Tag: light the way

keep going on like this

hiding the pain behind it all.

The tears that fall

are not for a show or attention.

Because, well I rather be left alone

but no matter what they keep pushing their way into my safe place.

The place that keeps me whole when everything else in this world is falling to crap and the outcome is not looking very good.

I know I’m supposed to be stronger but I’ve always been the weak one and everything well is all an act to just keep the real me locked away.

For she is really fragile and I’m not ready to let her out for this world would crush her and I really can’t let that happen.

So those that I’ve let in I’m sorry for my walls are so about to go back up for it’s not safe to let anyone in right now.

I’ve seen the truth and well it’s not pretty and well I just don’t want to be out in the open anymore.

So goodbye I will miss you but, I know its saver on my own and I now know that I’ve made the best decision.

For I’m free and everyday I wake up and walk on the beach and the sun beats down on me and I’m at peace.

No more stress or pressure now I’m free and in a place that makes me feel free and at the end of the day I smile instead of crying myself to sleep.

The ending for me is happiness  and not what it could have been complete misery with no light to guide me out of that hell.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes