and no matter what I was going through it could relate to every moment and second.
I didn’t know what I would do if I didn’t have this song to listen to when the noise around me was just too much.
When the light just wouldn’t come on and all I could do was sit in the darkness and wish things would change for me soon.
me here as I sit here to wait for you to arrive, repeating each word out loud until I remember each word.
I know that if this speech doesn’t go right it won’t just embarrasses me but you too and I just don’t think I can let my failure be yours too.
I woke up this morning with all the confidence in the world that things were going to go well.
Now, as it pours down raining outside all the good luck I felt before just feels like it got washed away.
As panic set in I want so bad for this to work out because I just can’t continue on with knowing that there is more out there and I have so much to offer.
Just when I am so close to having a panic attack, I get a text from you saying just breathe I’m on my way sorry traffic was crazy.
Today will go down just the way you pictured it, a win that you deserve and will receive because you are what they are looking for and they would be fools to pass you by.
Just like that the switch of doubt is turned back off and I start to get my confidence back and when you arrive.
I already know that tonight will be a success because I am me because of you and all the support you have given me during this time.
Tonight was one of the best wins I have gotten in a while but, I know soon the look on your face will be the greatest win I could have asked for.
To forever with you and to slowly climbing the ladder of success one day at a time.