I didn’t

invite you into my life to make what is already rocky more of a mess.

I know you don’t want to be alone anymore and so to you two people who feel alone should hang out.

Enjoy this time together and where there was one there is now two but, what if one is not thrilled about this now new adventure that has been thrown on to them.

The things that used to be quiet time is now someone else leaning over your shoulder trying to read every word you put down.

You try to relax but the light around you soon disappear and you are now being shadowed but a darkness that only follows you around.

You feel like you have a personal roof above you and well it breathes and makes corrects and tries to crowd you until you run for the door or anything that opens.

You begin to wonder what did you do to be stuck in this situation, should you have been nicer to that creepy guy last week.

Or was helping those five old people yesterday not enough to tip the luck scale for you.

I guess not for here I am looking over my shoulder just knowing that when I least expect it you will there smiling into my face.

Hoping today is the day I just accept the invitation you created and threw my way so long ago.

I am to smile at you and greet you and tell you that there is no need for you to stop bothering me for that’s what friends do.

Am I to accept this or just pack up and not look back for no time to relax can drive someone people crazy and the tension is just so strong it hurts.

I just need one moment or two or ten to just gather up what is left of me and piece it all back together before you come back and tower over me like a shelter I never asked for.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes