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Poetry

So

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much has changed as one season of my life comes to an end and another begins.

The tears and the anger and the hurt is in the past now.

As the smile comes out and feeling of being calm is all I want to feel right now.

No rushing

No stressing out

Just as one breathes one at a time with no urgency at all.

So much to do but nothing is more important than me slowing down and taking care of myself first.

As spring comes and flowers start to bloom again, so will I as I come out of my shell and make the right moves in my life even though I know it’s not for the first time it sure feels like it is.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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How was

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I to know this moment wasn’t just some ordinary day but, the moment I’ve been waiting for.

The moment when everything would change because I got off the floor that day and took charge of the life that was giving to me.

I know now that there will always be parts of my life that I won’t have answers to because the questions aren’t mine to answer to.

So I may put distance between the situations but, can you blame me when I’ve tried so many times to get your attention.

I was okay to be part of your life then but, now I am something of the past and I am fine with that for I am living in the present and you are barely on my mind.

But, you will always have a piece of my heart and I will always care about what will become if you.

I am a stranger to you now and only when I go down memory lane do I think about the fun we had but, now I must keep moving so I keep growing and living with a smile on my face now and then.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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She

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was more than the frame she put her artwork in.

She was more than the color that flowed down on the canvases

She created things that were so beautiful it always was mind-blowing.

She was someone who didn’t believe she was good enough to stand in the crowd with others that called themselves artist.

She felt she just didn’t fit in and the way she felt wasn’t the way they felt and the connection some had with each other just wasn’t the connection she felt.

She felt alone in a world that always left her surrounded by people who saw or but didn’t bother to get to know her.

Or people who didn’t really see her and so she wasn’t even a thought to them, only a little saw who she was and got to know her and in time she trusted them.

She is an artist and sometimes a lost soul but, she is still trying to find herself and in that she is creating things that change and enlighten you on everything you thought you knew.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Like

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a mummy I have become someone I wasn’t before.

I’ve changed so much of me just to fit in and now

I don’t know who I am or what I stand for anymore.

As I hide away because I took everything that was great and natural and turned in something that took away my true beauty and it doesn’t matter if I’m awesome.

For I can’t see who I truly am anymore because I choose to change and became something of our history and what I am now is taking away from all the good things I’ve done and what I have yet to do.

So many what if’s are running through my mind as I do everything inside the comfort of my home for the fear of being judged for what I’ve done and not able to go back to what I was and what I could have been.

 

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

Poetry

I don’t

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think it matters anymore

as I float above the negativity.

I see the light that is shining my way and I’m not afraid to embrace the possibility of something great coming my way.

I won’t let those that throw stone my way bring me down completely.

I’m fighting for more than they could ever understand.

So I won’t grow weak when the time comes and I have to face you all and say my side of the story.

Maybe one day you will understand or maybe you won’t even care than too.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Your

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is pure and so full of goodness that I almost forget your human too.

You care even after all the wrong has been thrown your way.

You still hold on even though you realize no one else would and still you stand strong by their side.

You have your moments but, you don’t want to keep feeding the fire and so you turn away from those that are just purely wrong but lashes out at others because they feel they can.

They choose to be something you won’t tolerate for the long haul, you’re looking for away from this evil that tries to turn you towards their way.

But, you know and you see there is no good going down that path and in the end you know what will become of that person but you won’t fall down with them.

You’ve tried to help them the best that you can but, they keep slapping your hand away and doing everything on their own.

You are polite to them and try to not let them get to you even though you want to say something so bad, even you know the battle is not worth fighting.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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If I

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want to overcome the things that feel like I’m chained to and at the moment I am feeling too weighted down to move forward.

First I must know what I am fighting against.

Secondly I must be willing to give it all that I have and more.

Thirdly I must care what weakness I saw because that flaw will help me not just get through it but truly heal from it when I am done.

The wound that will come open will close beautifully and there will be no more doubt in my mind that I can get through it if I just believe and have faith that God is holding my hand through it all .

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I’m in

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my moment because of you and I don’t know what the plan I feel that is coming is.

But, I’m ready to give it all up and move forward for the life that feels like floating on air.

The life that feels like a nice breeze blowing through you air, the sun shinning down on you as you lean your head back.

The feeling when you’re so hot that when the first rain drop hits your forehead you just sigh with relief that the heat wave is over in this moment as you let the rain pour down on you.

The moment when the cold morning air is welcoming as you wake up as you walk out the door and welcome the winter in hopes spring will come soon.

You realize that the moment that you will overcome the struggle is near and you can feel it as you make big changes in your life.

You know that you are fully embracing all that you are and there is not  a moment you want to forget of deny.

You are in your moment and the feeling is so amazing that words really can’t describe how good you feel as you are filled with so much love and confident that you could ever want or need.

For this is your moment and no one can take that a way from you and your mind will replay it over and over until you do better next time.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I

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want the peace to wash over me right now as the stress takes over.

Wreaking everything around me and ripping me apart little by little each day and moment that it’s around.

I don’t want to feel as if I’m not at the top of my game but, at the same time I won’t allow myself to fall apart because of other people choices in life.

I won’t reflect on the things that you decide is not important to you because we were raised different and I feel bad when I drop the ball and let people down when there is little help to begin with.

I won’t stand by feeling sad for you when all the lies you have told catches up to you and I will not be the one handling you case either.

I will not be apart of any of it as you talk on with no responds from me and in the end I will know all my hard work paid off and what you have learned from this lesson will not be my concern.

I will not become hard because of the difficult moments I’ve faced because of others for I was and am strong enough to handle them for now.

I listen to my God who has always has my back and is not two-faced and trust I do not take for grated and one I trust with my life and will always have my back.

One day the peace I once felt will last more than two days but a lifetime and when that day comes I will truly smile and enjoy my life.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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I know

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you want me to go far and just when I feel I can’t do what I used to do you tell me

your strength will come back and you will be better than before.

And don’t you doubt yourself for you are great and the moment you realize that the better.

There is no time to be wasted for while you have already wasted so much and it’s time to take that second chance and run with it my dear.

You  are one with yourself if you just knock down that wall and open that curtain and let the light back inside.

You are strong and you are beautiful and your words matter more than you could ever know.

Open up and don’t hide away no matter how bad things get because this year, this moment is yours and if you keep letting them slip by I don’t know if you will ever be open enough to keep looking and believing in me.

So starting tomorrow don’t be afraid to get up and do what you know needs to be done and in the long run things will pay off and you will be strong enough to say no to the temptation that will come your way.

No time to be distracted and down, Smile and shine until you believe you can do the impossible because I will always be here pushing the way for you.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

 

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Smiling

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again as the white snow falls all around me

for I have peace again and the feeling just feels so right.

It is cold out and as much as I dislike being cold right now

the cold is numbing out the things that make me sad and is bring forth the memories of spending time in the snow and how happy that made me.

The precious snow and the precious time I have and how when I walk back inside that happiness may just disappear but in this moment I will remember the joy I felt inside and felt on my face as I just smiled.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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In my

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cocoon of blankets trying to forget about the cold that is brewing outside.

Waiting out the winter days in hope for days that are less cold than today.

waiting for the ache in my throat to go away as I drink something hot again today, when will the season of cold feet, aching body and just not in the mood to go out when it’s too cold to enjoy a moment.

For the moment to get out is just wasted as I ended up back inside my cocoon with nothing showing but my eyes as I wait for this time to go by faster than it is right now.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

 

 

 

 

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WINTER

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how cold it is and how much rain has fallen that as the year ends the rain comes to wash out the last bit of bad and unfortunate things that have happen to you.

You stand outside preparing yourself to the things that will come next year and your hope that things will get better is so high that all you can do is give a little smile for 2019.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Christmas Eve

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And the day started off feeling like there was no time left to play around.

The day started with a lot of work to be done and ended with lots of laughter.

What is happening is just something you have to jump into and let it go through it’s cycle.

And when it’s done just let it go and just go back to your every day cycle of life.

Maybe something will change along the way but right now this is just how it’s meant to be.

Written By: Deirdre Stokes

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Eight days

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until I can truly feel the joy of this season.

The days leading up are all filled with working and cleaning and rushing around to get things down.

When it’s finally here and then the next move will be focusing on the next holiday and the next moment you get to just relax.

Soon it will be just another day of the week and the list of things to do will build up again.

 

Written By: Deirdre Stokes