Pretty face they say.
But in my mind everything
Is becoming too much as it feels like
I could explode at anytime.
Sad eyes always trying to hold it together
When all I want to do is scream.
When will the pressure release it’s self
So I can be in control again and feel weightless.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
You in felt like I had finally let down that wall.
That had kept me safe all these years.
I didn’t know why I was so drawn to you all those years ago.
Maybe it was your smile or your kind eyes.
All I know is I trusted you then as I do now
Even though things are short and stained I still cherish all that our friendship stands for.
And I hope your doing better and that we will see each other again someday.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Change and you
Realize the things that used to bother you
don’t anymore.
At least not in the way they did before.
It’s like they don’t stick to you anymore and so they don’t ruin your mood.
Or your day or week or month.
They just coexist with you
And maybe they get solved and you move on?
Or they just keep floating along forgotten this whole time.
But your story keeps going and the growth in your faith and your lifestyle.
Keeps expanding until doubt and insecurity no longer hold you back.
Your path is clear and your mind and heart
are open to so many more possibilities.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
What you wanted her to be
Beautiful
Colorful
Unique
And yet still she wasn’t enough for you.
So you punished her and did all you could to break her spirit.
She fought for so long to stay strong.
But sometimes she was too tired to keep up the shield that protected her all her life.
And she would grow weak and start to believe what you had said about her all this time.
But, after a couple of days, she would grow strong again.
And your words would fall to deaf ears.
As she knew the lies of your words
She hoped soon to be free of your cruelty and to live in peace.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
is all about celebrating this moment together
and I let go all the outside worries and concerns.
As sit out here on such a lovely night, drinking some wine and some food as well.
We know its been a long time coming and we are both excited for this milestone and fruitful future together.
But right now we just want to be in the present and go from there.
Tonight I wear red and I feel so free as my dress flows around me.
Romance is what this night will be all about and for that I am grateful I’m getting to spend time with you.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Stand in the storm
So calm with no fear
That the rain could bring you down at any moment.
So strong and so beautiful you stand through it all and even when the pain is too great.
You still fight through it and sometimes you keep it all to yourself.
And I wonder how much longer you can stand on your own this time my friend.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Can answer these unanswered questions for me.
But, waiting for you to find the time seems like a longer wait then I thought.
But I will dig deep and use my patience for once.
And as days turn into weeks and so on I will wait for you.
For the answers are worth the wait at least that’s what I keep telling myself these days.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
guides me when I don’t know what to do
and lately its been a difficult to focus on anything other then my light.
It’s spreads out around me trying it’s best to keep the darkness at bay.
But, these days the light and darkness are dancing through out the day and night.
Maybe they will play nice and work together to keep my life balanced.
Then maybe things will be peaceful and less of a game of tug a war.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
To wait for you to change?
Or am I to change and move on and see what this world truly has to offer me.
Even lost I don’t seek you anymore for that would only bring back the sadness I’ve shaken off.
I won’t look back for what is it I’m fighting for anyways?
Everything so unclear as a part of me screams for you.
But, I know your not an option right now for me.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Float through life lately I feel some pieces of me falling away
Like leaves from a tree when fall has finally arrived.
But that season has yet to come as spring slowly fades away and summer comes in.
From cold to warm to hot everything in my mind seems to go from thawed out to frozen to melting away.
Nothing seems as clear as before all of this and in a way I feel I found my voice again.
No longer sitting around waiting for inspiration but it showing up and taking control.
Maybe this change is what I’ve been waiting for and should embrace it and accept the pieces of me that have been left behind.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
All that is in me
No matter how good or bad it is.
For I’m tired of holding it in.
And that it is all out in the open I can’t seem to hate it for it’s a beautiful sight.
All the different moments and emotions that make up just who I am.
Is floating around me making a beautiful rainbow of life.
A life that seems to be growing more and more with no end in sight just yet.
At this moment I am truly alive and I’m not holding back anymore for life feels so much more precious now.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
the light you were looking for because
I destroy and make things more complicated then it has to be.
And here I am fighting no one but my own demons as the world seems to be trying to survive something that is always changing.
We try to stay positive but that can all change each day but in the end of some articles are hope as someone survives the virus and the path seemed so impossible but we know he can do all things and that includes the impossible.
I know this is trying times and there will be darker days than lighter ones but there will be an end for there always is one and when we come out nothing will be the same but we will be smarter and safer in all that we do for we are never alone.
And it’s time to change the way we enjoy things and just realize that the things we thought were in is well out now and being alive and healthy should be enough.
For being bored is just another way to complain about what nothing for others don’t have the chance to be bored for worry is more on their mind and as much as we all wish this was a dream.
It’s a wake up call everyday and night and maybe one day we will realize and know all there is to this moment, this memory that will always be with us and that we lived through something we never imagined could happen to us now or ever.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
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Time would speed up and I could just get out here.
and just get lost in something for I feel like I need a break.
To early to tell how the day will be but the hope that it will be fine is all I’m looking forward too.
And going back to bed for sleep is calling my name more than work is as I head out the door.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Low on fuels and I don’t know what to do.
I try to sleep more and that helps a little.
But now I’m running low again and so eat more things that will keep my energy up.
But I’m so tired and I just don’t know what to do.
I know I’d be a fool if I think I can keep going like this.
But what to do is the question of the hour.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
Up inside so my day is not just a blur.
So I can see what all is going on around me
For I don’t want to miss a moment in this life.
I’ve grown to enjoy the path I am on right now.
I don’t want to look back at where I’ve been before for now it has been flooded by bad memories.
So to be in this place right now where stress isn’t on my mind and peace is present in every way and form.
Today is going to be an great day since you woke me up this way.
Written By: Deirdre Stokes
Copyright ©️ 2020 By Deirdre Stokes
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