Tag: Frustrated

Poetry

I

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should let it go for this issue is not worth fighting for anymore.

I’m frustrated and tired of saying the same thing again and again at this point in my life.

I will work hard for me and not for you,for it’s just exhausting to keep up with the bullshit you spit out into the world.

I won’t judge you for I don’t know how you were raised or what you’ve gone through.

But, your action speak louder than your words and right now I see you.

And I’ve tried to give you a chance to show me its more than being lazy.

But, each day you prove me wrong and I end up doing more and more.

Until I feel wore out and used for your glory and I begin to think when did you become the Lord.

For my lord gives and doesn’t just take and the love he gives carries me not drag me along.

You are human just like me and there for you are not above me or under me.

We are equal and what may be my strength could be your weakness and so on.

But at the end of the day I will help you and I know you won’t do the same for me.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I just

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need to be alone right now like this picture I need to be far away from everything and everyone.

This sunset gives me the peace I’m craving for I feel like I’m surrounded by good people and then just one idiot comes along and ruins it and, I try to keep my cool but I am no ones servant on this earth other than God.

I don’t get be your babysitter and do your job for you for then I would be getting the best paycheck and would not complain or stress out over this stuff.

I just need you to check yourself and really think about what you know and what you need to know.

For I can help you but I can’t save you if you think you already know it all for not even I know all of it.

I am calm like this sunset because if I am not I know the worst is not what you would expect coming from me.

I’m like a sunrise which can be so beautiful if you are a morning person but if you’re not, nothing in the world will make you wake up to watch it.

Well when I get so mad nothing in your mind is going to be able to forget me snapping at you.

I can say sorry but the truth is you will not ever look at me the same and right now I am okay with that.

I will be the new dark cloud raining and following you through your days that you will feel like you were curse and maybe you were because making someone who tries so hard not to go to the dark side so mad.

Well I just hope you know what is in store for you because not even myself wants to go down that road which was once perfect is cracked because the real hell just raised and it will definitely take sometime to get it back down.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

What a day

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Like this path I didn’t feel like this day would ever end.

My hope for some peace and quite was not going to happen at least not today and I felt like as the day went on that I was losing my mind and no matter how hard I try things were not going to end well for me.

I don’t know why I expect more when I know the no relief is going to come for me and as my happy voice fades and the voice of defeat set in.

I don’t know how or why I put myself through this everyday and every week when I feel like there is no recovery for me and my mind is losing it’s focus and  I can’t remember what happened yesterday anymore and even though my memory is still sharp for long-term things.

My short-term memory is falling apart like everything else around me and yes I want to care and deal with it all but, sometimes I just want to be left alone and not have to answer to this crap.

I’m praying and hoping that things will charge for how much longer do I have to stand here and fight a battle that just feels like it’s not mine to fight but I am doing all the heavy lifting because they are too lazy to help out.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Strong

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Is what I want to be as my days become more stressful and busy.

No time to breathe and no matter how much you try to be calm.

You are just seconds away from snapping and all you really want to do is help.

No appreciation just a mad at the world face looking back at you.

Trying to test your limits and as much as you want to scream your wrong.

Or stop bothering me I don’t have time to deal with you for everything around me is falling apart.

You know they don’t care and so you Swallow your proud and tuck in your tail and try to please them.

For at the end nothing you do will be good enough, for one accomplishment to one person.

Is a failure to the next when they are angry about something you have no control over in the end.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I wonder what will happen!

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I wonder how I would be if I truly let you be.

Would it help me not feel this way.

But some how even though I want to stay away I say something so you pull me back in.

Will I ever want to pull away.

Even though I want to stay forever even if it’s nothing more than just an friendship.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I won’t be pushed around!

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Who are you to try to push me around.

Just because you feel you have all the answers.

I said no, and you need to accept that and not try to fight back.

I don’t want to go there for I’m trying to be better.

And I won’t let you drag me back to that hell.

So please walk away for I won’t play your games.

You don’t stand a chance when I have God in my corner.

I don’t know why no is something you don’t want to accept.

But I know what I said and so for that I’m out.

That bridge of our friendship you had which you tried to drag me on, is burnt and now your on your own.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes