Tag: from the heart

Poetry

I don’t

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how to feel right now for I have so many emotions running through me.

I am happy but yet I am sad and tired and feeling lost but with a somewhat focus on moving forward.

I want to admit so many things but, I’ve always been the one to keep it to myself and I start to wonder who truly knows me.

I’m sometimes open up about the things that go on in my life but, other times I keep it all to myself.

I wonder if I’m helping myself or hurting my chances at really seeing this world for what it truly is.

I know I’m trapped in a box that well always seems to be going in the same circle that only seems to drain me.

Nothing seems to bring much joy to me when I’m in that box because returning to it is not something I look forward too.

I can feel my smile slipping off my face as I walk through that place, I try to be positive and hopeful but, that pretending just isn’t happening anymore.

I don’t know when I will finally let it all out but sometimes it’s right there on my tongue and I just want to scream it.

And frankly, I don’t care how I look to the people on the outside for I’m done caring and well it feels freeing to know that this is not the end for me.

In time my plan will come to be and the scream will feel so right and strong for damn I will wonder why I waited so long.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

We all

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want to be loved and understood and heard.

But, while we we’re looking for others to pay attention to us so that we feel important.

All we get is disappointment and nothing to gain but so much to lose.

If we just accept that we are already loved and we are already someone important.

Then doing what we love will make us feel this feeling that no one in this world could give us and they surely wouldn’t be able to take it away.

I’m a loner and lately it hasn’t been that bad for I’ve found my happiness on my own and I’m relying more on my God and myself now.

Yes, I still like to talk to others but the overwhelming feeling that used to eat me up inside unless I talk to someone is gone.

And I don’t try that hard anymore and maybe I don’t care that much either.

But, I’m still me if you ever still need me, I’m still here fighting and letting go of the things I can’t control.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes