Tag: Hope

Poetry

I want to

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Say I choose you always

But that would be a lie.

For I allow myself to get lost in things to avoid other things.

But it always catches up with me and so truly enjoying things are well not so much lately.

As my body betrays me and I lay awake trying everything to just fade back into a dream or into nothing.

But the minute I close my eyes they are opening again only to discover time has yet to move.

I want things to be a little different right now but it is what it is.

For I have no control over anything right now and I’m not sure how to feel about that.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

To be

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Strong when all you want to do is crawl up in a corner.

To let tears, flow when you can’t hold it all in anymore.

To love unconditionally and hope they will come out alright after you did all you could to nurture them.

To laugh and learn all there is without a manuscript insight but, have so many compliments about what a great job you did.

I would say that these are just a couple things I have seen a great mother do.

For all the things as a child that annoyed me or enlighten me it all stayed with me and made me realize I am who I am because my mother did the best she could.

And her best made me know that I got all I needed to become a good woman and one day a good mother too.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m not

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the light you were looking for because

I destroy and make things more complicated then it has to be.

And here I am fighting no one but my own demons as the world seems to be trying to survive something that is always changing.

We try to stay positive but that can all change each day but in the end of some articles are hope as someone survives the virus and the path seemed so impossible but we know he can do all things and that includes the impossible.

I know this is trying times and there will be darker days than lighter ones but there will be an end for there always is one and when we come out nothing will be the same but we will be smarter and safer in all that we do for we are never alone.

And it’s time to change the way we enjoy things and just realize that the things we thought were in is well out now and being alive and healthy should be enough.

For being bored is just another way to complain about what nothing for others don’t have the chance to be bored for worry is more on their mind and as much as we all wish this was a dream.

It’s a wake up call everyday and night and maybe one day we will realize and know all there is to this moment, this memory that will always be with us and that we lived through something we never imagined could happen to us now or ever.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

If only

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Time would speed up and I could just get out here.

and just get lost in something for I feel like I need a break.

To early to tell how the day will be but the hope that it will be fine is all I’m looking forward too.

And going back to bed for sleep is calling my name more than work is as I head out the door.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I didn’t

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Know going into the unknown

Would break the dam of feelings I’ve been dealing with.

The feeling of not knowing why or how to find my way out.

But allowing those moments of being lost to guide me to a path I didn’t see myself being worthy of.

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Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

But now, I realize this has been what I’ve always wanted and it was years ago that I let this path fade away.

And now it’s time to go back to what truly completes me and defines me for me.

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Poetry

Night

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Dark

Day bright.

But all I feel and know is fading in front of me.

Like the street night that slowly goes out as the sunrises each morning.

Searching for clues that will solve what you need to know.

May turn out to be great or they may shake-up your life for good.

And once those secrets are our there is no going back to what you thought was the full truth.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I’m running

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Low on fuels and I don’t know what to do.

I try to sleep more and that helps a little.

But now I’m running low again and so eat more things that will keep my energy up.

But I’m so tired and I just don’t know what to do.

I know I’d be a fool if I think I can keep going like this.

But what to do is the question of the hour.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Spring is

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I hope as it got up to 61 degrees outside

and the sweatpants have to be put away.

But, this spring feeling doesn’t seem to be lasting very long and the temperature starts to drop again as it starts to get dark outside.

So much to look forward too as the clocks are set forward and what feels like nine am is now ten am.

I look forward to what is to come for I am quite tired of the cold and up and downs as I just want to go outside and keep once layer on not keep adding for I don’t want to sick.

The ability to go some where is quite risky these days and makes you second guess your plans as the days continue on.

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Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Sometimes

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Three Line Tales, Week 214

photo by Jorge Flores via Unsplash

the broken pieces inside of us because the art that we see all around and even when you see the pain that someone has released doesn’t mean you know everything about that person.

For the eye may not see everything but it may notice a lot when it is observing its surrounding for the first time but hopefully not the last.

So much to be seen and so much to remember as you take picture after picture with no desire to stop for you are enjoying these type of photo’s.

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Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I needed

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This moment to appreciate all I have and may get later.

Tired is my body and hungry is my soul.

I crave the words that come from stories and books.

I crave the sound of music and can’t wait to hear the beat.

The words that stay with me forever.

I crave the sleep that I will gain once I lay down in bed.

I appreciate the one that helps me through it all and not just for today.

I know I’m ready to be near him and to know this struggle was worth it for I am worth it.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

What do

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You see when you look at me?

I kinda want to know

But then again not really.

I realize some people don’t think an plan through as much as I would.

Or how greed can cloud your mind until your faced with a option you didn’t see coming.

I wish the situation was different and well it had all worked out better but now it’s really about to get real and how it will end is not even clear to me.


Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Just another

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day.

Just another moment to realize team work isn’t always the way people go.

Just another one sided relationship that gets you no where quickly.

You begin to see who to watch for.

And who to avoid.

Just another week and yet your already counting down the hours and days until your off.

Because things may have changed but you still want it to be your day off and to enjoy the little bit more of sleep you will get.

With no alarm set and no one disturbing you.

Just sleep that carry’s on into the night.

So just another day isn’t how it really is and you are starting to really appreciate each day and moment for what it is.

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Poetry

I won’t

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Start looking for you for you are meant to find me.

I won’t start making a list about you for you are to come to me as you are and all that you are will be enough.

I will be full of words that will express how you make me feel but I won’t come on too strong.

I know once we are one it will be hard and impossible to break us apart.

For if we are meant to be it will last and through every storm and celebration we will grow and learn. 

 For I won’t stop hoping you will come to me soon and shake up my very quite life again.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

Am I

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To fold to every demand you try to make.

Or will you realize I’m not that same girl.

Things have changed and you may not be okay with that.

But I am because I’m taking back my life and my words and my confidence.

I am tired of second guessing things and hesitating about other things.

I may have been a little over the top but I didn’t make you feel like an outsider looking in on well a life that truly wasn’t never mine.

I found my voice once I let you go and now I barely think of you.

I think you pop up I my mind as a reminder I am and always will be stronger and better off without you! 

 

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes