Month: October 2022

simplier back in the day

but now there is always something to do.

And I find myself once again trying to avoid it all again.

I don’t want to lose myself when it comes to doing all that I want to do in the end.

But this path I am on is unpredictable and life is flying by and it has so many demands for me I don’t know how to keep up.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

That I have to offer you

Other than my words and my actions

And in those moments I am vulnerable

And something I’m okay with that as I open up and share who I am with you.

But other times, it feels too open and raw, and I want to hide away.

And not get too close for when I show me is when you hurt me.

I know I should learn to trust more, but it’s hard when you’ve been cut more than you would have liked.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Clue of what I am doing as I try to do better.

The words and thoughts come and go so fast I can barely write it all down.

But here I am trying to not waste my time and thoughts as the words I need to say don’t come out and the things I need to fight for I put on the back burner and hope they work themselves out.

But I know no one will go hard for me as I will as I know how it is to be me and the struggle is here now but gone soon.

So much to do but somehow, I don’t want to say all the things that need be said because I don’t know how to tell them all right now.

So, I say quiet and keep to myself and let the fall get me through it all for even when I’m tired Lord.

I trust in you and myself to do the right thing.

For the clues of my life are slowly fall into place as I stop being so much like the dark me.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

and trust that everything I need I will receive from my Lord is hard sometimes

But lately I’ve been walking through life at peace and even though I have things that need to get done.

That frustration and overwhelming feeling is not there as I move forward with my goals.

Things seem clearer and I just know I must have let go of all that was holding me back and now I’m free to move forward.

Free to believe in myself and trust my God.

For when it is my time it will all work out and there is no point in letting my self-doubt win this time.

For I feel the time for success and being a bigger person is now.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Able to use my words

Every day is a blessing as I fight through life’s challenges.

Some days are more peaceful than others, and I am grateful for all the chances I’ve had in life.

And I keep going forward even when all the doubt I feel is self-doubt.

I realize I am my enemy most of the time, and it’s time to love and support myself if I want to make a difference. Suppose I want to complete things and continue to grow.

It all starts with me, my faith, and the rest will fall into place.

There is no timeline even if I want there to be, for it’s not me that will deliver at the end.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

Up on this cold fall day as I look forward to eating hot things.

I am trying to stay positive as things keep blowing in every direction lately.

I feel like a leaf on a windy day, not knowing where I may be going but hoping for the best.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes

The rain poured down around me on another cold day.

It makes me appreciate all my things and how quickly they can disappear.

As the day goes on, I don’t want to be responsible for someone else mistakes as the simple things confuse them.

I can’t hold hands when I’m being pulled in so many directions myself.

But the countdown begins as two more nights, and I can taste the freedom that awaits me.

Everything that will happen will be on me, and there will be no sides to pick.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes Copyrighted ©️ 2022 By Deirdre Stokes