I want to

Say I choose you always

But that would be a lie.

For I allow myself to get lost in things to avoid other things.

But it always catches up with me and so truly enjoying things are well not so much lately.

As my body betrays me and I lay awake trying everything to just fade back into a dream or into nothing.

But the minute I close my eyes they are opening again only to discover time has yet to move.

I want things to be a little different right now but it is what it is.

For I have no control over anything right now and I’m not sure how to feel about that.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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