It’s getting

late and I know that it’s time for me to go.

I know that you don’t want to me to know all that is going on

and at first I was fine with that but, how much longer do I have to wait.

Because the longer I wait the more I feel less in your life and more like an outsider looking in and only granted peeks here and there.

You feel I’m being to demanding and that your life is just too complicated and it’s best to not let me get too close.

I’m not the one you want to show your  vulnerable side  with and yet it breaks you if I try to walk away.

But, yet again I feel like I am invading your space and well maybe that would be true if it wasn’t you who let me in to begin with.

I will always love you but, this is not healthy or right for me to keep living this way that makes me feel like I’m putting apart of my life on hold for someone who will never pull me into a world that I deserve.

One with less hurt and pain and disappointment, one that feels like two people are working to make this right and now just one person trying to knock down everything you put up to keep them out.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes