Month: March 2018
I want
to feel sorry for you but well I just can’t anymore.
It’s like a switch inside of me has turned off and I see you for who you are and I know we all are just human but, enough is enough.
You may not see it coming but, I do and in the end the only one smiling and feeling like they are finally free will be me.
This is what I want and no amount of money can help me stay and as I walk away will I worry about your fate?
No I won’t because you didn’t worry about mine when I was around and in the end as I fall you didn’t even try to reach out and help me back up.
So your fate is yours to deal with and as you go crazy and try to reach out and find a way out of this place there will be no escape for without me you fate is what it is royally screwed.
No peace will come to you and no one will help you clean up the mess and the word reliable will not be apart of your vocabulary anymore.
But, don’t worry you know no one will understand your struggle like I did.
I won’t be easy to replace but, you accepted that fate when you used me up and threw me down like I had nothing to say.
Now the words are flowing and you have no one to blame but yourself now and you probably won’t even take the blame in the end anyways will you.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
I put
you above all
for walking away from you now is not an option.
You would rather walk away from everything in my life than walk away from you.
You saved and you keep my safe and you’re the only one who believes in me even when I doubt myself.
You are the reason I can tolerate people and love dogs and just want to keep learning the many things going on in this world.
You are the reason I get up everyday and the reason I will leave this world knowing I grew up on the right side of the street.
I made better decision in my life with you around and I know that one day you will rescue me from the hell I’m in.
You will be my heaven and my peace for maybe the suffering and stress that is over pouring me right now is just a way for you to help strengthen me through the end.
My screams are unheard and the pain and sorrow that is hidden so well are always seen by you and you take in each note you find interesting.
You are different and so am I and I have learned and I will continue to enjoy the new things in my life.
I put you in my pocket for I knew this day would come and I would need all the support that could find.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Daily Prompt: Messy
Wind so strong it knocks over everything it can tear away and now everything is a mess
You walk outside and the mess of trash cans blown from outside their homes to trash everywhere.
You look around and wonder where did your trash can went, maybe its the one over there laying on its side by a bush.
Or the one that is in the middle of the street or the one blown across the street in your neighbor’s yard.
You try to figure this all out as the wind blows and blows and place start to get even messier and you have no time to keep thinking as the wind picks up again.
You have to decide which trashcan is closer and you can save and take it home and which ones you just hope someone else takes home soon.
The wind dies down but the damage it brought has already start to do its worst and the hope that those who were affected would recover soon is still unknown to you.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
I can’t
picture what it would be like in just a few days for my body and mind are in a moment or two to just shut down and rest.
Will this moment ever come because, even though I close my eyes and lay down to sleep it never seems like enough sleep.
The ache of my eyes as I get up before I’m ready to get up in the morning.
I want to go back to bed but, that moment never comes as I try to keep moving forward with everything I need to do.
Sleep doesn’t come again until the darkness falls and it’s time to go to bed, I fall asleep so quickly and soon I don’t remember why and how I got to be so tired.
But, the good night sleep turns into nothing but the pain of having to get up the next three days with no day of being lazy in between.
Just continuous moving around with maybe some purpose now and then.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Quote of the day
Daily Prompt: Above
I’m going above and beyond but after today
I’m asking myself for what and why.
Why am I doing more than I can do just to help out
when I need a hand out where is my help.
I am allow them to break me down until I am no more of who I am supposed to be.
I am now their puppet and no moves I make from this day on are truly mine.
I am breathing so they can use me and abuse me until well I’m dust and then they will sweep me away and more on to the next one.
I did this to myself and now I’m running away so fast not even they can catch me, for once I’m gone.
I will be untraceable so remember me for who I am right now because sooner than later I will be like a ghost and fade away from your memory like the memories of the moments that happen yesterday.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Missing
from the action and for the first time I can say you were missed
your absent is noticeable and I thought that maybe I wouldn’t care but I do.
The time is coming fast and the past and the present are about to collide and I don’t know how I feel about that.
I don’t want the fun to end but, now I realize it will and then things will be more real than I want it to be.
I don’t want to live in this truth right now and well right now I want to fade away and for it to all have been a dream.
For reality really doesn’t have that many great moments when you see too many idiots and feel like you are less important and in reality we all the same going through good moments and bad moments.
My heart used to be so warm and inviting and now it’s just cold and guarded and my eyes used to hold some joy but, now all you see is nothing for that is what I’ve come to you.
A robot that is there to serve you and tell you what you like to hear and if I don’t I better prepare myself for the war you are about to bring me.
But, what I’ve learned and always knew is when your ugly the worst things happen to you and when you are nice the same shit can happen too you too.
But, the nasty things that come out your mouth are not forgotten just because it is tomorrow and what you said lived in yesterday.
For I forgive but I don’t forget and will hold you accountable for your actions and in the end did you want this little misunderstanding being the reason you don’t get where you want to be in life.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Quote of the day
Daily Prompt: Restart
I sit here trying to find something good to say and all I seem to be doing is restarting everything I write out.
No that makes no sense and soon it’s erased and shared with no one and if I kept it up for long there would be no words or post out there from me.
So I pop in my headphones and I listen to something that restarts the writer block in my head and then the words just flow and everything I’ve felt or yet to feel come pouring out on the paper.
I begin to wonder will this always be the way my writing go and would I ever change it to be more organized.
Probably not for well why change something that works and keeps drawing from me the emotions I need in that moment of doubt or tiredness.
The moment when no matter how many words you want to say just can’t get out of you for your energy is all gone.
But, you just have to write something no for anyone just to get all the stress and joy out of you for tomorrow everything restarts all over again.
Tomorrow may just be the same old stuff happening or it could be something so incredible that you just can’t believe this is happening to you.
The one person who seems to be always stepping into puddles and not having a coat when it’s pouring down rain out.
You hope this restart is the one that will make border in your life more aside and let you through for you have so much more offer than the little taste you have let out into the world.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Focus
Three Line Tales, Week 109
photo by Jeremy Bishop via Unsplash
You’ll find full guidelines on the TLT page – here’s the tl;dr:
- Write three lines inspired by the photo prompt (& give them a title if possible).
- Link back to this post (& check the link shows up under the weekly post).
- Tag your post with 3LineTales (so everyone can find you in the Reader).
- Read and comment on other TLT participants’ lines.
I’m riding the wave of a lifetime, I’m so peaceful and happy right now as I focus on making sure I make it out of this tunnel.
I never thought I’d make it this far and my talent be more than a hobby to me and to have all the people I love watching me and supporting me too.
The sun shines down on me and I feel free for the first time im my life and that’s why I love being out in the water for I feel like nothing but, doing what I love in this moment matters to me.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
HOW
can I feel like saying goodbye when I don’t want to say anything at all.
The words that you deserve to hear are all locked up inside of me and no matter how hard I fight to say the things you need to hear.
The words just won’t come and maybe there is something wrong with me but, I seem to have lost my voice.
And so I sit here writing it all out and well I don’t want you to feel like I taking the coward way out.
But, every time I try to talk to you the words just get stuck in my mouth that I just nod and move on.
Every step I take to give you this letter feels like I’m walking through concrete and soon I will get stuck with no way out.
The solution seems so simple but now it has become so complicated that there just really isn’t enough time to stop and walk away from the mess I’ve made.
So here I go leaving it on your desk as I walk away and I don’t look back but, I hear you tearing it apart and I speed up my steps and then I walk so fast out there door.
I’m running down the stairs as I head to my car trying to get out of this place as fast as I got in it.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
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