You would leave me all alone
But then you flew back into my life with no notice.
And together we fought through my toughest days.
And made my good moments great
With no regrets as we took this new path towards better things and ways.
We didn’t need to look back for we knew what was ahead was the only option we needed.
For we survived and would get through the rest in no time.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Help myself and so I reach out to touch you.
Even if this the last chance I will get and so I go for it.
And now it’s all I think about as we are apart and my mind is driving me crazy.
For you’ve always been kind and sweet and always brought a smile to my face.
And things we’re always going great for you were the positive energy I needed around.
But, now your like an unicorn you see it once and then it’s hard to find again or it was well never real to begin with.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
To wait for you to change?
Or am I to change and move on and see what this world truly has to offer me.
Even lost I don’t seek you anymore for that would only bring back the sadness I’ve shaken off.
I won’t look back for what is it I’m fighting for anyways?
Everything so unclear as a part of me screams for you.
But, I know your not an option right now for me.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
I had it all together
Only fall float on my back.
Looking up at the sky and asking for help.
But not waiting around long enough to receive it.
So impatient sometimes but right now I give all you as I can’t carry it anymore.
I’m a fool to have tried to do it all on my own.
For it’s you I always run too, and it’s you I will always depend on.
For God I am I am falling with or without you but the fact that with you I will fall into your arms.
Without you, I will fall hard on the ground, and giving up will be so easy to do.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
My hope that you would come back.
After the usual five days
And as day six comes around and soon ends.
I know that I must have lost my mind to deal with this.
It feels like a dream that goes on and on and then when I wake up.
I can’t go to back sleep because the dream seemed so real.
I felt every touch and heard every sound and feel of it all disappearing left me slightly empty.
As I close my eyes I try to go back
For I know in that dream my body finally got the sleep it needed.
And now awake all I can do is think of you and that just isn’t okay with me anymore.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Restless
Hopeless
All-around a mess.
For I don’t know what is next
For these feelings are something new and well they are intense.
Time doesn’t make the joy and pain go away and the time and energy to hide them is fading away.
Like today which is almost over and no word has been said and so I wait and maybe one day you will appreciate my time.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
My name and I look your way
And I wait for what you have to say.
But nothing seems to come out your mouth and so you look away.
And I stare at you, for I guess I expected more.
I wait for you to turn back around just a little longer than I should have.
For you didn’t turn back or even explain why you called my name and looked my way.
But it was clear you had just wasted my time and energy.
When I had better things to do before you distracted me.
And a part of me was mad and irritated that I had even entertained the fact that you had anything to say to me.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Thought if I put in more effort this time around.
Things would be different and at first, they were.
But now I feel the frustration you felt almost a year ago.
The feeling of wanting more but only having access to an unlimited amount of time.
And even when you reply back in speed it still takes so long for the conversation to continue.
Like there is a lapse in time even though you are in the same timezone.
You begin to wonder was this meant to pick up again or was it meant to fizzle off.
Unanswered questions are how you felt brushed off before but will there be enough time to get the answers now?
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
want to disappear back into that shell as my world becomes too demanding.
For well I’m tired and running on less sleep these days.
As the heat comes and swallows me up with the hope of cold air blowing my way helps.
The air is so cool as I fall asleep and forgetting everything that has been on my mind.
But knowing once I’m up, if I don’t keep moving around the tiredness will consume me and the fight to stay awake will be useless.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
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